• Search
Shop Popflex
Hit enter to search or ESC to close

Wednesday
May 20, 2026

  • Explore
    • Blog
    • Videos
    • Challenges
    • Blogicomics
  • Food
    • Recipes
    • From Our RD
    • High Protein Recipes
  • Feelings
    • Body Image
  • Health + Fitness
    • Workouts
    • Challenges
    • Printables + Calendars
    • Transformations
  • Journeys
    • My 90 Day Journey ®
  • Cassey’s Blog
  • Shop
    • Popflex Active
    • Target

Archive for October 29th, 2020

Most Recent

weekly planner workout rest day
Wellness, Feelings, Cassey's Blog
Wellness, Feelings, Cassey's Blog
|

30 Comments

Dear Cassey: If I don’t work out, I feel panicked and stressed.

Dive into something else

food
BEST OF
food
BODY IMAGE
food
FEELINGS
food
ENTREPRENEURSHIP
issue
FOOD
relation
LIFE

blogilates

Founder/CEO, Head Designer and Inventor.
My brands: @popflex_active, and Blogilates exclusively at Target 🎯

From attending the Asian American Foundation award From attending the Asian American Foundation awards with the CEO of YouTube and my fellow AAPI creators to watching both the Michael movie and MJ the musical on Broadway, this month has me thinking a lot about my upbringing. I’ve been finding myself on the verge of tears more often than I’d like.

A little backstory: you may or may not know, but I’m a huge MJ fan - oddly, a late stage one. I “discovered” him in high school during the 2003 Martin Bashir special that was meant to totally destroy Michael, but for some reason I saw nothing but a really talented performer. And that’s when my obsession with all things MJ began. Read all the books, bought all the CDs, and studied his performances bc I was a girl on a mission to learn the moonwalk! I ended up doing a dance to Beat It for the talent portion of the Miss Teen Chinatown pageant and I really do think THAT is what tipped the scales in my favor!

Anyway, watching Michael was beautifully nostalgic but when Joe Jackson came on the screen, the things he said reminded me so much of my dad that I was holding back tears the entire movie. 

Growing up my dad yelled at me when I hit a “lousy” shot during tennis practice, he yelled at me when I couldn’t solve a math problem, he yelled at me so much becoming a perfectionist was the only way I knew how to be. 

Later on in life when I finally rebelled and didn’t follow his plan for me to be a doctor, our relationship broke into pieces. The most hurtful part is that my “success” today is viewed in a similar way to how Joe Jackson viewed Michael’s success: a result of his doing. 
 
I want to be clear that I love both my mom and dad and I am grateful for the way I was raised because it made me FIGHT to become exactly who I am today. I don’t wish to change my upbringing but I do wish to have a better relationship with my dad before it’s too late.

On a slightly diff note: NYC was great! Food was great! But the trip left me with a lot of feelings to dissect. From attending multiple glamorous events to reflecting on MJ’s tragic end, I’m thinking a lot about human nature and how we treat people based on who we think they are vs who they really are.
V4 of my swim romper is here and it’s the best one V4 of my swim romper is here and it’s the best one, hands down. 

I’m wearing the @popflex_active Riptide Romper in XS (one size down from my normal small bc I wanted it cheekier and I wanted a lower neckline) but it’s true to size so you do not need to do that esp if you’re looking for coverage!
Literally was set on wearing a whole ‘nother dress Literally was set on wearing a whole ‘nother dress to this event until I was about to walk out the door and Sam told me it was completely see through 💀 why WHYYYYYYYYYYY

Anyway, a lil snippet of youtuber/content creator life outside of my day to day @popflex_active founder/ceo life. 

Everything started with one fateful Pilates video that I uploaded to YouTube in 2009. The universe has its way of steering you in the right direction, no matter how winding, if you’re just willing to listen to your heart.
Which one piece is your fave? Also, thank you fo Which one piece is your fave? 

Also, thank you for all the support on my last post! It was so nice seeing that many of you really understood where I was coming from. And for those that didn’t and really doubled down and pushed their argument in a totally different direction to try to invalidate my very real feelings about my vision for @popflex_active, unfortunately we are not only on different pages, we’re in completely different genres of completely different novels.
To be clear I AM NOT anti coverage. Like a longer To be clear I AM NOT anti coverage. Like a longer skort makes sense for taller girls but I AM anti baggy swim short one hand above the knee. 

There is a clear difference.

And if you don’t see the difference, then we have a disconnect, and it’s better for me to be transparent with you now vs you feeling like I’m not living up to your expectations…because that aesthetic was never in my DNA to begin with. 

Obvi love and respect for all of you, regardless if our style preferences align or not! Don’t stop giving feedback and ideas. I just don’t like it when people start getting entitled with their requests and demand things in a way that shows a lack of appreciation for the time, the skill, and the care that goes into every single @popflex_active design.
I already know what you’re gonna say next 🥲 I’m w I already know what you’re gonna say next 🥲

I’m wearing the @popflex_active high tide bikini bottoms and the island breeze bikini top. And yessssss there are many more styles and options on the website! Please go for a lil browse. I hope I’ve already made what you’re asking for!

Can I write you?

Sign up to get my weekly newsletter.

  • About
  • Contact
  • Contribute
  • Terms & Conditions
  • Privacy Policy

keep in touch

11M

3.7M

3.2M

1.8M

422K

© Blogilates
All Rights Reserved

  • Explore
    Arrow Icon
    • Blog
    • Videos
    • Challenges
    • Blogicomics
  • Food
    Arrow Icon
    • Recipes
    • From Our RD
    • High Protein Recipes
  • Feelings
    Arrow Icon
    • Body Image
  • Health + Fitness
    Arrow Icon
    • Workouts
    • Challenges
    • Printables + Calendars
    • Transformations
  • Journeys
    Arrow Icon
    • My 90 Day Journey ®
  • Cassey’s Blog
  • Shop
    Arrow Icon
    • Popflex Active
    • Target