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Today I woke up and decided that I needed to take back the life that I want to live.

Working out used to be something that I enjoyed quietly as a “regular person”. Blogging used to be a safe place where I could truly spill my honest thoughts. But now – everything that I do, eat, or say is critiqued. Of course 100% by my choice for being a public figure…but…the public judgement of it all has made me a more timid, scared person. I tip toe around sensitive personalities and treat everything like it’s so fragile, but NO MORE. I’m gonna grab life “by the balls” and JUST LIVE LIFE the way I want.

So today is day 1. Of 90.

I said it. And I am not taking it back.

This is a personal journey I want to embark on to get in the best shape of my life – mentally and physically. It begins today August 16th and will end November 14th.

Why am I doing this?

Well to be completely honest, I stepped on the scale on Monday and weighed in at 136 lbs – which is THE HEAVIEST I have EVER been.

To give you some reference… I am 5’5″. And last October 2018, I weighed 122 lbs for my wedding. I have gained 14 lbs in less than a year. When I lived in Boston around 2011-ish I was about 118 lbs. When I did my bikini competition in 2012, I started at 126 lbs and went down to about 113 lbs. I was lean then, but very unhappy. The training and dieting I did for that was not sustainable and left me in a bad place mentally with the way I viewed my body. Since the bikini competition, I have gained 23 lbs.

I’m not going to be delusional and say that it is all muscle, because it is not. Maybe some, but not all.

Stress over the years of running a business, taking care of other people and not having time to take care of myself has taken a toll on me. It shows in the pimples on my face, the whites in my hair, and in the weight I have gained.

So, it’s time to take my life back. I’m going to do this for myself and you’re welcome to read along. But, if any talk of scales, weight loss, and dieting triggers you – note that you have been warned.

“But this isn’t body positive!”

I really don’t wanna hear this. It’s comments like that that make me feel like I can’t do anything anymore.

You can view working out as a negative or positive thing. Your choice! Your body. Your life. But understand this – just because a woman wants to lose weight or change her body does not mean she’s not body positive. Do you hear me?

What is body negative about getting healthier, increasing your confidence, feeling happier, and getting stronger? Hmm. Nothing.

As long as you love your body every step of the way, you’re in a healthy mental state.

So let’s get over this.

What will I eat?

Okay, so I have been thinking ALL DAY about what program I am going to do. So many options. I have literally tried everything – body builder high protein, vegan, vegetarian, pescatarian, low carb/high fat (kinda Keto but not really), Whole 30, 28 Day Reset, etc.

I notice that in the first 30 days of following ANY diet, I will lose about 5 lbs. Then my body becomes stagnant. Not sure what I will do to battle that this time around, so I guess I will say upfront that I will just need to be as flexible as my body desires.

So here’s what I know:

  • I don’t want to count calories
  • Grains and breads bloat me
  • A mixture of sugar and dairy makes me break out
  • Eating high protein has given me the best results in the past
  • Eating super high protein has made my brain feel cloudy
  • Eating high fat keeps me satiated
  • Going vegan made me bruise a lot and has also made me feel lethargic
  • Eating lots of carbs makes me wanna eat a lot more carbs
  • Whole30 was fine but it doesn’t allow ANY processed food or added sugars so I couldn’t have Sriracha and I love Sriracha
  • I like to snack
  • I like to cook
  • I prefer to have a list of ingredients that I can play with instead of a strict meal plan
  • I like Asian flavors, and just intense flavors in general

So…where does that leave me?

Ha, I think it leaves me in a place where I just need to choose something and stick with it for the first 30 days. So, I’m going to choose the one that keeps me full and satiated. I’m choosing high fat/low carb aka “Almost Keto”.

To be clear, I am not going Keto on purpose. I also don’t want to count my macros and check my ketone levels. I want my eating to feel like eating, not like a science experiment.

So here is my super general high fat, low carb “Almost Keto” grocery list:

  • Meats
  • Seafood
  • Veggies
  • Nuts
  • Mushrooms
  • Eggs
  • Cheeses
  • Greek yogurt
  • Mayo
  • Oils and butters
  • Pico de gallo and other fresh salsas
  • Avocados
  • Low carb fruits like strawberries, raspberries and blueberries

If you want a complete list, you can google “Keto grocery list”. I’ll pretty much be following this but allowing a little room for “fun”. Which means, I will allow hot sauces, flavoring sauces, and higher carb fruits when I feel like it.

How will I work out?

I am not so concerned about the work out aspect of this 90 day journey. I already work out anywhere between 5-6x a week consistently. But this time around, I’m going to do MORE of the things I love – like dance and Pilates. I want to allow myself to be free and not have the “you have to DIE in each workout or else it doesn’t count” mentality.

However, I still do want to push myself and try different things. I will also add in a little more cardio than normal. That is why I have started running. But I think I’m going to get bored soon, so I will need to find a treadmill or HIIT class that is enjoyable! I’ll definitely do PIIT28 on days when I cannot get to the gym. But 5-6x a week is my minimum!

Measurements:

Here is my before pic.

Measurements are important because they are data points. I’ve learned to not let the scale control me or put a number on my self-worth. The scale’s job is to provide me with information. That is all.

Day 1, August 16th.

  • Weight: 136 lbs
  • Body fat %: 24.4%
  • Chest: 34″
  • Right arm: 11.25″
  • Left arm: 11.25″
  • Waist: 28″
  • Hips: 37.5″
  • Right thigh (3″ down): 22″
  • Left thigh (3″ down): 22″

I will monitor my weight and body fat % on the daily but I won’t measure myself until a 30 day period has passed. So that means on Sept 15, Oct 15, and Nov 14, I will update my stats here.

My physical goals?

Hmm, I’ll make 2 goals:

Weight goal: 120 lbs

Body fat % goal: 20% (so I can be in the “athlete level” for women)

Interesting that I’m currently in the upper end of Fitness body fat % and at the lower end of Average body fat %. This needs to change because it does not reflect how hard I work and my level of fitness.

I can already say right now that 120 lbs is going to take a lot for me to get there. But I’m putting it down on paper right now and I’m going to try everything I can (only healthy ways of course) to make it happen!

My wellness goals:

I will reward myself with 1 self-care thing a week. So that means a deep tissue massage every week!

My blogging goals:

My goal is to blog how I am feeling DAILY. I hope I’m not setting myself up for failure here (as I have not blogged consistently for a few years now), but I’m going to say it out loud: I WILL BLOG EVERY DAY FOR 90 DAYS!!! Even if it means a small paragraph, I need to blog because it will be my way of journaling.

Tools I’m currently using:

  • Apple Watch to track my runs
  • Happy Scale App to track my weight
  • Vanity Plant Digital Analyzer Scale to measure my weight, body fat %, and muscle mass
  • Classpass app so I can take classes and have other instructors kick my butt
  • Blogilates 12 Week Fit Journal to track my food, my workouts, my mood, and my measurements

How you can see my updates:

I’ll be IG story-ing some of my food and work outs but everything will live here on the blog in detail. I think I’ll share what I am eating the previous day in the next day’s post. That’ll make it easier so that I don’t have to wait until my last meal at night to write. I think I’ll just take a picture of my planner – that should be everything you’ll need to know! Plus emotions. Lots of emotions.

Okay guys – I think that’s it! I’m a little nervous, uncertain, and excited…but I feel really good now that I’ve written everything down. I guess we shall see what happens!!! Weeee!

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  • It’s wonderful Cassey !!! I hope you find your body and mind goals really. I am in the same phase as you. I transform a keto diet too :) I wish you the best really. !! Bise from France

  • themadisongarrett says:

    I think I’m going to take a 90 challenge of my own too. I’ve always wanted to workout more but I have the worst luck with consistency. One day off turns into a week off which turns into a reset. Thanks Cassey. I know you get a lot of hate and scrutiny but for me you’re an amazing inspiration. My goals are to workout consistently (take rest days of course but force myself to go hard again the next day), eat WAY healthier than I do now (more veggies but gradually cut down the sugar) and journal every single day without fail. I’ll give myself the rest of this week to prepare and then September 16 its a go!

  • Ann says:

    A bit late to the party! I’ve been considering a similar journey for a while, but have really been putting it off, but you’ve really inspired me! I’ll get my act together, shopping list and workouts, and join you on September 15th! Also, I think people sometimes have misconceptions about body positivity/loving your body as not needing to improve your health and fitness. You’ve always been an inspiration to me and I’ve loved following you all these years as I’ve improved my fitness. Don’t listen to the critiques

  • CLego says:

    First off, you are absolutely beautiful in your before pics!!! But you are the only one that knows how you feel inside. Just consider that maybe it is over work, over stress and not enough sleep that may be causing the weight gain and not food or lack of exercise. I have been battling those 3 things for years now and no matter what I do the weight won’t come off and easily piles on.

  • Emma says:

    I am going to do this for myself!!! I am done with not being body positive. And comparing myself to other people even though most people don’t even care what I look like.

  • Madi says:

    I’m starting my own journey today! I’ve never worked out consistently before & the time has finally come. I’m sick of hating the way I look in my clothes & avoiding the things I love to do (hike, swim, ski) because I’m ashamed of people seeing me get winded. I’m going to improve my life starting TODAY! & I’ll be following your journey for inspo. Thank you, Cassey.

  • Sondra says:

    Remember you got married & are adjusting to a new life. However, now that about 10 months have passed, enjoy this new journey & may you find satisfaction in reaching for those goals. And take time for you & your new husband. Smell the flowers.

  • tigress says:

    You go Cassie! I think with this new age of body positivity people are so quick to jump down peoples throats concerning weight loss that they don’t consider the most important part; the why. You’ve clearly stated the WHY you are doing this . So shame on anyone who looks at you and says you aren’t doing the right thing. You’ve done so much for not only the blogilates fanbase but for anyone who ever stumbled across one of your videos. Your content is great and all inclusive so the fact of the matter is for anyone to be “upset” at your desires to loose weight is in my opinion crap. Because you are your own person. And for those who think Cassie isn’t doing the right thing you clearly haven’t watched enough of her content. I appreciate you each and your hard work for helping me find my way back to fitness…..don’t let anyone stop you form your journey. I think it’s safe to say your true fans are here for you every step of the way. <3

  • Kaka says:

    This resonates so much with me! I have been putting my weight gain down to relocating, travelling and lack of homecooked food (I have not had a kitchen for the last 5 months!) but thanks to this email, I realise the least I can do is make peace with myself and acknowledge the fact, and then look FORWARD. Thank you so much for giving me this slap in the face (not literally, but it was a much-needed wakeup call)… Thank you Casey and let´s work hard together!!!!!

  • Katie says:

    Hey girl! You got this! Keep your eye on the goal and you’re gonna get there! Personal growth is a struggle but there is no gain if there is no pain! Every morning I’ve been listening to gratitude videos and “i am” videos on YouTube. It’s an easy way for me to start my morning grateful and set my goals! Lastly, thanks for being you. When I decided that I’m going to do for myself what you’re doing now, I started with one of your workout videos every morning before class. 😁

  • Kari says:

    I think this is a great idea! Body positive means loving your body at whatever weight, eliminating “I hate my stomach,” “I wish I was skinnier,” and other phrases like that. It does NOT mean never working out or never working towards being healthier. I am so inspired to do this along with you! I am at 145lbs…not my heaviest, but I’ve had the goal of reaching 130 and staying there for about 3 years now. ha ha ha I kind of go back and forth, weight wise, and have only gotten down to 140 right before vacation. Honestly, some of that is muscle because I started lifting more, but I want to be able to feel better about my body, and I’m starting a desk job soon, so I’ll have to be more mindful about my diet and exercise!

  • Tori says:

    I like what you said about body positivity. I am so tired of people being so touchy about weight loss, health goals, etc.
    Anywho, I totally get everything you’re saying. I gained about 10-15 pounds when I got married. I just had a baby and a csection so I almost feel like I’m starting aaallll over…. :( But im working on it! I’m 15-20 pounds away from my goal weight..I haven’t exactly decided on one, lol. I’m more worried about what my body looks like than I am with the scale.
    What I came here to say though, is you look great the way you are! But as long as you’re staying healthy, do what you want! But a 28 inch waist is AWESOME in my book.

  • Esther says:

    Awww Cassey!! You go girl!!! Don’t you pay attention to any negative comments!! Your goals sound great!! You got this!! You are so inspiring!!

  • Fiona says:

    Cassey you’re amazing! BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY: WHERE DID YOU GET THAT SPORTS BRA?!

  • Elaine says:

    Well you’ve inspired me to get off the lazy, lethargic, depression bus. I’m 52, weigh about 146 and am 5’5” tall like you but I look so much bigger and I am flabby and have cellulite. You really can attribute some of your weight gain to muscle since in comparison to me you look 20 lbs lighter than me and toned. Much of my problem has been menopause but I’m nit going to let it keep me down. I don’t eat many calories on most days but what I eat is not good enough because it’s not balanced so I’ll be fixing that. Like you I do better at higher protein foods. At 40 I weighed 107, yes 107, had 15% body fat, was way more active yet only working out doing three days of 45 minutes of cardio kickboxing, plus two one hour classes of Pilates per week. That’s it. When I had my son at 38 I weighed 163, lost the weight associated with being pregnant and got down to 143 in two months naturally (meaning just existing, lol, no working out or changing how I ate). Three months after having my son I took a real look at myself -my body, how I felt emotionally and physically and my confidence and I said screw this noise, I’m getting back in shape. I’d had my daughter nearly five years before and bounced back to my natural 120lbs but was depressed, cellulitey, and lethargic. Worked out with a few trainers but wasn’t loving any of it. Fell off the bandwagon so by the time I became pregnant my son I weighed about 140lbs. The rest you know up until three months after I had him. So after those three months I started a walking program pushing him in his stroller every single morning, seven days a week and sometimes twice on Sundays. I started with three mile walks and took it up to six miles everyday within a few weeks of the start of my weight loss, get in shape journey. I started in Feb of 2006 and by the end of June I weighed 117 from 143. In June I had added two one hour private sessions of Pilates and by August I had added cardio kickboxing. I of course didn’t walk on the days when I took classes. Within a couple of months I had stopped walking except maybe a very rare Sunday walk. My body took so well to the Pilates cardio kickboxing combo that I stopped my six mile walks all together. I noticed I was putting on some nice lean muscle with the classes and I was so happy as while I’d been active when younger and always in shape I never had noticeable muscles! I loved being able to buy clothes that fit well and I had loads of confidence for me. I still never thought I looked great but I was satisfied. I ate big, huge, ten vegetables in a bowl salads with either cut up steak or chicken or salmon or ground beef or turkey. Didn’t eat a thing before any workouts to maximize stored fat/calorie burn. Ate a protein bar on my way home from my workout classes to feed my hunger and then ate some peanut butter, or sliced chicken or turkey, nuts, with a banana or an apple for lunch. Then I’d have another high protein snack at around 3pm and the salad dinner at around 6-7pm. Then I hurt my left knee. Ended up with three tears in the meniscus of my left knee. Had to have surgery. Kept up with the Pilates but customized to my knee recovery plus I did two days a week of an hour of physical therapy. Very little cardio. That’s when I started gaining weight.

    And now at 52 I feel totally blah. lol be done your 30 days of glutes and abs and a few other workouts of yours. Loved them. But then my menopause got crazy. Sleeping 2-4 hours a night, feeling exhausted or lethargic the next day especially late afternoon, move from GA to CA, dealing with a teen daughter (lol, love her), blah, blah, blah, lost 20 lbs just from hiking and eating healthier but not necessarily healthy and found myself at 140lbs and stuck there. I’ve gained some of that weight back because of menopause symptoms dragging me down, laziness, not eating enough and/or the right foods. So when I came across your YouTube video on your 90 day losing weight journey I was inspired to get off my a$$.

    I love your attitude, your up beat personality, and your determination. I’ll be starting my journey tomorrow, Monday, August 26. I’ll be looking into the Keto grocery list and changing up the foods I eat but not actually doing Keto. I hope to:
    1. Lose weight. 2. Eat healthier foods and combos of food. 3. Gain muscle. 4. Be more positive and confident as I reach my goals. 5. Sleep better. 6. Get back out on my hikes when it gets cooler (yes, I live in southern Cali but I’m so hot all day and night even with the AC set to 69, ceiling fans going l, and a portable fan moved with me from room to room. I’m not kidding, I bought a tall but this fan that helps with the heat and hot flashes and night sweats).

    So I’m off on my own journey. Thank you for the inspiration!

  • Jacqueline says:

    I think it is great that you are working on making yourself feel better. In the end that is what it is about. Figuring out what our body needs can be difficult. It might also need different things at different stages in our life. Thanks for sharing your journey. It makes it easier to go through my own journey seeing other people’s experiences.

  • Denyse Harris says:

    You are so inspiring. I love how honest you are about your personal struggles, its what i like most sbout you. You look awesome to me right now but we all have our goals and they are ours. Good luck Cassey!!!!!!

  • Natalie says:

    I am soooooo happy to see this because it shows people that even fitness stars have their moments of relapse and struggles. I don’t know who is giving you shit for working hard on yourself but honestly screw em all. Hahaha I’m really glad you’re doing this and I’m sure all your lovely popsters are proud of you one watch or another. I sure as hell am crazy proud. You’ve come such a long way since I first joined your community in 2013. Wow I can’t believe it’s been 6 years! Anyway just know I’m cheering you on for doing this for yourself and I’m inspired to do it with you because I’ve been in such a slump and bored out of my mind lately. I feel like it will give me something to do and occupy my time with. This couldn’t have come at a better time! So thank you Cassey! I think for my workout I’ll do your calendar but I’m not entirely sure yet what I’ll do for meals, so I’ll have to take the coming week to figure all that out and prepare for my start on September 1st! Wish me luck!

  • Sadie says:

    When you talked about getting bored running I relate! I think a really cool video would be a cardio treadmill workout of you have one! I’m always looking for ways to make my workout more upbeat on the treadmill

  • cassi says:

    you go girl! i feel like the pendulum has swung so far that people now are guilted if they want to lose weight / tone up, so i love the quote: What is body negative about getting healthier, increasing your confidence, feeling happier, and getting stronger? Hmm. Nothing.
    As long as you love your body every step of the way, you’re in a healthy mental state.

  • Coralis says:

    Cassey, I think it’s great what you are doing. The truth is that in every season of life (especially as we get older and our body starts to betray us) we constantly have to re-prioritize our health journey. Most of us deal with weight fluctuation which is why we have such things as a reset. I love that you have realistic goals (not the “How to lose 15 pounds in two weeks” garbage) and are sticking to it. As adults, it is our responsibility to always re-prioritize and fix the things that will make us better overall. As a person that loves fitness, nutrition, and a healthy mindset, I also realize that I am only human and for that matter, I have to give myself the grace to accept where I am but also have the courage and determination to change things for my good. I feel like this is what you are trying to do. Best wishes!!!

  • violett90 says:

    I am going for the same healthy journey!!! I had a very stressful 2019 which made me eat nervously, lose control of my fitness life and gain weight… I am almost 30 and it is harder than before to be consistent with training and healthy diet…but I can do that!!! and reading your journey will surely help me a lot. Thanks for being so open with us… sometimes we feel alone with our problems, but there is always someone who can relate!! Love you <3

  • saskiiaa says:

    I think the funniest thing about this post is that you measured both your left and right thighs and arms 😂 Good luck Cassey! Sorry you’ve been sucked into the daily mail BuzzFeed world…

  • Anon says:

    I think some of the negative comments are unfair. Context is everything. She’s in her thirties so please consider the media landscape when she was in her teens/young adulthood. There was Britney’s washboard abs and the ideal was super lean but with ample breasts. Back then, the ideal was probably 90-115 lbs for girls on the shorter end of the height spectrum (5’5 and below). So her goal weight is very reasonable taking into account the historical context of the images she grew up with. She can’t be asked to conform to new concepts of what essentially boils down to—never say this or never say that about weight because X people exist. People born in different generations have different concepts of a healthy weight. We can practice body acceptance by accepting all bodies and understand that everybody has a different context for their interpretation of what’s healthy. She’s a fitness instructor, who grew up in a certain era, and this is what she deems will be her goal. There are many others like her as well. What body weight will ultimately satisfy everybody? There is no answer so let’s not try to answer that question for everybody. We have to remember that all the fitness/wellness gurus out there are not the final word. Their words should always be taken as suggestions. If their words vibe with you, follow away. If it does not—then move along.

  • Alyson K McDonald says:

    Love ya Cassey. You’e going to CRUSH it!

  • Traci says:

    I’m so happy you’re doing this for yourself! I took on a similar journey back in May. I started with your videos. I loved how you encouraged strength, not looks. Our bodies are constantly changing. We all need a reset once in a while. It takes a lot of courage to be so public about something so personal. Don’t let people shame you for doing that! Be stronger mentally and physically! ❤️❤️

  • Iris says:

    Good luck Cassie! I am in the middle of trying to rebuild my life and so much of it is centered around making time to work out everyday. I used to workout watching your videos but slipped out of it a couple years ago. I’m getting back on track now and look forward to progressing through this process together <3 :)

  • Hanna says:

    Hi! I think you should try strala yoga, it has been a life chager for me. I don’t know if you know tara stiles already, but she and her husband had created a website( google strala yoga) and tara also has a youtube channel. Try it once, if you feel like it!
    ♥️♥️
    H

  • Andrea says:

    So excited on this motivation you have Cassey to improve yourself. The only thing I would say to help better mentally prepare yourself in the future is take your before picture smiling!! You have such a beautiful smile and even though you are not at your goal, doesn’t mean you dont smile and love yourself! As I’m sure you preach through IG and here, we all deserve love every “phase” we are in our life. I think you’ll do great and have measurable and realistic goals all while trying to take care of yourself. Awesome! I do have one question, would you ever consider reaching out to using a registered dietitian or nutritionist since this can vary for every person? I’ve seem some IG fitness people do that and they say that they actually know how to eat for THEIR body while still enjoying foods they like. Just a thought. Sending all the love and hugs for these 90 days. It motivates me to want to set goals for 90 days. :)

  • Saraahx says:

    I hope you achieve your goals by the end of your challenge. But I also hope that it will be a stress-free journey and will be happy with yourself when you’re done! You’re beautiful no matter what though. Good luck, Cassey! :)

  • Lena says:

    Hey Cassey, would you like to try out a new app called snics, to track your foodies? I would be delighted to be your own, private dietitian!

    All the best,
    Lena

  • coffeeLover says:

    Love you.

  • martaferrandis says:

    Thanks for inspiring us all and for showing us that you are a real person who struggles with this stuff like most of us humans!!!! I’m also starting a 90 day journey and I can´t wait to read about how yours is going!!

  • Chris says:

    Best of luck on your journey Cassey, it’s never an easy one for anyone.

  • Eveline41 says:

    Hey Cassey, thank you for being so real and honest with your community. Lately, I was a bit thrown off with you being extra cheerful. This blog will not only help you stay on track but it seems that it is the right way off letting go of a couple of habits. There is not one person on earth, that can just be there for others. Taking care of oneself is one of the most important things anyone can do to help others in the long run.
    I am from Austria and I only have English workout programs. In my search for a german speaking “fitness person” I found Sophia Thiel, who is/was an up an coming star in Germany. Now she gained a few pounds and instead of being real and saying I am just a human person too and I have to deal with stress,… She started hiding. You can imagine the desaster.

    You are doing the right thing for yourself and for your fans!!!! Thank you for being you!!!

  • Jessica says:

    Cassy, I’m right here with you. No one can tell us what how we can feel and need to do. Sometimes, there’s a need. It’s easy to let things get unhealthy on both ends of the spectrum. This year we moved out of country, from USA to the UAE and let me tell you this entire year has been rough. I’ve also spent time with a few of my 5 children having some medical issues. Moving is hard but moving out of the country has the same psychological affects as losing a loved one. It has been hard on my relationship with my husband at times too.
    I’m an emotional eater and this year alone I gained about 5lbs. That may not sound like much to anyone else but I’m only 5 foot. 5lbs to me is about another dress size. So my clothes aren’t fitting the same- that was compounded by a broken toe- no HIIT, no running (killer!!) no workouts that have me on my toes what-so-ever for TWO MONTHS. Honestly, I’m not surprised how I didn’t gain even more. Stress, inability to exercise how I like, and lots of fast food/restaurants during the move was just a recipe for disaster. But after 5 kids I know that it’s just a matter of getting serious .
    I’m finally back to running and HIIT and feeling so much better already. Running and HIIT helps my mood SOOOOOO much.
    I would love to help give you any tips on running, though I’m sure you don’t need them. You’re impressively highly self motivated. *You should sign up for a race near the end of your 90 days! Running helps because I don’t run well if I eat like garbage. Running is hard on my body so I know I need to stop and stretch really well and pay attention to what hurts and what helps. Also, my striving to make sure I’m not only improving my running but that I can run for longer in life, I want to do more pilates and HIIT….It’s a beautiful cycle, honestly.

    I’m on the same exact page for diet too. I have to have reasonable boundaries, but no rules. I have to listen to my body.
    I love your workouts and getting to know you. You’ve helped me after 3 of my kids. I could go on and on and on. I always send friends your direction because I know you won’t disappoint.
    Your goal is to feel better and you will do it.

  • Amy M. says:

    Please don’t weigh yourself every day unless you are doing it to show how weight fluctuates day to day.

  • Aliya says:

    Have you thought about intermittent fasting? I’ve been so stressed from university, work and social life that I went up a whole dress size in a short space of time despite eating exactly the same as always. No amount of calorie restriction worked so I knew that’s the weight gain was due to my increased cortisol and therefore insulin levels from stress! Intermittent fasting (16:8 method, sometimes 20:4) has been the only thing that has worked to help my body start letting go of that fat again. Combing this with a Keto-ish diet was also great because both methods work together to get you into Ketosis faster

  • Emily Carter says:

    Hi Casey! Omg my weight gain and measurements are really close, except I’m 5’2.. I’ve gained 15 pounds in the last year.. I drink alcohol pretty frequently so I think that’s the majority of my issue.. I’m trying to get back on track, but ugh! Anyways how did you measure your body fat %??? Thanks, emily

  • Jo says:

    Cassey, I think you look beautiful, healthy and totally fit in your August 16 pictures. It’s great to have your own fitness goals, but you also look great at 136 lbs. Best of luck accomplishing your own goals.

  • danielleadams says:

    I’ve taken a couple of days to express my feelings about this. When I was watching your Instagram post it was like you were speaking from my own heart. My fitness journey has been a long and painful one, one I have not shared fully with many, if anyone. When I was little I was a “normal” size until I had a procedure and then something happened and I steadily gained weight. It depressed me, and the bullying I received from my peers just added to it. I became shy and timid and didn’t talk to many other children and once I was a very outgoing and social child. This continued my entire childhood and into my teens. In high school I fought with bulrexia. Some aren’t familiar with it, but I would starve myself or eat so little until I was so hungry that I would eat anything and everything in sight. Then the purging would begin because of the guilt I felt for eating anything at all. After rotting my teeth out from all the purging I came to terms with the fact that I needed to end this. Again the depression set in and I gained more weight then I ever had.
    I faced many health problems in my early 20’s and kept pretty much to myself other than a few friends I had made through work. But that is when everything began to change. I decided I needed to find ME. I was working in healthcare and decided to dedicate some time doing medical missions in 3rd world countries. I fell in love with dedicating my time to all these people. They were HAPPY! In my mind for all the reasons I sought to be happy, they shouldn’t have been. They were always happy for what they had, where they were, and who they were.
    When I came back I decided I wasn’t going to live for anyone else anymore. This time I was going to do everything for me, and stop apologizing for not being who people in my life thought I should be.
    I moved away from my family so I could find my true self. I began working out, eating right, and living the life I wanted to live. I lost a lot of people a long the way. People who disagreed with the things I was doing because they didn’t like it our they didn’t think it was me. But for the first time ever it actually was me.
    I met a great man, had 2 babies and well, my body didn’t like having babies. My thyroid stopped working and after you think you’re done gaining weight because you’ve had your babies. I went on to continue gaining weight and got all the way up to 230 pounds. I was mortified! I felt horrible in my own skin. There was not one thing I could do that was helping me until I finally got my thyroid under control. Slowly the weight began to come off and I found a doctor who was so great with me. She was encouraging and never made me feel ashamed of myself for my struggles. I met with her regularly to track how I was feeling and how I was doing and what I needed to do to keep going. I’ve tried staying clear of the “diets” and just eat healthy as I know that I can’t maintain them.
    So to make a long story short…About a year ago at work while still trying to lose weight but at a pretty big standstill from 230 pounds to 155 I met this amazing woman. She introduced me to your 100 challenges. She challenged me to do them along with her and we would talk every day about how sore we were and all the good pain we’d feel after completing them. Then this last May I ended up having a hysterectomy. I literally gained 15 pounds in a week. Now I’d like to say it was all from the surgery but after I went crazy with my eating. I craved things I’d never craved before and whatever I wanted. But quickly I realized that I needed to get control of this. So after I got the go ahead from my doctor I started the 28 day reset and did the the 4 30 day challenges together. In that 28 days I lost 12 pounds and felt better than I have ever felt before. I still haven’t added back most of the foods you eliminate for the 28 days because I have realized how much better I feel without some of those foods.
    While going through that 28 days though I realized a lot of things emotionally. I am 100% an emotional eater! When I’m sad, angry, happy, I eat! Doing the 28 day reset really forced me to face head on a lot of things internally that I wasn’t quite prepared for.
    As I was doing some of your videos the other night I just had to send my friend that introduced me to you a text. I just simply told her I loved her. Without her I wouldn’t have found you and you simply have changed my life. The things you talk about when you’re doing your videos and how you work to empower and build women up. It really has been life changing for me. You make me think about things, and deal with things and realize things that I don’t always have time to do during the day. Even on a rest day I find myself looking for videos to do just so I can get a quick moment to reflect on my day. So thank you! Thank you for this 90 day journey that you’ve decided you need to go on. Be true to you and what you deserve to be. Don’t let other try to analyze who you are or what you’re trying to do with this. Be un-apologetically you! Because from what I’ve learned from watching you just this past while, you’re amazing!

  • Carlee says:

    You go, girl. An experiment in vulnerability to be a healthier, happier human is always a worthwhile call. Can’t wait to read along. Love love love to you!

  • Daisy says:

    Thanks for being real! You are one of my inspiration to start trying Pilates. You are beautiful inside and out.

    I am also on my own health journey… mainly to lower my body fat and time my stomach…makes me look pregnant and that is my insecure area.

    I look forward to following you in your journey.

  • feixia-chan says:

    Don’t be ashamed of being a human. I think many people has the same goal and spleen as you, but hope you will not feel that way, so you can be source of their motivation. When they realize you’re not a goddess that is “perfect” but a human just as them, with ups and downs, they can be disappointed. Criticize, and judging you as a “public person” saying “bad things” (sorry for my poor English level). You don’t have to care, you’re free to express yourself the way you want. You’re a strong person, able to express your feelings publicly. Don’t let pressure overwhelmed you. I’m amazed by your fighting spirit, your courage and your confidence (because i think it’s really difficult to write your post, when you know many many people will read it). Work hard to reach the body and the spirit you want. That’s what we all want deep inside. Doesn’t mean you’re not loving you. Just mean you can progress the way you want. Thank you Cassey <3.

  • feixia-chan says:

    Don’t be ashamed of being a human. I think many people has the same goal and “bad spirit” as you (sorry my English is bad), and hope you will not feel that way, so you can be source of their motivation. That thing is in fact really good, aWhen they realize it’s not the same and you’re not a goddess but a mere human they can be disappointed. You don’t have to care. You’re a strong person, able to express your feelings publicly. Don’t let pressure overwhelmed you. Keep it up.

  • Ali says:

    That’s a good shopping list. Pretty much what I live on each week. Cooking in bulk helps too, so you don’t have to wrack your brain wondering what to eat.

  • Yazzy says:

    I’m so proud of you, you continue to inspire me and show me that you are human like anyone else. I’m on a journey too and I love that we can be on a journey together! Ignore the haters, and bloom!

  • Ashley says:

    Hi Cassey! Been working out with you for years have bought PIIT28, various journals, etc. I like you bc you are not the stereotypical Instagram fitness influencer. You aren’t peddling diarrhea tea, crazy detoxes, or suggesting that exercise and nutrition created a physique I know involves lots of cosmetic procedures and heavy doses of cocaine and adderall to maintain. I wish you all the best and remember your true OGs will still be following you after your 90 days. The internet is a cess pool and many comments are really mean spirited and spiteful. Keep being you, a rare and real ray of light.

  • Joy says:

    Cassey,
    You go girl! I am sure it is hard enough to be in the spotlight without all the negative commentary. I have been so inspired by your attitude and encouragement in your workouts. Thanks for putting something out on the internet that is great quality, great content, fun and challenging all in one! I am glad that you want to challenge yourself at the same time. Isn’t that what all of this is about? Good for you!

  • Kim says:

    Aww Cassey. I totally understand and can relate. Feeling like you’re at the worst point physically (and with that, mentally) you’ve been in in a while is a difficult thing to process. It takes time and energy to not only make health changes, but also to become more loving to yourself. I wish you the best of luck on this journey and can tell you, you seem so strong you’re totally going to kill it! We need more of this kind of message being put out in the fitness world.

  • Kristen says:

    Thank you for being real, honest, and open. I feel like I’m in the same struggle and I’ve finally decided I have to change and stop pretending it’s “all muscle”. Some is, some isn’t. And at the end of the day no matter what anyone says, we all know our bodies best. We know how they feel, not just how they look, and I think that matters. How you get to feeling your best is your journey, and I’m excited to read about while I figure out my own journey. To everyone out there, the message is not that one journey is right and another isn’t. It’s that we all have a journey, we all struggle, and at least for me, I appreciate knowing it’s not just me and I REALLY appreciate people willing to face public criticism to be themselves and an inspiration for others.

  • lex says:

    Love this Cassey :)

  • Katie says:

    You are a wonderfull and strong person. Thank you for motivating me and all the others! Lot’s of fun durunf your 90 days challenge!

  • Parul says:

    What an incredibly brave post and journey that you have started! Even a fitness enthusiast like you needs to do a 90 day cleanse, gives me much needed motivation to get back on the wagon and eat clean (which basically is the hardest aprt of it all!)
    All the very best on your journey Cassey!

  • Hadiza says:

    I’m with you and because I believe in you, I believe in me too. I got back to working out with you this August because of almost the same reason…going back to what I love. Recently being diagnosed with PCOS meant clarity but it also meant a whole 360 degree change. I wish you the best Cassey. Whatever happens in 90 days, just keep believing in you ❤️

  • kasjade says:

    It is incredibly important that an influencer with such a broad audience as you is allowing people to recognize that decreasing your body weight in a safe manner is not bad/body negative. I am happy that you are encouraging this true form of body positivity.

  • noxy says:

    i´ve just started your begginers workout last week. And just wanted to tell how inspiring you have been to me. Your attitude and perspective towards workout keept me engaged in unique way, no other person had. I´m feeling stronger, more energized and actually I can see the results of keep following your videos.
    Also I think we all have times when we feel weird in our body, and that’s ok. I actually started to workout because I was feeling weak, and lacking energy, and what woukd have been negative is to stay feeling bad about it instead of doing something about it.
    So don´t pay attention to that people who feel entitled to tell you how you should feel, and keep going true to yourself, because you are indeed amazing

  • Melissa says:

    Okay doing this with you!! My birthday is November 16 and I want to feel my absolute BEST by then! It’s been SUCH a struggle for me over the past four years. I’m with you on the keto-ish, and getting back to workouts I love that excite me. I think I’m going to try working in The Barre Code with my usual HIIT routines :) Thank you for sharing your journey! So excited to follow along!

  • Kim says:

    Why don’t you try to build muscle instead of adding cardio? Increase your weightlifting and performance goals? Like instead of focusing so much on your body set a squat, deadlift, pull-up goal? I think your body needs that more than it needs cardio, since you coach high rep/cardio already. You’re still beautiful either way! Maybe focusing less on aesthetics and more on performance based goals can help. Check out MindPump. They have some great episodes targeted toward women in a similar train of thought as you. Hope it helps.

  • Lacie says:

    First of all I think you are stunning just the way you are!

    Second: this inspires me. I am not at my heaviest (that was 250 lbs before having twins) but I am getting back up there. I have been trying to find a routine that works for me for the last year but with twins and a job that I commute to it has been hard. You have inspired me to just get back in the groove.

  • Caitlyn Via says:

    I believe in you.

  • Cynthia says:

    You’re at a healthy weight right now, though. The fact that you seem to be hung up on the numbers and a “correct” way of eating makes me think this is the orthorexia talking. I like your fitness goal of doing more of the things you like and not trying to kill yourself with every workout, though. That seems like a pretty healthy thing to strive toward.

    The only thing that has worked for me in terms of my mental health (since I have a history of eating disorders myself) is intuitive eating. I would recommend that approach to anyone. Restricting is only going to drive you crazy. But in any case, definitely make yourself your main priority, as you said!

  • @Sara.Smile.Dancer says:

    Thank you for your complete honesty. Exercise has always been a constant in my life. Growing up as a dancer we tend to push ourselves to the limit with every workout. This past year has been the worst year of my life. Plantar fasciitis, knee surgery, 2 concussions….. now I found out I have Morton’s Neuroma in my foot. I’ve put on 20+ lbs. in the last 10 months. I just ordered your 12 week fitness journal. I may not be posting any bikini pics at age 45 LOL but I’m going to be following your journey. Day #1 for me…. I’m headed to a yoga class this morning after the #100glutechallenge! and tonight I’m teaching my “Splash Dance” class at the pool. Thank you for the inspiration.

  • Melissa says:

    Amazing! Thank you for sharing your healthy journey and your story here. I LOVE LOVE LOVE that you aren’t apologizing for what you want and you aren’t making unrealistic expectations for your food intake. It is amazingly refreshing to hear a fitness guru tell us the TRUTH about this aspect of our lives. Amazing job Cassie. This is such a huge post for anyone struggling with their own health and fitness goals. Thank you!

  • Lasma says:

    I think you are awesome human being Casey! I do love your honesty. Reading this makes me think about things I should change to be more healthy and happy. Currently I am mom 2 be…and it has trown me out of everything (working out, eating well). I miss doing my monthly blogilates calendar :(. Also when I do write down about my goals and progress every day I find my self beeing more dedicated…. Will start with that again. Hope you’ll reach your goals Casey!!!

  • Sara says:

    Hi Cassey!
    Another one of these “I usually don’t comment but”-people here. I’m happy for you that you found something new that excites you! :)
    Just please, stop worrying so much about random people criticizing you. I know easier said than done but the ratio is less than 1 out of 10 comments and there will always be people on the internet who give their opinion in a pedagogically unacceptable manner. Try not to let it get to you too much and be happy about all the support you get from over 90% of your readers/viewers :D Even if it wasn’t sustainable what you’re doing right now, it’s not gonna harm you either way AND it’s also good for the body to get a little confused from time to time to avoid a plateau, sooo … have fun, enjoy the journey, keep us updated and try out whatever looks good to you! :)

    Btw, I started watching your videos about 5 years ago when I was super unfit and they helped me get excited about fitness in general, lost about 40lbs in the meantime and have been happily maintaining my goal weight now for the last 1.5 years. All I’m saying, thanks a lot for the inspiration and kick-ass pilates videos <3

  • Zina says:

    Im doing this with you! Keep posting and keep it real! Don’t judge yourself by others criticizing comments you know what works for you and you feel what will motivate you and keep you on this path! Go gurl

  • Lisa Meyer says:

    You look stunning, perfect in my books

  • Katie says:

    Hey Cassey, for long time I am struggling with my eating and exercising. Nothing is the best for me, after some time, I am starting to be bored with everything… But I am totally in it with you! I will take the 90 day challenge today and hope, it will be great =) Thank you once again =)

  • Nat says:

    Just letting you know, your “before” photos are beautiful as is x

    • marianne rohde says:

      I agree! I wish I looked THAT good, gaining 14 lbs :) Maybe it’s not about your diet/exercise, maybe your hormones /thyroid are up to something. A reputable naturpathic endocrinologist might offer useful insight.

  • Justine says:

    Good on ya Cassey! It takes ALOT of motivation to get the ball rolling and the fact that you decided to stick to something is a pat on the back. I have to say, I lost around 15 pounds from Jan-May this year then I gained it all back when I came home. I completed all 3 levels of PIIT and I kept going because I wanted to be an instructor, but man… my confidence as an instructor plummeted when I realized that I had gained all the weight I had lost. I promised myself if I finish all 3 rounds, I would have the guts to buy the instructor program and progress on my journey as an instructor…but then, I travelled 24/7, broke my routine, started laying off PIIT and lost my motivation and my strength. I started doubting myself, and I’m on the brink of returning to my old self and staying as my new self.

    Welp… I’m glad you started something to change your life around. I hope… that I can motivate myself to get back into the game.

  • Dina says:

    I think you look good the way you are but I know how you feel. We need to feel comfortable in our own bodies. You go girl

  • BRI says:

    Love you, Cassey! I support you completely, and your determination and drive are very inspiring!!

  • Meg Shepard says:

    Go Cassey!

  • Brittney Marcano says:

    I absolutely love the way that you explained everything!! I am around the same weight as you and I always get negative comments from friends and family when I talk about going down in weight. I’m excited to follow along with you and hopefully make my own plan for my journey! XOXO

  • Courtney says:

    I honestly did find this post triggering, however this is because I completely ignored the trigger warning in the email and I accept that. I have a history of anorexia and probably should have known better.
    We are the same height and it looks like our weights have been similar- I fluctuate between 120-125. At my lowest, I was 110 but at this point I was hospitalized so I wouldn’t recommend that!
    But at the same time… who cares about the numbers? You weigh “more” than me and yet I can guarantee that, if you put my body to yours, you’d be slimmer. Numbers don’t mean anything. Health does. If this is what you feel you need to do to be healthy, more power to you. It’s your life, live it to your fullest!
    But I can’t deny that reading this did make me feel a little bad. So clearly, I still have a lot of things with my own mental health that I need to work on.

    • Courtney, I’m glad that you have the self-understanding to see you have things still to work on. Some people read Cassey’s blog post and come away with lots of negatives. I am glad that with your past experience, you are taking a positive attitude to stay healthy. Best wishes to you. xx

  • patti says:

    Thanks for sharing. It will be an inspiration. As for body shaming-pshaw! Most of us have to adjust our eating and activity levels at some time in our life. It’s no big deal. Good for you for not being complacent.

  • Thersia says:

    Amazingly brave – as always. And ever inspiring. We should all want to better ourselves every day and this looks different for all of us! Improvement is living. Loving yourself is independent of that.

  • Coleen says:

    This is amazing. It’s raw, it’s real. It is how you are always relatable to the average girl out here following along with you. We all have ups and downs to our health/wellness/fitness journeys. We all have a story. Thank you for this. And I love the idea of documenting daily along the way. Good luck and can’t wait to see your progress! You are such an inspiration today and all the days. x

  • Myranda says:

    I’m really sorry we live in a world where you constantly feel like you need to better yourself. I’ve looked up to you for years because I suffered from disordered eating and I felt like you helped me love fitness and not making it all about weight. I’m heart broken you feel like you want to do this to yourself. Your weight doesn’t define you, weight and fat is neither good or bad. I hope in my heart you can come through this struggle and find how wonderful you are because you are you. Don’t be heart broken if you can’t reach a weight that isn’t good for your body. That type of thinking keeps me away from everyone in the fitness industry because it is toxic to happiness and satisfaction in life. I would LOVE to be the gal that could eat right and naturally weigh 120, (I’m 5’4″). But no matter how hard I work and how I eat I stay around 130. I let that destroy me for years, I dreaded seeing the scale numbers. I loathed my whole existence . I’m thankful now I have escaped that disgusting line of thought, and I hope you can escape too.

  • Cynderxox says:

    I SUPPORT! There is no shame in wanting to better yourself. You aren’t body shaming yourself because you want to be the best version of yourself. You are coming from a very healthy mindset and I applaud you for speaking out and taking a stand. I have 4 days until I move back to the States. And I’ll most likely be restarting Rob Dial’s IronMind 90 Day Challenge. So I’ll be right along with you!~

  • Kaitlin says:

    I recently have had a similar desire to reset myself and really take my life’s path back into my hands. It speaks volumes when we can recognise something isn’t quite right or making us happy, and we have the *strength* to be vulnerable and make a change. Good luck Cassey, and everyone else who wants to take “life by the balls” XD
    Love from Australia to all <3
    PS Love the bikini/sports set in the pics, super cute.

  • Balvina Garcia says:

    I’m in. A new adventure is not easy but we have to get out ofvour comfort zone and push through.

  • Amaris Rimay says:

    This is amazing! Thank you for sharing this, especially the thoughts on how people say this isn’t body positive because it is! You are an amazing example and I am excited for you on this journey you are on!! You got this!!

  • Anglea says:

    Oh my gosh, you are the exact same weight and measurements as me, but you look so much more fit! I did weight watchers once and got down to 123 lbs and it was too thin. But I was pretty much starving myself, and not building any muscle. Good luck!

  • Theresa says:

    I love this! I’m in a similar situation. Work, take care of the house/dog, spend some time with my bf, then sleep. I have gained weight and feel like I lost my workout motivation. It I know I can get it back! And I don’t care if anyone thinks I’m vain or not “body positive” for wanting to lose weight. It’s my body and my choose. Same for you! I also love your diet plans. I too want to do better but not spend tons of time could tint calories and macros and whatever else. I want to enjoy eating! Looking forward to following your progress 😃

  • Martha says:

    You look great! Your hair and skin are beautiful! You look healty and happy. Do what you want, be you, enjoy the way!

  • HD says:

    A diet to try that lets you eat what you want while still consistently losing weight is intermittent fasting!

  • Jacquee says:

    Thank you, Cassey! I have been on a similar fitness journey after being diagnosed with a thyroid disorder and many of my friends have been making me feel negatively about my journey because of all of their body positive comments. I just want the body I had before my thyroid disease and don’t see anything negative about that! I look forward to reading about your journey!

  • Anel says:

    Thank you for sharing your personal fitness story and your goals. That is the beauty of it, it is your story!! Each one of us has their own path but we can learn from and uplift each other! You have inspired so many, including myself, to be kind to our bodies, each other and to never give up!! Thank you!!

  • Kay says:

    You are the most body positive person I have every seen! Anyone who would criticize you for wanting to be HEALTHY sounds bitter. This will be my day 1 of 90 with you. Good luck! <3

  • Anna says:

    You are inspiring! I’ve always had issues with weight and since May I have really been struggling! I like how you have broken down your goals. It won’t be easy but you will achieve your goals! I’m going to try and and put together goals for me and start working on making positive changes! Keep sharing, you are a blessing and I love how honest you are with your struggles. It’s good to know I am not alone!

  • Audrey says:

    I freaking love this! I’m totally doing this with you!! Solidarity girl!

  • Kari Castelli says:

    I can only imagine how difficult it is to be in the spotlight and always criticized. Don’t let them get to you! You need to do you for you and you only!

    I’ve recently discovered Intermittent fasting. It’s not a diet but a way of life and may help. I read the book Delay, don’t Deny, by Gin Stephens. There’s also a great FB support group. Lots of encouragement, celebrating and no negativity allowed. People of all ages, shapes and sizes are members.

    Whatever road you take, I wish you all the best! 😘

  • Lynda J. Carr says:

    I completely agree with the comments written by “A”—as a fitness instructor and personal trainer, I know about the science involved with all of this—give it a lot of thought before you jump in and take many of your fans with you—before I got into fitness, I was a professional dancer—you know the mind games dancers go through living in front of a mirror every day—took a lot of therapy to get my head together and still need help with it off and on—it can be so dangerous—think about it

  • Brittany says:

    This truly has inspired me. I’ve battled with my health and wanting to be fit for so long — mostly because my mental health has stopped me from being motivated. Reading this blog post put things into perspective for me. Someone like you — who I truly idolize and want to be like — has the same health issues I do sometimes. Sure, there are a LOT of different factors for each of us, but we have the same feelings at the end of the day. I want to take this journey with you. I’m tired of feeling unhappy and unwelcome in my body when I should love and take care of it. I think it’s time I start taking ownership of my life rather than let it take ownership of me. Thank you for doing this, as scary as it might have been. I hope you see this comment and know the incredible impact you have on people (me in this case) and how inspiring you are. I’ll tell you the plan I came up with that mimics yours but for my beginner level so I can feel like I’m being held accountable for it.

    1. I’ll be doing the “Almost Keto” diet with you, except for allowing some high carb fruits since there aren’t many fruits I enjoy (texture kills me). With this I’m also going to actually drink enough water, so my goal is to drink 120z every day, which is my 40oz water bottle three times.
    2. I’m going to dedicate one hour a day to working out at the gym. Going to the gym does motivate me and makes me feel like I’m doing something good for myself. If I’m feeling run down or unable to make it to the gym, I plan to follow one of your workout videos and a yoga video if I can.
    3. I’m going to face my fear of the scale and measurements and track them weekly. I have intense issues with my weight as I’ve gained almost 40 lbs in the past year and a half. I want to see my progress though, and commit to building a healthier relationship with the scale and my numbers overall. I plan on buying a higher quality scale that can tell me body fat percentage as well so I can see that with my weight.
    4. I’m going to read your blog posts every day and reflect on my day while I do so. I’m going to take this time to journal my feelings alongside you and see where my mood goes over these next few weeks.

    Thanks for inspiring me to take this journey and I look forward to growing into a better, healthier person with you. I wish you the best!

  • Kat says:

    The fact that you think weighing 120 pounds is “taking your life back” is saddening. The last time I weighed that was when I was 15 years old. I’m now 31, married, work full time, with a 15 month daughter. I would never ever want her to think that 120 pounds is a normal weight for a grown woman in her 30s. I am 5 feet 3 inches, shorter than you, and this post with your talk of being fat in the 130 range and doing diets literally made me cringe. You don’t have a physical issue you have a mental issue. Just like you said you will write what you want I’m commenting what I want because this post is not positive no matter how you bend it. Restriction is not going to bring your life back. I hope this mindset you have is settled if you ever choose to have a child because once that baby is born you will be so shocked afterwards if you seriously keep putting so much self worth on your body. It’s great to want to strive to lose weight and be healthy but the numbers you are striving for is just dangerous. I would never want my daughter to look up to someone like you who thinks she has to diet and weigh 120 pounds to be beautiful and accept herself. I will not be following you anymore, not that you care because I’m just a nobody but I pray you find peace and acceptance outside of your weight.

    • Erica says:

      Your comment about 120 lbs not being a “normal” weight for grown women is absolutely false. I’m 36, 5’1″, and for my entire adult life I’ve always naturally weighed between 100 and 110 lbs. That’s just my petite Asian frame. If I weighed any more than that, it would be because I’m not exercising at all, and I’m stuffing myself with junk food everyday. Don’t compare your body with hers and try to shame her for wanting to be fitter. It doesn’t sound like she wants to be a twig… she just wants to be healthy, and she probably knows that HER healthy is 120 lbs. Sounds normal to me.

    • Jordannarama says:

      Wow, as a grown woman in her 30s who weighs 120 lbs, I find it rather un-body positive of you to claim that it’s not a “normal” weight. Body weight is a choice of what you are comfortable with. Try not to project your own insecurities on other people, please.

    • Kate says:

      I am 31 and 5,6 so very similar to Cassey. I easily weight 120 pounds without diet or exercise so I dont see why her goal is dangerous or negative. Oh and I have had three kids, it’s just how my body is and if I was 130 I would also feel like something was off.

    • Sophia says:

      Firstly, she didn’t equate 120 pounds to taking her life back, if I recall correctly – she’s attempting to feel better about her life in _part_ by not necessarily even losing weight, but more so getting as fit as she’d like to be.

      Secondly, I’m certain that, as much as height is a factor in determining healthy weight, there may be other aspects of her body that differ from yours.

      Stating that someone has a mental issue without understanding her circumstances, implying that she’s an undesirable role model for young people, insinuating that she won’t care what you say, and suggesting that simply because you can say whatever you think you should say it in this less-than-kind way also isn’t the nicest thing in the world. I sometimes think people don’t realize that the person to whom they’re writing is real, despite being “popular”, and gets hurt when they are addressed in this fashion. If you’re after positivity, are concerned about her mental health, and are adamant about conveying that to her, is this really the best way to speak to her? Her being a public figure should not make it commendable for you to share your thoughts in a hurtful way. I’m sure if she were someone who mattered to you, you wouldn’t speak to her this way. Just something to consider. I’m not a dedicated fan – I barely follow this page at all. But I do know how it feels to perpetually receive “frank feedback” that is really poorly worded. If anything could hurt her, it’s probably an influx of this kind of commentary.

  • Jeannine says:

    This makes total sense. Good for you. I tried Danette May’s 39 day challenge year and half ago and met my goal weight in 6 months and have kept it through healthy eating, exercise and some splurges to keep me real. (I’m 60). Loved you summer challenge and continue to use it a few times thru week to mix up with other exercises. You’re awesome!

  • Jennifer says:

    Cassey, I love this. Through the years, you’ve been the inspiration that has kept me going because you can show vulnerability and a side of fitness where not everything remains perfect. We are humans, and as such, we make mistakes. We have highs and lows, and what makes you the beacon of inspiration in my life is that you can admit it and go forward in bettering yourself.
    I think this is a right time for me to admit that I’ve been getting lost into the work-sleep-routine, and consequently left my own health aside for the past years. This is something that has left me feeling unaccomplished and unhappy.
    I just ordered one of your fit planners, and I intend to journey on my way back to happiness. My goals are to integrate more physical activities in my routine, increase the amount of cooking I do (and at the same time, monitor what fuels my body), and be more conscious about my happiness.

    Super happy for positive changes in both our lives, I look forward to seeing you evolve on this journey along with me,
    YOU GO GIRL <3

  • Sevvie says:

    Hi Cassie, this weekend has also marked a new start for me… I moved countries 6 years ago and have not been able to reset myself to following my old routine ( your pilates videos in the morning, diet 95% vegetarian). My head and body have been complaining to me for a while now and I kept ignoring the headaches and stomach aches, and so, I have spent a lot of time this weekend looking at breakfast & lunch recipes and managed to squeeze in a little run today. It’s about time I got back to my fully happy self. So I wish you success. 😗

  • Megan Motonaga says:

    YOU ARE SO BRAVE, CASSEY and I admire you so much!!! I’ve been following you (and your diets and workouts) for YEARS and I’ve loved seeing your grow over the years in how you see and approach fitness and wellness while staying true to yourself. I ONE HUNDRED PERCENT support you in your fitness/wellness journey and will be joining you after I get back from visiting family in Maui on Friday. I’ve been talking to my husband for a while about how I want to get in the best shape of my life- physically, mentally and emotionally- so I can be more present in my family, in my relationships and for my students. I want to take on this new school year with new goals and self-care habits in mind so that I don’t let the stress of teaching take a toll on my body like it has the past two years. I’ve never felt so ready. And, when you named the “body-positive” haters who are angry with you for starting this journey in the first place, I was like “YASSSSS QUEEN.” The scale is just a tool and your weight is just a number. I want to be EMPOWERED and SELF-CONFIDENT enough to step on the scale, read the number and step off without feeling horrible about myself, instead of walking around the gym avoiding the scale at all costs. All that to say, I’m with you CASSEY!!! Let’s do this!!

  • Marte says:

    Cassey. Thank you! Thank you for being honest, thank you for sharing and thank you for being brave enough to do this for you. It is so inspiring. I’ve been following your journey, your blog and youtube channel since.. well forever. My very first outing in the world of fitness and working out was with your monthly plan way back in 2011.. and though over the years I’ve found very different things that I do to keep in shape or get back in shape, I’ll always find a home and safe haven here with you. Okay… I had a point. Which I now have forgotten .. anyway I recognise what you say about getting judgement and starting to feel like you’ve got to tip toe around everything. You don’t need to, you’re doing all this with so much love and caring and you’ve been doing that for such a long. Again thank you and I’ll be following your journey!

  • Kelsey says:

    Thank you for this inspiring way to help people like me who are clueless set goals for themselves! This blog made me feel less alone in being confused about how to diet or work out the “right” way and helped me reflect on what I DO know and use that to make the changes I want to make. Seeing people in the fitness community be open about the good and the bad and set realistic, attainable goals for themselves is so important and I wish you the best of luck! Thanks for this tidbit of self-love as well. Love you Cassey!! ❤️

  • Laura says:

    I will start my own journey, you inspired me! I want to challenge myself a little bit more. 💖

  • Wendy says:

    Came home to my daughter asking me if I saw your new post. Nope, but she went on to tell me the contents. She wasn’t happy and her not happy made me not happy. You can give the warning about not reading if its gonna be a trigger but you should know how eating disorders work. People will read, especially since you said not to read. We have loved you (and still do) in our household since 2013, when my daughter came back from outpatient treatment for her eating disorder. Once she was allowed exercise, she and I used you as a tool to do pilates in our living room. Fun time together healing as a family. And she’s used you since, even with becoming a fitness instructor. But scales have never been used in our family and with your eating disorder, which is never gone just dormant, you should’ve thrown that scale out. You are in tune with your body to have known months ago you were feeling heavier. Maybe your clothes didn’t fit the same and your bloating that you’ve talked about forever. Numbers on a scale and on a tape measure are no-no’s with an eating disorder. disorders. I don’t remember if you had therapy or just did it on your own…but you seem to always go back to “getting more fit”. We think you have an awesome body with your heritage showing it’s beauty. I wish I had your strength to hold planks and all the arm exercises you do. And I’m sure Sam thinks you are perfect no matter what. Even though you said you are sensitive to others comments and that you were doing this for yourself…it has ramifications for others. Why you just couldn’t do this on your own, as a personal goal, without including your fan base who compare themselves to you quite often. I don’t believe you when you say the scale doesn’t control you or puts a number on your self-worth, or else you wouldn’t be doing this.

  • Angie says:

    I commented on post 2 first, and said a lot, so I’ll just stick with that stood out to me most about this. I find it soooo interesting how body types vary. I was very surprised by your measurements, because they’re closer to mine than I’d suspect. On top we’re about the same. I’m 33.5 bust and 28 waist. But then the booty…..I’m 44. And I weigh a lot more than you. I just found that super interesting for some reason.

  • Thank you so much for opening and sharing. I’m not used to commenting, but I have followed you for years, doing your workouts, eating so healthy, preparing my own meals and really having fun and a positive attitude, because that’s what your videos are all about.
    But when my boyfriend had a stroke a couple of years ago, my whole life changed and was devoted to his health instead of mine, sleeping at the hospital, taking care of our house and business, eating junk food in my car. When he finally was better I was so depressed for everything I had lost, because it was not only my body, it was my way of seeing life… I wasn’t living, I was just passing through, like a zombie.
    Sadly my relationship ended once I was the one who needed support. It took me some time and so much mental strength to take away the thought that I was unworthy because that love and care that I gave wasn’t corresponded.
    But happily I realize now that I am so strong that I can take care of myself, and I need no more than the love I give to myself.
    It’s curious I just decided this August 15th that it was enough of this and in a weird way I feel like my friend and I are staring this journey together, and makes me feel not alone.
    thanks again for sharing, because sometime we do try to present a facade and pretend there’s nothing wrong, that nothing is bothering us.
    Screw it! I’ve learned that if you don’t first have yourself, you don’t have anything and those who do love you will support you and stand bu you.
    I know we’ve never met in person but you are part of my life since I first saw your videos. I’ve seen you evolve, develop your business and you should be soo proud, because you inspire women like me to be strong, independent and free.
    So let’s get those scales, measuring tapes and BMIs back on track as tokens for getting our spirits back on track.
    Thanks for reading and greetings from Mexico!!!!!

  • rutfraser says:

    Good luck!! i’m now on the same journey and it’s feel goods knowing that im not alone. You’re such an inspiration for me. xoxo from Spain.

  • Kaitlin says:

    I love this Cassey! Your calendar got me through major depression 6 years ago and helped me feel my fittest back then. I’ve cycled weight wise and am working on dropping body fat % and 10-15lbs. I appreciate your honesty and vulnerability with us- you have always done this with your fans. I remember the video you made where people were being fake in LA “who do you know” etc and how it bothered you. I will always be a fan! You have changed my life and so many others in a positive way. Thank you!!!!

    • Kait says:

      Wow! Scrolling through the comments and I find this (my name is spelt the same and I had a similar experience with Cassey’s videos and getting myself mentally healthy around 6 years ago as well!!) It’s amazing how many people’s lives she’s helped over the years :)
      Love from Australia to all <3

  • jbell1978 says:

    Yay Cassie! This is so refreshing to hear. I love your attitude and plan! Best wishes!

  • Lorraine Azzinnari says:

    Awesome 👏 I am so glad your done walking on eggshells with your life. So glad your doing your thing💪💪

  • You mentioned this weight gain from taking care of the business and other ppl, and not having time to take care of yourself played a factor. I do also think in a sense when we get married, we let ourselves go to a certain extent because we are on a blissful high” in today’s pictures there is nothing wrong with you how you look. But I understand how wanting to feel better for you. I do think once crucial thing you need to do Casey for yourself in taking time for you, is plan out the honeymoon you’ve been taking so much about, and the lack of time to go. You should do it…for you, for Sam, and for your health. I too follow Keto, so if you feel like passing any tips onto me cia IG, I would welcome them as I seem stalled. I’m doing your glute challenge in addition to the keto diet, and would still like to fo down another 30 lbs. Please follow me on IG (wendy.arding) and offer me any advice kindly that u can. Thank you and good luck

  • Wendy says:

    Just wanted to encourage you. I am so thankful for your transparency. I think the people who are upset about your sharing your journey are people who look at you and would give away a finger to have your body. I understand that pint of view as I sit here as a 44 year old, who is 180, at 5.6. This is the biggest and most over weight and out of shape I have ever been in my life. After two kids, working two jobs, it is hard. But, that is my story. And not yours. You are a fitness professional, and you need to do you!! I am excited to go on this journey with you. I know that you will encourage and inspire me. Plus as a long time follower, I always loved your blog!!!

  • Jackie says:

    I’m so happy you’ve come out and said this. Even though I am someone who is very overweight, I’ve never felt anything but empowered and refreshed from following you and your journey. You were the first person to teach me about self love and what it means to be body positive. It’s unfortunate to me that some people can’t see your message because they’re too focused on being offended and triggered by things they’re insecure about. I’m happy that you’re on this journey for yourself and I hope it brings you everything you need it to! Good luck!

  • Lulu says:

    You got this Casey! We believe in you as you have believed in us. I personally have gone through a similar period in my life and have found discipline and consistency a little hard for myself. Working around my auto immune disease can make it hard when it comes to food since it is very limiting and difficult physically due to the constant fatigue I feel everyday. Our bodies deserve the care we see fit and we deserve the bodies the we build, nourish and believe we can have for ourselves. No one can take that hard work and determination from you or replicate who you are. Do it for you Casey! 🙌🏼

  • slightstar says:

    Good for you!

  • Anne says:

    It really means a lot that you are so transparent about how you feel and what your goals are. I 100% support you and believe in you!

  • Caroline says:

    Yay! I’m so happy to see you going back to how you started. Your blog was so special. Best of luck and I will be rooting for you totally and you’ve inspired me to start again.

  • Laura says:

    I love and admire you Cassey. I wish success for you in this journey.

  • Melissa says:

    Beautifully said. 100% agree. Fuck diet culture. Be yourself, be healthy and happy and say bye to the scale!

  • Carlye says:

    You can do it, Cassey!!
    This spring/summer I came to the same realization about my life. I was able to go from 140 to 121 by changing my eating habits into healthier ones. If I can do it, you can too!

  • Libby Baker says:

    Cassie. You can do this. I have some goals myself and you’re inspiring me. Nothing but positive. You’re amazing. My daughter and I do your workouts almost everyday. We love you!!

  • CJ-Yoga says:

    Good for you, Cassey! It’s very body-positive to want to keep your body in the best condition you can. Also very body aware to know when you need to make a change and what foods have different affects on your body. Looking forward to reading about your journey.

  • Ania says:

    Hi Cassey! Thanks as always for honest. I think you are not only one who want to change something in life, not to chasing artificial standards from the internet but to feel good with own body. I’m in the same point like you. I want to do something only for me and try to achieve it for myself. I’m mom of 3, 31y.o. My lowest waight was in 2012, now after 3rd baby is stuck, way too high for me. I want to reduce my weight to help my joints (I have really bad knees degeneration…) and to feel better with myself. My goal is not to be skinny but curvy and toned ;) With this blog post you gave me that kick to move from my comfort zone and start my own 90 day journey. I’m with you almost from the beginning and you are I think the only one internet guru who didn’t change after being successful on social media. Thanks once again for that. I’m crossing my fingers for you, me and other girls who want change something. Because I’m Catholic I will also pray for you. Warm greetings from Poland 😘

  • Elizabeth says:

    Cassie! Sounds like we’re in the same boat. I’m at the heaviest I’ve ever been but I’m not unhappy about it. I’m 5’1” and I used to weigh about 105 lbs in high school and I couldn’t donate blood. In college I fluctuated between 110-115. In pharmacy school I’ve reached 138.5lbs! I never would’ve thought this would be my normal. My body fat % used to be 15% back in college. The school even told me that it was an unhealthy level. I didn’t realize it but I know I was skinny, didn’t really have much muscle despite going to the gym. I look back on my picture and I see the difference. Now I am 28.1% body fat. My butt has gained so many more inches than I would have ever imagined. I’m at 41”. The one thing I want to focus on is fix my bloating because it’s causing my waist measurement to be bigger than I want it to be at 35” (at the belly button). I’m on this journey not necessarily to lose weight but to lose fat and gain muscle. I’ve noticed in my workouts that I can lift more and run a little longer a little faster. These little fitness progresses are also what keeps me going. Interestingly you mentioned classpass. I most recently heard about this from one of my professors and it sounds awesome! I definitely want to try that out once my training sessions end by the end of the year. I want to try more different classes because it sounds fun. I’ve also been journaling every once in a while because I notice themes in my life at a current time that stick out to me and I wonder if they are messages. I’ve also noticed a tremendous amount of personal growth. You talked about being scared and timid. I was also the same. I’d go to school. I’d see people. If they give me a weird look or some face of disgust I used to think they don’t like me. And rather spiral into the reasons why they might not like me I asked and so if they don’t like you then who cares??? And it’s helped me a lot. Slowly I’m growing each day. It definitely is a process. I did not become like this overnight but after a while year has passed I reflect on my thoughts and they are so much better. Always working on improving myself.

  • Lauri'el says:

    I love your “Almost Keto” suggestion! Your body is just that…your body… it belongs to you. So do what makes you not just happy, but what makes you feel like your best self!

  • Lisa says:

    Cassey, all I can say is “YAY YOU!” I have followed you for years and received so much inspiration from you. However, this post prompted my first comment. This post is FILLED with positive take aways, however, the biggest, most important sticking point for me is to simply “do you”. Coming off of three extremely tough years where I was slowly losing myself, I truly needed this post. Through my struggles, and particularly while attempting to heal from them, far too many well-intended (and many down right snide) opinions were given. Only recently did I realize the effect these opinions and comments have had on my ability to fully heal. I’m taking your lead and setting my own 90 day goals. I will be a few weeks behind you as I want to take a few weeks to set my own goals and develop my attack plan. I know through the noise of the past you must know the positive role model you have been. However, I wanted to take a second to send you some love and let you know you are a rock star to me!

  • You are you and special and so inspirational and really making a difference to everyone you touch on a daily basis. There is always going to be people out there that say things but its not about you its about them and thats the truth. YOU MAKE A DIFFERENCE EVERY DAY and you have got this so excited to be along the ride with you do this for youxx

  • Linda says:

    Your before is what I’d like my after to be! As someone a bit older than you, I just want to say that in retrospect, you’ll be wondering what you were worried about when you were this size. Also, if you happen to want to have kids, you might find yourself more fertile at this weight than your wedding weight. Women’s bodies sometimes hang on to a bit of weight in their thirties to keep estrogen up for fertility. Not that you necessarily want kids, but you seem like you’d be a sweet Mom. My daughter and I love how positive you are and how fun you make your workouts! Have fun with whatever plan you choose!

  • jdcantrell8 says:

    Always inspiring me! <3

  • Barbara Snyder says:

    This came at just the right moment for my husband and I. We had just remarked that we had stalled in our weight loss/fitness goals and need to hunker down, gather up our courage and dive back into the “being our best selves” pool.

  • Rachel Bingham says:

    Casey, I have been following u for about 6 years now and I look up to u for being so positive and inspirational when it comes to living and maintaining a healthy lifestyle. I commend you for being honest and revealing your imperfections. We are all human. I know how emotionally tough this must be for someone who is truly passionate about health and fitness;as am I. Take care of u and remember why u loved fitness in the first place. Keep pushing forward and remembering some of your own advice you’ve given to all your popsters over the years. I’m rooting for ya girl.

  • heidi says:

    best of luck cassey! I do think you look amazing though! I don’t think what your doing is bad, but do you think certain bodies have this default weight it just likes to be at? i know mine will go to a certain weight if i’m not working my ass off and just killing myself. my body will just naturally stick to a size 10, but i like myself at a size 6. Best of luck i know you can do it.

  • Madhu says:

    Hello Cassey, I am amazed by the challenges and the journeys you taken on… It’s very commendable… I have started your glutes, abs and squats challenges 2 weeks back and feeling good doing them everyday… I would like to join you on your 90 day journey … I weigh the same as you but I am 3 inches shorter than you.. i wanted to know how to measure your body fat at home (as I do not any equipment specific to this).. can you please suggest?

    Thank you so much Cassey. You are such an inspiration to everyone and a very strong person.. I wish you good luck on ur 90 day journey!!😍😍

  • Sarah Suhm says:

    Awesome! Never let anybody make you feel bad about #healthybodygoals. It is so amazing that you are honest about your weight and dissatisfaction with where you are right now. Especially since you are a fitness business owner and know what criticism will likely be coming your way from people who are unhappy with themselves . Awesome job having the bravery to tell your truth and have even more fitness street cred as far as i’m concerned.

  • parissa says:

    I wish you THE BEST. Cassey whatever you do you are my mentor and i love you however you act and whatever you decide. Go Girl💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼

  • Alice says:

    You go Cassey, do what makes you happy!!

  • April Davis says:

    I love your honesty and you realist goals! I have been following you since the year after you started. I am 41 and I owe my mental and physical wellness completely to YOU!!! I wake up at 3:45 every morning and work out with you every day unless I am sick. Your motivation and inspiration is contagious. Other people ask me what I do and what I eat all of the time because they want in. I have referred sooooo many people to Blogilates and this wonderful instructor that is my partner and coach on my fitness journey. I think you look beautiful now, but of course I support you on you new goals. Thank you for all that you do! Good luck on you way! And for all of the negative that you encounter along the way, turn towards it, smile, and feel confident in the fact that your actions and words are YOUR choice and those that judge have their own words and actions that need their attention because no one is perfect or ever will be. Accepting our imperfections is tough but the hearts within a person determines the outcome. You’ve got this!!!!!!

  • Melissa says:

    I love this and I support you 100%! I think it’s very healthy of you to want to make sure you are living YOUR best life in the body God has given you!

    I’m working on doing the same thing over the next 16 weeks, so I’ll be checking back on your blog for inspiration. ❤❤

  • Alice says:

    I thi k it’s still not body positive, because body positivity isn’t for smaller bodies haha, it’s called only self love, as bopo, is a movement in the 6ps, many people still don’t know the difference, btw, the thing you still think your body is your fitness reflection, is fucked up, it cna be, but you should just strive for healthy not looking a t your body jees

  • Nichole says:

    I just want to tell you….. I have been following you for 6 years now….. and I am so proud of you. You inspire so many people! And to those who are saying to you ‘but this isn’t body positive’ or ‘you are being negative by trying to lose more weight!’ I am 5’1” and weigh 143. I am still trying to lose the baby weight I’ve gained. A good weight for me is between 115-120, and lean! I lift 3 days a week and just upped my weights. So this week I have gained 2lbs, but I know that all it is, is my body adjusting to the transition.

    Stay positive Cassie!! Don’t let society dictate your goals. There is so much of that going on right now, that ‘freedom of speech’ is no longer a freedom according to some. Stay strong, both mentally and physically. And anyone who wants to shame you for you expressing how you feel right now, well then maybe it’s because they aren’t happy with themselves. I still think you look great though!!

    I wish you the best in all things!! ❤️❤️

  • Jane says:

    Dear Cassey PLEASE READ THIS
    I am taking the time to write this message because I think it is important. I am a fellow Capricorn so I understand the need to achieve and set goals. And having gone through something similar with my weight and dieting I wanted to give my experience. Firstly you look beautiful, you are hardly ‘fat’. You look amazing even if you have put on a little weight. Since you are in the public eye how you approach this is vital. 4 years ago I put on weight after my graduation. I felt uncomfortable because my clothes were tight on me. I tried vegan and yes I felt lethargic and sore. I danced and did activities I enjoyed and the weight came off with a carb and protein diet. I had this belief that if I was comfortable in my clothes I’d be happier and I believed I loved my body. That couldn’t be further from the truth. But then I got even sicker as I didn’t allow my body enough rest after a stressful period. The weight just came back. In fact the weight I put on became resistant to anything I did. Your story isn’t new. It’s what happens in the diet and excessive exercise culture. Even too much exercise can be stressful to the body if it is lacking the proper nutrition or if there is too much toxicity. Honestly you should be looking at your mental health. If my mental health was good at that point in time I would not have rushed my body to lose weight. I would have been patient with it. Listen to my body because it was telling me something. Telling me it needed a break and things would have gone back to normal. It may not have been in the time I wanted but that’s the thing. The body has its own time and it will heal and reset with the right care if you allow it to. My story doesn’t get better…because I got to a point 3 years ago where I skipped periods and probably developed a weird eating disorder too afraid to put on weight. I made the bold decision to start eating properly and stop the exercise. I put on 44lbs in 3 months. I had broken my metabolism with the idea that I had to be a certain size to be comfortable and happy with myself. And that was so far from the truth. If I just had left the 11lbs I but on the previous year and ate properly rested and not let FEAR drive my decisions I wouldn’t be where I am today. Now I am overweight. Now I had to learn to love my body even though I can’t wear any of my clothes. Now I have to be more loving and gentle in my body and be patient enough so my metabolism can heal and the weight can come off. I know I will be back in all my clothes again but I have learnt if I really love myself, I won’t starve me body, if I really appreciate my body I won’t feel uncomfortable in it. Your body isn’t a machine. From what you are describing I think there is an underlying reason. Please….if you have any other symptoms it may even be a sneaky infection, too much toxins so your liver may be overburdened or your gut bacteria isn’t balanced. For me it was an infection that I picked up while I was stressed and my body couldn’t fight it and excess toxicity, it became chronic messing up my metabolism. Please Cassey, please reconsider your plans. This is important for all women out there who struggle with this problem. Do some should searching and get to the root cause of it. Emotions and mental health also play a huge role in weight gain and weight loss resistance . All my love, from one Capricorn to another.

  • Lichi says:

    I wish you great success! That you want to change something is absolutely fine! For me, and most of the others here, you are perfect <3 but if you do not feel well this has nothing to do with body positive. We are all here because we somehow do not feel well. You do, and need, now what you always give us: Be motivated and ready to do something to love and accept yourself!
    We support you and pay attention to you!!
    We love you Cassey!

    Greetings from Germany

  • Sarah P says:

    Best wishes! Your before pictures look beautiful, btw. I can imagine how you’re feeling to gain 14 lbs after a year. But it is also very normal to gain weight after marriage. Love and best wishes to you!

  • Merel de Kok says:

    Hi Cassey,

    First of all I want to wish you well on this next journey. Second, I understand your thoughts on the body positive movement, and some comments that are written here are written in that line of thought. Although I think everyone who’s connected with you is a kind, positive person, meaning well, again it is women criticizing a woman who is brave enough to share such a personal thing about her body. I just want to say: your body is your own, only you know what you need and what’s the best thing to do.

    All the best! Merel

  • Leonneke says:

    Hey Cassey, honestly… by reading your fist sentence “Today I woke up and decided that I needed to take back the life that I want to live.” …tears filled my eyes. I did not know why those words touched me so deeply but they did. I let myself feel the emotion and then, after reading the entire blogpost, thought about why this made me so emotional.
    I feel like you being completely honest and authentic with yourself made me realise I’ve been neglecting my self-care and life goals. Seeing you, writing about your goals and wanting to take back your life really moves me. I feel like, if you can take back your life and bring back the strong and powerful (mentally and physically) Cassey, I can do it too. I’m joining you on this journey by taking my own. So glad you’re posting about this. Really inspiring ❤ lots of love from the Netherlands xx leonneke

  • Elizabeth Hector says:

    Thanks for the honesty and sharing your journey. I want to take the journey with you. My numbers are different, the goal is shared. Keep going, don’t let the net negativity get you down. For some people that is their hobby. But you do not have to take their views on board. I appreciate you and love your channel.

  • Reetta says:

    Next time, please put the content warning right in the beginning of the post. In this one the warning comes only after some seriously anxiety inducing text and it’s completely useless at that point. Thanks.

  • Harriet says:

    Good luck Cassey!
    i myself have been struggeling to lose weight for the past 6 months, and combining losing weight with my studies is fairly hard. But you keep inspiring me to pursue it anyways. I fall back A LOT of the times due to not finding enough variations of healthy foods to eat. and thats how i return to junk food easily. But I do know it takes someone 60 days to form a habit. i hope one day i get to those days of consistently eating healthy and working out. I’ll continue to read your blog or watch your videos for inspiration and i hope it helps me further on!

    I hope you achieve everything you aspire to achieve!!

  • Katy says:

    Good luck in ur journey, I’m needing some motivation myself. I would like to look around 14lbs but also feel healthier. Can’t wait to follow ur journey

  • Andreea says:

    Cassey, i know it’s hard to “get back to work”, when you’ve been doing it every day (i’ve been there). But, i appreciate your courage to start this journey again. You inspire me every day and i hope that this community makes you want to continue with passion and drive your wonderful work. No doubt it will be hard, boring sometimes, but if you want this bad enough, it will be easy to overcome obstacles. I am sure that at the end of the 90 days , i will be proud of you💜

  • M says:

    Theres the most important part of your plan that you missed out: Mental health, gratitude for your body that is healthy and there for you each an every day, allowing you to live they way you do and do all the things you want to! Most people take their bodies for granted and instead of being thankful, hate them… instead of working on diet and exercise plans, maybe it’s time to work on mental well being which will then hopefully lead you to appreciate, accept and love you, just as you are…

  • Allison says:

    Cassey,

    I know you get so many comments so I have no idea if you’ll see this. but I am so proud of you of having your own boundary for your body and working to stay in where you are happiest. Now a days it seems if you ever admit you have something you want to improve on yourself a bunch of people flock in to tell you you’re perfect and how it will offend and hurt others to make those changes you feel you need. Given that I feel this post is very brave, and it just feels so real. I love your blog so much because I feel like on some level you just understand where my mind is.

    I was super morbidly obese, and I lost that weight. I now weigh less than half of what I once did, and people have given me so much negativity on this journey. For long stretches your blog was my main source of positivity for my body changing journey. For every time someone told me “okay you’re not obese now, time to stop haha” you were there encouraging me to keep working out, keep striving for more.

    I’m also about 15lbs from where I would like to be. And if I ever say that out loud I tend to get absolutely shouted down for “making larger people feel bad” by wanting to still continue this weight loss journey. My personal aspirations are not an attack on anyone else.

    I hope that I can give you even the slightest bit of encouragement and positivity back that you have given me. I wish you all be best on this 90 day journey and I hope to be with you every step of the way <3

  • Sorina says:

    Good luck on your jurney!! I know it is hard not to be affected by what other people say or write, but I will tell you that, to me, you are an inspiration to me for a couple of years now and please, do what feels good to you. Only your opinion about yourself matters.

  • Kristina says:

    Hi Cassey!
    I totally understand and support you. I used to weigh 25lbs more than I do now. Back then I was at a healthy BMI, and I still am, but there is a huge difference in the way I feel in my body.
    Fun fact, your pilates videos were the reason I reached my goals, thank you so much! I wish health and happiness for you on your journey, take care :)

  • Liv says:

    I don’t understand the negativity in comments. What’s wrong with the fact that Cassey wants to lose some weight and achieve her goals? I just can’t understand. It’s her life and we should be grateful that she shares her thoughts with us. You may think that she looks great, that she doesn’t have to lose any weight, that it’s not body positivity but she doesn’t feel so. Everyone has differnt goals and we should respect it. Cassey’s body may your dream body and it’s alright but she has a different vision of the body in her mind. I fully support you Cassey and I understant how you feel. I hope that you will achieve everything you want to. Stay strong and don’t care about the inscure people who want to discourage you since your plan and determination make them feel even more insecure and bad about themselves. Everyone should have a freedom of choice. If you don’t feel comfortable in a situation you should get out of your comfort zone and make a change. I’m with you Cassey. You deserve to be happy. Lots of love.

  • Sadhna says:

    Hi Cassey, I’ve started blogilates 5 months ago I did it because it made me feel amazing mentally and emotionally, I also thought my body was toning up really well however I’ve put on 8lbs I’ve always eaten healthy etc. I tried changing my diet. What can I do I really don’t want to stop.

  • Frédérique says:

    Chère Cassey, je vous trouve touchante …il y a 3ans que je fais vos séance de pilates, piit, et toutes les autres.Mon corps est plus lourd mais il est plus fort aussi.j’ai moins de ride (j’ai 50 ans),ma peau est plus belle , je suis plus endurante, et pourtant j’ai pris 6 kg en 1 an sans changer mes bonnes habitudes. En ce moment, je reprends un entrainement serieux avec vous, et je travaille sur le poids de mes émotions…je fais etre dieteticienne diplômée ds quelques semaines et cela fait 1 an que je m’inflige des restrictions et mon corps se défend.
    Mais j’ai trouvé une solution , lente mais vrai.Je mange en pleine conscience des aliments que j’aime, je m’autorise en quantité tous les legumes et tous les fruits…Je ne mange que lorsque j’ai faim.quand j’ai faim , je me demande pourquoi? est ce de la faim pour faire fonctionner mon corps? ou pour combler une émotion difficile? si c’est pour l’émotion je me concentre dessus et je l’analyse…je l’apaise , je bois une boisson chaude et je nourris mon esprit avec une lecture, de la musique ou une balade, ou un appel à quelqu’un que j’aime, bref tout ce que je peux pour faire diversion …tous les matins je me regarde et me trouve en jolie forme physique à 50 ans et cela grâce à vous…vous avez libéré mon corps car même un peu trop ronde à mon gout, je suis ferme et dessinée…vous avez une très belle energie, mettez cette energie dans l’amour pour vous, votre corps,vos performances, prenez celui que toutes les personnes comme moi vous envoient. Brâvo pour qui vous êtes et votre talent de vie . Je continue à vous suivre inlassablement et avec un réèl plaisir. Amicalement Frédérique

  • Emma says:

    Hi cassey
    Hope you all the luck in world on your journey.. i understand what your feeling if your not happy with something change it your NOT doing anything wrong . Every woman thinks or feels that way in some part of her life ..😊💖💖

    • LisaRav says:

      I’m at a similar stage in my journey. My measurements are almost identical to yours. I am 5 feet tall and weigh 116. I’d like to drop 10 pounds and then reevaluate, based on my measurements.

      I have been doing your videos almost every day since February and have noticed huge changes. I look longer and leaner with better muscle tone and have less stiffness and back pain. I look forward to your challenges and monthly calendars.

  • Jeanna says:

    Good luck on your journey!! I look forward to reading about it. I think you already look great BTW

  • Jess says:

    “It’s time to get my life back”. This is the phrase you use to describe this process. Losing fat is equivalent to getting your life back. Those are powerful words, Cassey. Dangerous even.
    How uncomfortable must you feel while looking in the mirror for everything else in your life to become irrelevant, for you to feel the need to get your “life back”.
    I will tell you something about my personal journey of self acceptance. I hated my face. I thought if maybe I lost weight, or maybe learned how to make up or contour my cheeks that would solve my problems. I would finally love how I looked. I lost weight. And I still hated my face.
    I decided to go to therapy. And it was the best choice ever made. She went with me through my thoughts, my mental habits. So far I haven’t told you that I am indigenous looking. Dark skin. Broad face. High, “manly” cheekbones. And I grew surrounded by ideals and images that did not represented ME. Quite the opposite, I was thought by my surroundings that how I looked was inferior, less pretty, less desirable, less beautiful, less attractive, less good-looking, less powerful. Less. I was bullied. Harshly. First by others and then by my own doing. I believed I was less, and that I had to change something in me, and since young strived to change and hide. My ancestry. My indigenous background. My genetic pool. My personal history. My pride. Which now I hold dear.
    I found out through my own personal journey that what we see in our bodies many times are the reflection of more profound rooted problems that we carry inside and haven’t found a way or an open to deal and tackle them.
    My journey is not over. There are days I find it hard to walk outside (I live now in a majorly white country) without the fear of being mocked at. But now my thoughts do not go directly to “I wish I could change this or that. Or yes, it makes sense because I look ugly because this and that”. No. I stop and think about why I look the way I look. Who and what it means to look the way I look. Who decides that the way I look is wrong. And I feel empowered. Prideful. Happy. Rejoiced.
    Your journey of self-acceptance might be different. The root of your incomformity to your body might be somewhere else. But I hope you decide, one day, to find where and what exactly it is.
    Extra fat is not. I assure you. It might tamper your thoughts. It might help you conceal it for a while. But the root will remain.
    You are not getting your life back by losing fat, Cassey. In fact it might actually be slipping in between your fingers. Do it. Lose weight. Strengthen your body. But do it for the right reasons.
    Low self esteem is not a good reason. Hate towards your body is not a good reason. Find the root and then after that find a good reason, Cassey.
    Love you
    Jess

  • Suz says:

    Hi Cassey, this is exactly how I am feeling. Body positivity has left me feeling I can’t do anything even if I am feeling miserable. So I am going to commit to this too. I have a 1 year old so I will say now that I will make sure I exercise regularly. This blog post resonated with me so much so thank you xxxx

  • Loly says:

    SORRY! Mispelled your name..Cassey…

  • Kelly says:

    You rock! Dig your honesty Womin and have always loved your Blogilates channel! Love that your takin life back. HUGE positive message

  • Ninsy says:

    Dear Cassey, I just want to tell you that when I first off saw the pic u posted I was like “Wow look at those curves! So lovely! You look so hot!
    I wish u all the best in your journey. U have been an inspiration to Alot of us with Ur healthy with curves figure.
    Thank you for that.

  • Loly says:

    Hello Cassie,
    I just love your outlook on life and fitness.. this is a very common problem for everybody but it takes a fitness pro like you to blog about it which really a big comfort and reassuring..most pros only talk about go..go..go feels like a job to exercise instead of doing something good for the body and soul and enjoyable..you can totally do it in less than 90 days with all your leg/glute/butt lifts..good grief I’m still sore from yesterday…Good luck! Met you one time a convention so will try to meet up with you again..

  • Cheryl says:

    Congratulations on taking charge of what you want to do. I have struggled with my weight and even more so now that I’m older. One thing I have found that helps is Intermittent Fasting. I have used the 5/2 method and I was able to drop my cholesterol 60 points for the first time in my life. I was able to drop my A1C by .2 which I was having problems with also. I try to eat good fats but keep off the sugars (use mungfruit sugar instead) I think you just have to listen to your body and do what makes you happy and feel your best. Good luck. I’ll be following along with you

  • Tatjana says:

    How can I be body positive when this year, despite my everyday yoga, speedwalking and hiking, (and very little weight fluctuation, 3kg) I have flabby inner thighs and my skin altogether looks like my grandma’s when she was 86, saggy and hanging loose (and I am 44)? Sorry, I can’t. And my belly fat just pops out just like every time I don’t sleep well and I am really stressed out?
    I have so many things going for me right now but that flabby skin and stubborn upper belly fat are really making me nervous because I live in a very lookist&agist culture (and it’s not the USA!).
    Last year I lost 12 kg over a 8-month period with yoga, speedwalking, varbs and meat and my skin looked great and suddenly – baaaam, you’re hanging!
    So I’ll do part of what you’re doing and try deep tissue massage like 3x a week.
    Wish you happiness on your journey!

  • Barbara says:

    OMG! I **LOVE** your honesty and transparency! Just shared this with my daughter. We both need to hear this message. I admire you SO MUCH!!! Thanks and I’m looking forward to following you through the 90 days. That will bring us to mid-November – just prior to the end-of-year binge fest. Please consider adding another 45 days or so, to get us past the new year! Btw, I am eating mostly Paleo which works really well for my post-menopausal body. xoxoxox

  • A says:

    Dear Cassey,
    I really hope you read this. I know it’s really long, but bear with me. First, I want to say that I understand where you’re coming from, especially constantly being in the public eye. But another diet is not the solution. The years of dieting you have done have contributed to your continuous weight gain. In addition, it shows that the lower weight you were at isn’t what your body is comfortable with. It isn’t your “set point weight.” Your set point weight should be easy and effortless to maintain. You shouldn’t have to have a long set of rules around eating and have to do hours of exercise in order to maintain it.

    Of course you gained weight after your wedding. I would be surprised if you didn’t. What you did to prepare for your wedding was not sustainable long term. Sure, I understand you wanted to “look your best” for your wedding, but that came at a cost to your mental health and caused even more distrust to your body.

    When you go on a diet (or “cleanse” or “clean eating” or “lifestyle change” or “detox” or “reset,” whatever you want to call it, it’s still a diet), your body feels like it can’t trust that you will feed it consistently and feed it the food it wants. It’s like you’re in a famine. Your body has lost trust with you. So of course when you allow yourself to eat normally, it will try to “stock up” and therefore contributing to your weight gain. People who have never dieted don’t experience these fluctuations in weight.

    Food is supposed to taste good. If it didn’t, our ancestors wouldn’t have survived and we wouldn’t be here. Just because something is pleasurable doesn’t mean it’s “bad.” Water tastes good, especially when we’re thirsty, but does that make drinking water “bad?” No. It feels good to breathe. Does that make breathing bad? No! If we suddenly restricted our oxygen intake, we would also need to take deeper breaths when we finally allow ourselves to breathe normally. If we didn’t allow ourselves to pee for 12 hours, we’d have to pee a lot more. It’s the same concept with food, but diet culture has made it seem like food is always the demon and that dieting and exercise will solve our problems. The dieting/weight loss industry is a multi billion dollar industry for a reason. It profits off of our insecurities. It’s also a first world problem. While people in third world countries worry about not having enough to eat, we worry about labeling foods that we should and should not eat. Our society is messed up.

    Bread and wheat make you “bloated” because you keep restricting them. When you restrict something and then introduce them back again, of course your body will have a different reaction than if you allowed yourself to eat it all the time. Also, you seem to gravitate towards low carb diets, which also contribute to you feeling “bloated.” You think low carb, high fat diets help you lose weight (at least initially) because carbs literally require more water for your body to digest them, so you’re only losing water weight. You’ve taken science courses. This should sound familiar to you. And no, it’s not a good thing when we lose water weight. Our body is made primarily of water. It’s what helps us function. Getting rid of water weight is not healthy.

    “Bloating” is a completely normal part of digestion. Food goes to our stomach and intestines. Of course we’ll get some bloating when we eat. It only makes sense. If our feet get “bloated” or swollen when we eat, then we have a problem. A heart problem, specifically.

    There is no magical diet that you have to discover to fix your issues. Your issues stem from within your mind. Stop bouncing from one diet to the next. You may not like to hear this, but all these years of “eating clean” is just another (long) diet that you’re putting your body through, so of course you gain weight through it. Dieting has been shown to lead to weight gain. Your “28-day reset” is a diet. Going vegan or vegetarian or pescetarian solely for weight loss is a diet. Low carb, Paleo, high fat, high protein – they’re all diets if any rules are involved.

    There’s a reason you feel like you have to go “all out” when you go on vacation. While it’s a step in the right direction to allow yourself to eat anything, I can tell you’re still restricting yourself during most other days. That’s why you have to eat everything on the rare days you go on vacation. Because your body doesn’t know when it will have the chance to eat them again. When you allow yourself to eat everything, you won’t actually want everything.

    I know you never completely got over diet culture, but I thought you’ve taken one step forward. Now you’ve taken two steps back. I know it’s difficult, especially being in the public eye and being a fitness instructor, but only you can make the decision for the better.

    We don’t do your workout videos because of your weight or look. We do it because of your bubbly personality. Even when you’re heavier, we still come back to you because your videos are fun, not because you wear a size 0, 2, 4, 6, or whatever you wear. There are workout videos with people who are supermodel thin, but I don’t like them because their videos are not as entertaining as yours. Sam didn’t marry you because of the way you looked. He didn’t marry you to watch you go from one diet to another. He loves you because of who you are on the inside, not because of your waistline or bra size.

    Do you want to still be restricting your food intake when you’re 80 years old and hanging out with your kids and/or grandkids? “Hey Mom, I made you some chocolate chip cookies. Do you want some?” “No, honey. I’m eating sugar-free, carb-free, gluten-free, dairy-free. Are you trying to make me gain weight?!?” That’s not the kind of conversation I want anybody to have. That’s not the kind of life anybody should live.

    Dieting and restriction can also contribute to infertility. Not saying you have fertility issues, but it can happen. For some people, all the years of dieting have made it that much more difficult to get pregnant and sustain a healthy pregnancy and start a family. It has also contributed to bone density issues. If you think weight loss is healthy, think again.

    Would you ever restrict Sir George’s or Sam’s food intake? I sure hope not. If you wouldn’t do something like this to a loved one or a friend or family, why do it to yourself? Stop being so harsh on yourself. You may gain some short term results, but it’s going to backfire in the end.

    Feeling full and satiated physically is one thing, but don’t neglect our mental satisfaction either. We can eat all the chicken breast and broccoli and feel physically full, but we definitely won’t be satisfied.

    Throw away your scale. It’s not serving any purpose other than making you feel bad.

    Before and after pics are not good for one’s mental health either. Because they’re made public, they’re also affecting other followers.

    Sure, you can get to your “goal weight,” but I guarantee if that’s something you have to work so, so hard for, it’s not going to last long term, and you’ll end up at an even higher weight than when you started.

    Our society has come to a point where we need to be restricting certain fruits because there’s “too much carbs.” Is that not a problem to you?

    Our bodies plateauing is not a bad thing. Imagine if we just kept losing more and more weight. People would die from that. It’s a survival mechanism for food to taste good and for us to not keep losing weight.

    Our bodies are not meant to stay the same over the years. Would you judge your mom for putting on weight after giving birth to you or not remaining the same weight she was as a teenager?? Hopefully not.

    Losing weight is not the most impressive thing our bodies can do.

    Having a lower body fat percentage is not necessarily a healthy thing, especially for women. For some, it can cause hormonal issues and amenorrhea, which can lead to bone problems and a whole host of other issues.

    At this point, this appears to be more about vanity than about health, which is deviating from what your channel’s original purpose.

    You’re not letting yourself go for not trying to lose weight anymore. You’re letting yourself be.

    Thinking that we have control over our weight is almost the same as saying we have control over our height and shoe size. Our weight and body shape are determined mostly by genetics. Food and exercise only make up a small part, contrary to popular belief.

    You’re allowed to be human and to be imperfect, but it’s this mindset of yours that makes me not want to follow you or do your workouts or buy your workout clothes anymore.

    I’m not here to judge you for wanting to lose weight. That’s not the point. I hope I can help you see the light one day and not be continuously sucked into the hole of diet culture.

    Just think about how many times you’ve had a goal weight and pursued weight loss. I’m sure it worked at first. It always does. But then it doesn’t. It’s our bodies’ way of keeping us alive. There’s nothing wrong with your body. You didn’t fail the diet. The diet failed you.

    You may not agree with everything or anything I said here, but I hope one day you’ll understand the points I’m trying to make. We can agree to disagree, but don’t call us “haters” for having different opinions.

    If you’ve read this far, thank you very much. I appreciate what you do for us and hope you can keep being you. Since you’re not worried about what people think about your blog posts, then don’t worry about what people think about your size and weight.

    Wishing you all the best.

    • Tam says:

      Thank you for commenting this; it put all my feelings about this into words.

    • Haley says:

      She’s doing it for her self-esteem and I don’t think there’s anything wrong with her wanting to feel better about her self.

    • suesan says:

      Beautifully shared. ♥️♥️♥️
      I follow you Cassie, because I too love your personality and I have always felt empowered by your body comp video..

    • Raadiya says:

      Thank you so much for this comment. I loved your thoughts! Really made me think. Thank you again.

    • b says:

      Gorgeous gorgeous post A !!!! So so well written and thought out. Thank you

    • Jeanna says:

      I agree with this. I think we should all throw out our scales and just focus on being as healthy as we can be.

    • melschevelle says:

      I found this reply mentally helpful from “A” I read the blog post earlier today and beside all the warnings and telling myself it’s an individuals journey, I felt awful. Those before pics are beautiful. No matter what she’s supposed to weigh or wants to, she looks amazing. So if this woman that I’ve watched for 30 mins a day, 6 days a week for 3 years this September, thinks she’s at all heavy or in need of a diet….sent me into a spinning mid trip of self hate and guilt today. I kept telling myself this is how Cassey feels…but I look to her so hard now that I’m addicted to her videos and blogs that I kept swirling back to a bad place. I agree 100 percent with pretty much all the comments I read as well. I’ve heard her say so many times that she does not weigh herself because of what it does mentally…so I stopped that as well. Felt good! But now I’m confused. I’ve noticed such a HUGE change in my body’s muscles and tone. But after reading this today I feel terrible. Not terrible for or towards Casey but in general. My mind is like….omg…..if that’s heavy then wtf am I???? I LOVE Casey’s videos and will do them for as long as physically possible and love her clothes as well. I also hope it’s safe to share a feeling like this. It’s just what went through my head. Everyone of course has a right to their own journeys. After all the time Cassey has spent with me in my workout room has changed my life in more ways than I can think of. But there’s still a nasty part of my brain that’s now feeding on my role models words about being her heaviest. She’s literally amazing, gorgeous and perfect in my eyes…but I guess that’s it. My eyes.

    • Lisa says:

      A- wow! I love what you wrote. I am desperate trying to feel comfortable
      In my skin at my higher weight after years of the scale going up and down and my emotions with it. I’ve had borderline eating disorders for close to 2 decades and I’m exhausted by all of it. I want to be fit not skinny but even that semi new mindset feels impossible and full of pressure and unmet goals. I’m learning to trust my body to tell me when I’m hungry instead of staring At the clock waiting for a magic 4 hours to go by. I’m hoping I can feel confident even with some saddlebags and love handles I can’t seem to shake after having two babies. And I really hope at some point in the future the mirror doesn’t make me see flaws and extra fat. I fee strong and capable but I find myself wishing for a body to match it. Your words to Casey were extremely helpful. Especially the analogy of needing to take huge dee breaths after holding our breath. Thanks for taking the time to write your reply even if she doesn’t read it.

    • Alex says:

      Lovely post, thanks for writing this.

    • Alice says:

      I really hope she reads this because I totally agree with you! Please Cassie you need this, because otherwise, you’ll live your life striving for a kind of health that will never be pleasurable nor helahty

    • Katherine says:

      Completely agree with your post. Cassie is gorgeous. I like exercising and getting shape but not at the expense of giving up foods I love. I unfortunately suffer from a very self negative image and always see flaws when I look in the mirror. I have a daughter and I don’t want her to have the same negativity do I’m trying to teach myself to be more body positive.

    • jdepaul says:

      Thank you for sharing this A. There is so very little sanity out there about diet, exercise, and especially body image. Why? Cuz it makes a ton of money. It’s so sad how women have been so thoroughly brainwashed. It really is time for us to take our lives, minds, and bodies back . Let’s not waste more time and energy. I should be reading your post every day. Thanks again.

    • Lorraine Azzinnari says:

      Wow now that’s a great post. I do have to agree with you. Dieting for years and restricting carbs or other foods screwed up my body I’m still trying to recover.. it’s very real, I’m glad I read this post, and for the reminders of why I was hospitalized 4x and gratefully recovered, but the demon still has a heartbeat regarding dieting so it’s a real struggle. Great post.

    • Miranda says:

      Beautifully and perfectly stated. As a therapist and a person in recovery from an eating disorder I can attest to the truth in As claims. Thank you for posting not only for Cassey but for all the fans who don’t know to ask themselves the same questions. Love to all

  • I think you look beautiful the way you are and at the same time I completely understand your goals and your logic. Your positive, honest approach to fitness, body-image and life inspire me. I completely agree about positive body image as well; it is healthy for us to want to be the best version of ourselves, and as long as we’re loving our body during the process, then that’s having a positive body image. Good luck!

  • Kim says:

    I’m so happy to see you are doing this. My weight has also crept up about a pound a month for the last year & Ive been struggling to find the motivation to do something about it. I’m excited to follow your progress & hopefully stay motivated on my own journey!

  • Stephanie Benegas says:

    You should check out smoothieshred.com….hypernourishing lifestyle makes you look and feel great. Basically green smoothies everyday…

  • Loriana says:

    I’m going to do the same starting August 18th! This post was just what I needed to get myself out of this fitness rut that I’ve been in. I lost a decent amount of weight but then I got too comfortable and gained some of it back. I never even reached my goal! So now I’m going to start over with you. Let’s do it!

  • Kristen M says:

    I will join you… Great inspiration! Thank you for being so candid.

  • Thea says:

    I’m so excited for this!!! You inspire me so much!

  • Kathy, this makes me so happy and motivated for both you and I to enter into the new chapter of our life! I’ve been in a rut lately and can use a complete my set, lifestyle, diet and fitness overhaul. I admit I have not been feeling my best and I know that I deserve to up level more. For the record, thank you so much for sharing this in dedicating to being open and blogging about your weight loss Journey. You completely do not need to justify your goals. Your goals are your goals! No matter how ridiculous somebody else may think they are, or how much they disagree on it, or how much science goes against yada yada yada… It doesn’t matter, because at the end of the day if you want to do something then that’s a good enough reason. You know you justify yourself. You can want it simply by wanting it. It’s not wrong to want to look good. Snot wants wrong to want to look skinnier. It’s not wrong to want to get stronger. It’s not wrong to be a billionaire. It’s not wrong to pass by a homeless person and not give money simply because perhaps you just don’t want to. Of course, it’d be nice to donate to that homeless person, but are you obligated to? No. Does it make you a bad person if you don’t question mark no oh, it doesn’t. If you want something, that is a good enough reason to do it! Period. Doesn’t matter what other people think. And I don’t care if other people think you’re being unhealthy, or unreasonable, or completely delusional. Your life, your way. Free will.

  • Christina Archer says:

    Hi Casey! As a registered dietitian who encourages body positivity, BUT also reserves the right to allow my clients the freedom to pursue weight loss, I totally get where you’re coming from! The university I attended for My BS and MS in nutrition had me feeling suffocated by the many Health At Every Size “nazi” professors on campus. I think it’s important to stay body positive while still allowing room for people to not feel like they are “bad” for wanting to lose weight. With that said, I’m wondering why you’ve chosen to pursue (what sounds like) a shorter term diet versus changing up a couple of the things in your lifestyle that have contributed to your health fluctuation. It sounds like you’re pretty stressed out, given your acne and posts about belly bloating. Maybe it would be worth looking into the possibility of changing the root cause(s) too? Wishing you all the best on this 90-day journey and I totally look forward to following you’re progress!

  • Grace says:

    I’ve always wanted to get in shape but have never really changed my diet (which is why nothing has changed). Recently I’ve been more motivated to incorporate healthier habits and reach my goal weight. I have a very similar body type to you so this is very motivational! Will try to stay on this fitness journey with you~

  • Salisha says:

    i am a lot heavier than you and honestly i have been trying to eat cleaner and workout five to six times a week. SO far this year i have started over the beginners challenge about 5 or 6 times but this time i started which i started a thursday is going to be the time that i will see things through and learn to discipline myself. I honestly feel stronger and you are a Great inspiration to me Casey. I know you are disciplined and you will get through this and i will be going on a 90 day with you as well but in my own way. #GoTeam

  • Sonja Vodehnal Collins says:

    What about menopausal women?

  • Kim McCauley says:

    So proud of you, Cassey! I’m trying to get to my prebaby size (after 6 pregnancies) and started Whole30 as a recommendation from my doctor to reset my weight back because it’s been set at pregnancy weight for so longI just want to wear my old clothes, the weight part isn’t a good indicator because my body has changed so much from the pregnancies.

    Anyway, I LOVE working out with you, not because of what you look like in any video but because I get to spend time with your personality. I love your encouraging words, your funny laughs and your friendly personality. Your character is what draws people to you, not your weight. I’m 40 years old and feel like I have a cool friend in you!

    Have fun on this 90 Day adventure and I will be praying that you get to the end and are proud of your hard work, regardless if you hit a certain number. You will still be you after 90 days and that’s what makes you so special.

  • Jenny says:

    Casey, When I read that this is your “before” picture, I was shocked!! Girl, your body is bangin. You look so beautiful, normal, and healthy! I don’t know what your ideal body looks like, but I hope you don’t want to look like a starving, no period having, lipo-sucked, pre-teen type thin ass body!! Of course, your fitness and body goals are your own and I respect that. I would only encourage you to be kind to yourself and proud of your strong beautiful feminine physique. 😍❤️👍🏻

  • Johanna says:

    Cassey you are amazing! I’ve been following you since the first YouTube days and your journey has been an inspiration to myself and many others. Your body positivity has helped me overcome body issues and heal from an eating disorder. You’ve made me love working out for strength and how it makes me feel, not just to burn off calories or to look a certain way. Working out has become something I look forward to, not a chore or something to check off. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

    Best of luck on your 90 day journey! It takes courage to take charge of you life and put boundaries up as an act of self love. You got this. <3

  • CARRIE says:

    Thank you for always being you! I don’t like to hear that all of the feedback is squashing your freedom to try things a different way – boo to whoever has that kind of power over your thoughts. As I get older (I’m almost 50) I realize that I just want to be healthy and don’t care as much about my appearance being “just so”. You know what?! I keep coming back to your workouts and am always amazed at your energy and generosity and openness. I’ve been doing your workouts for 5 years off and on (started with my daughter) and no one I’ve ever had as a teacher even comes close to helping me get a good workout while having fun. Whatever you discover will be wonderful and I pray you will be blessed by all the things God will reveal to you in the process. You are the best! God bless you on your journey.

  • Jenn says:

    “”””just because a woman wants to lose weight or change her body does not mean she’s not body positive.”””” I LOVE U!!!! I would do the journey with u 😊🙌

  • Rahshemah says:

    Hi. I have been a follower for years. Last year you 100 ab challenge kick started me into a great summer. Its a year later and I am 25 pounds overweight. I look in the mirror amd i am sadden because i know i can do better. I want to go along on this journey for health reasons and because i want my energy back and I want to feel and look go in my clothed.

  • Raven says:

    I love that you added a self care item. Mental health is so important. I’ve been reading “Come as You Are, The Surprising New Science that will Transform your Sex Life” by Emily Nagoski, and she talks a lot about the lies we learn about our bodies, from our upbringing, to media, all the way to the medical field. The messages affect all of us differently, and we should weed out the ones we know are not healthy for us. I’m a naturally thin person and I’m sick of people telling me I look healthy because I’m thin. When I’m active, eating well, and taking care of my mental health, that’s when I’m healthy, not because I’m thin.

    I wish you the best on your journey, and I’ll continue to watch your workout videos for a good workout because they make me feel good. It’s hard to find fitness that focuses on things other than weight, fat, and changing things we dislike about our physical appearance and I’ll keep searching for things that celebrate what we do have. Yes you are a public figure, but you should do what’s good for you, so thanks for your warning with this email. I hope you really are happy during your entire journey and you know how beautiful you are today, tomorrow and the day after. I’d love to hear something you love about your body on your journey, your lungs capacity, your heart rate ability, your strength, your arms, legs, or butt! But I might unsubscribe for a while so I don’t need to be reminded about weight in my emails. I need to weed out things that are not positive for my mental health, as do all those people who critique you and you can weed them out as well. Good luck Cassey!

    Raven

  • Teaghan says:

    First I want to say go you for seeing something you want to change and going for it! Second, looking at your stats was really hard for me. I’m in puberty, still growing, and shorter than you and we weigh the same. Seeing you want to make a change to your weight was really challenging since I’m trying to be comfortable with my weight and body, and so it made me feel a lot like my body isn’t ok. On the other hand, I think I might try this challenge with you, so thank you for the motivation!

  • Alexis says:

    Hi Cassey! This is so inspirational and I really want to try this. Now that I’m commuting to school, it’s going to be harder for me to diet easily and go to the gym. When I was living on campus, I felt more focused and disciplined, but not anymore. I really want to get better at this, so I’m going to do this with you. Thank you so much and we got this.

  • Shannon Lecoeuvre says:

    Thank You! I’ve been following you for 4 years now, and was the fittest when I followed your calendar and played tennis 4 times a week. Life and schedules change and now I work my butt off at boot camps 4 times a week and while I’ve gotten stronger and built muscle, my body is not where I’d like it to be. I’m 35 now and let’s be real, your body just changes! Now if only I could accept that. I’m 5’6 and weigh between 125-130 (scales are not good for my obsessive mind ☺️) so technically based on this weight, there’s no problem. However, I feel it in my stomach and especially the sagging skin around my armpits that my 30’s gifted me with. So I’m going to follow suit, and rather than just getting my butt kicked at boot camp day in and day out, I will get beach to the Pilates you brought into my life that made me feel good inside and out! You have inspired me throughout my fitness journey which began when I made the choice to live a sober life. Watching your videos helped me love myself and that’s what I’m missing in my life right now…you!

  • BedazzledBlaine says:

    Love it. I love being able to have listening ears to vent all of my work out/dieting/body things to. Good and Bad! It’s hard sometimes to talk to people who respond to my fitness on-goings with “you look fine the way you are, don’t talk like that around your kids, you don’t need to lose weight”. I don’t hate myself, I love my body, I love challenging it, I love taking care of it, I love making it pretty, and I like feeling good. And THATS 👏🏻 O 👏🏻 K👏🏻 Lol. So rock on girl! You got this! And thank you so much for sharing. 💜 much love.

  • Sarah Welty says:

    Cassey, I’m making changes in my life too. Pretty much every area of my life. Thank you for that message, you give me hope. 💋💕

  • Becky Agee says:

    We love you at 113 or 130!!! 💜

  • Becky Agee says:

    Thanks for sharing this. I am also feeling kinda blah with everything right now. I haven’t gained or lost just feeling stuck. Always tired, achy…Sugar and dairy make me break out and carbs bloat me & make me crave even more of them! I’ve had the pimples and bloating all summer. I’ve given up dairy this month and it’s helping so sugar is next. I’m starting to slowly wean sugar this week and August 25th I’m starting no sugar for 30 days challenge! #sugarfreeSeptember just a little early. I do see better results with a low carb/mostly keto diet! so I spent today looking at recipes and trying to plan some meals. I’m excited to see what you are eating! I workout a bunch through the week so I want to focus more on the food and emotional side of it. Good luck! You’re beautiful inside and out & I love your workouts, posts, challenges…all of it! I’ve been with you since the beginning!!!! You can do this! Just know you do have people who support you💜

  • Carolyn says:

    I’m with you, Casey. You got this.

  • EMILY WHITTLE says:

    I just want to say that I’m REALLY proud of you for thinking of yourself and not letting what other people think or say get in your way towards being truly healthy and happy (mentally,emotionally and physically)! Right now you need to focus on you and only you and tune out all of the people that think they know everything about everyone and just be happy being you and doing what YOU know makes you feel good. I wish you all the best on your journey. You’ve got this girl!!!!!!

  • misia says:

    « You can view working out as a negative or positive thing. Your choice! Your body. Your life. But understand this – just because a woman wants to lose weight or change her body does not mean she’s not body positive. Do you hear me? »

    THIS 🙌🏻 🙌🏻 🙌🏻 Thank you for saying it! Gave me shivers just to read it!
    I get so tired about all that hypocrisy about body positivity. Being body positive doesn’t necessarily mean you just have to indulge all the time and don’t want to become the best version of yourself mentally and physically. Body positive could be more minding your own business and less being so judgemental about what others are doing with their body, and wish them happiness and health.
    Anyways, this looks inspiring to me, I think I’ll do this with you (at least I’ll get inspired by your diet – I’m stressed as hell right now, I feel like the healthiest meals could do some good. :) )

  • Paula Boykin says:

    Cassey I’m so there with you!! I just got back overseas after a rough summer of lots of stress, the loss of my father in law staying in hotels and having to eat out allot. I have gained 15 pounds since May. I came back determined to shed the weight and I know what program I need to do but truly felt good reading your story, it made me feel like I’m not in this alone. Thank you so much for inspiring and sharing!! I’ll be right along with you sending you support and cheering you on from the other side of the world!!!
    We got this girl!!

  • Christiana says:

    I think I’m going to do this with you in theory, I do have a big surgery coming up sept 25(5 days after my bday) and it’ll be my fourth one this year since January so I am very happy with losing 20-25lbs people say I don’t need to but idc that’s what will make me happy. I’m curvy big chest and bigger butt BUT I have muscular bottom half because I played on all boys football team in middle school and did track and field and then once I hit high school starting the summer before my first day I was in volleyball camp and I made the team and played through highschool and also continued track and field due to injuries I am not able to play in college:(
    Anyways Cassey I think this will make you feel better overall because it’s what u want not what others want and that is also my mentality. Maintains a very healthy diet is a little trickier money wise but I think I’m off to a good start and I think personally knowing u r also doing this and have similar goals will help me out a lot and when I’m recovering is when I’ll want to be strict with my diet. Maybe you could some time soon do a meal prep video for all meals of the day and snacks. I’m also doing intermittent fasting again and upped my H2O intake since the glute challenge this month which helps; the fasting is great all day long and easy to make right choices until late evening rolls around and when my bf gets home from work all the sudden I’m craving foods which is odd I’m not a stress eater I don’t eat when I’m upset and stressed but the things I do want to eat r just really high in cals or carbs so that’s my biggest thing right now. I eat avocados everyday I kinda feel maybe I started putting on a little weight when I started that so do u think I should cut back on those?(1/2) of one almost every day is what I do). Well good luck to you! And every one else who is also going to try and do this with her I think it’ll make all of us more successful in reaching our goals and takes a lot of courage being open about this topic with a large community which for the most part we all support each other well in our Blogilates fitness community

  • Esper Marszalec says:

    I think you look amazing. But I get it when you, yourself doesn’t feel comfortable. You go girl. 👏👏

  • Debbie says:

    My measurements and weight are almost exactly the same as yours and I’ve been trying for about a year or more to get back to my weight of 118 from about 3 years ago. I just can’t stay consistent with my diet because I love to eat so much! But I do have IBS so I really need to be more careful about what I eat. After reading your blog post you’ve given me inspiration to really get serious! You’ve also made me feel better about myself because I think you look great in your pics! Good luck on your journey and I’ll be right there with you! Thanks for all you do!

    • EmJ says:

      Hi, just curious, what do you find is the most optimal to eat when living with IBS (that is, what aggravates it the least)? I hope you don’t mind me asking. My doctor said that based on my symptoms, I likely have IBS, and I’m quite certain I do – and have for a few years now anyway….finally just starting to take note of the types of food I eat and how it affects my BMs….if you feel like sharing what you find works for you I would love to learn and take note! I’m not great at having a consistent diet either…. Haha 😅

  • Ninjajess says:

    Totally get it. I have been struggling with my body image for many years and find it hard to get the right balance. I dropped a dress size or two before my wedding in April and can feel the weight slowly creeping back on. It’s so hard to maintain a consistent size where you feel happy! I completely agree that women should be free to embrace their bodies at whatever stage they feel most comfortable, free from criticism or discussion. That being said, I do just want to add that I think you look absolutely amazing. You are such a role model to me and I would seriously love to have a body like yours. I wish you nothing but support in your journey but I hope you know just how beautiful and how inspirational you are.

  • Talicia says:

    I felt this. After moving for a job, having my father pass away, and trying to sell a house, my weight shot up to…well, I’m the same height as you and weigh more than you do. And NOTHING was working. My sister and I have now been doing intermittent fasting, but I can’t keep that to an exact science. I will be following you on your journey and appreciate you letting us in on it (and by the way, your PIIT beginner calendar conditioned me better than an extreme weight workout I had been doing).

  • Michelle says:

    You got this Cassey! I believe in you! You’ve inspired me for so many years now. And you continue to do so. Be strong. Be beautiful. Be the best you!

  • Rebecca says:

    Looooove this Cassey!! Glad to have you back :)

  • Bene says:

    Hi Cassey,
    There are those times in life where it is important to listen to yourself as you are doing right now. Weight loss or not, feeling good in your body and in your mind is very important. I think that you have nothing to prove as a public figure except what you are showing us here: listening to ourselves and taking up actions to live happy. I hope you will get support from your community because I believe that you inspired us in many ways over the years. I personally started to workout daily following you on YouTube to clear my mind after a school day because I felt empty and it gave me back my confidence. Then, I stopped. And lately, I also had the feeling that I wasn’t myself anymore, because I was not doing much things anymore and I was letting myself go…and I didn’t want this for myself anymore, I wanted a change because this wasn’t me. I have started your glute challenge because I always feel like you are true with us about how working out can be difficult. I have listened to the video where you said that social medias were adding a load on you and that you didn’t enjoy it as much over the time. I have decided to take pole dancing classes and it has already been a month. I have never felt happier to just be and do what I want for the reasons that makes me good. Maybe there will not be any weight loss but I am gaining back my confidence and I feel sexy, I feel alive. I hope your journey will bring this back to you. All the best.

  • sarastuff14 says:

    You are so beautiful inside and out! Thanks for being so real. I have dieted and lost weight. Then I start working out but can not keep to the diet. Ugh! Frustration. I have been fighting with 7lbs that I gained back at Christmas. I just could not get back on the diet train which was eating more natural less processed. High proteins/less carbs. Since I was struggling to stick to that, I started blogilates. I haven’t lost weight but I’ve lost inches. I’m so proud of that. Thanks for being so inspiring. For being real. For being you!! You’ve got this!! Go Cassey Go!!!

  • Chloe Horner says:

    Cassey— I am in the same boat! I have gained 10lbs in less than a year and I want it off too, so I will follow you and do whatever you are doing! This starts now sister :) All love, Chloe Horner

  • Meg says:

    This is exactly the motivation I needed! I know what I like and what I don’t like, and how to get back the body I know I can have and feel most comfortable in. I’d love to join you in this to feel my best by my 30th birthday in October! Today I’m going to prep, make schedules and grocery lists, tomorrow I cook and start my Day 1. Thank you for sharing your insight with us- I look forward to your daily blogs!

  • Jen says:

    Cassey I’m with you on this! I’m doing this for my mental health. The state of my body is usually a pretty good indicator of my mental health; when I exercise regularly and eat healthy it really helps with my depression and anxiety which then makes it easier to keep taking care of myself. I’d like to drop about 10 lbs and feel good about myself – physically and mentally! So thanks for having the courage to share your journey and thoughts. I also love your unapologetic attitude about what real body positivity is. Keep doing you, Cassey!

  • Michelle says:

    I’m so with you on this next 90 Days!! I just promised myself 4 days ago that for 3 months I was not letting any outside input or analysis deter me. Sometimes we just want to share, and it isn’t necessarily comparing or complaining or critiquing. I wish it were as simple to share as video games or something. I’m dedicating myself in a more solemn, spiritual way for now because I’ve had a rough year maintaining and improving on my past progress because of negativity I receive for MY lifestyle. Kudos to you for being inspirational for those who want inspiring, and brave enough to share yourself the way you do. 💖 We love you!!!

  • Diedre says:

    Aloha Cassey,
    You’re awesome no matter what weight/size you are, but I applaud you for taking this big step. I am in a similar situation and know that I feel so much better when I am lighter and more fit. Your journey will become mine! I am ready to kickstart my fitness again after a few months of relative inactivity upon assuming a caregiving role for a family member. I was exercising 4-5x/week at the time, combining cardio, Pilates, strength, and resistance training. I felt wonderful and as if the signs of aging were in complete reversal. I am not beating myself up because I know these things happen and will do my best to forge ahead. I’m so grateful that you have shared what you’re going through and I admire your transparency and authenticity. You are human and so genuinely relatable. Thank you and I look forward to sharing this kick-ass journey with you. Mahalo!

  • Flic says:

    Hey Cassie, i’m a long time popster, 1st time commenter. I get what you’re saying about your body and we have very similar body types and passion for delicious food but you are a lot more dedicated to working out than I am, I dip I and out. I just wanted to say that even though you said this is your heaviest, I think you fabulous! And I think it’s because you said seem happy with life. I am a year older you (shock horror – such a difference!) but wanted to share some wisdom I have found;
    Positive Mental attitude – I think you may be there (or course I don’t actually know you, even if I think i do!) It seems silly but if you tell yourself something enough you believe it – so tell yourself positive things and not negO – remember no one can hear what’s in your head, so…F’ it, be positive!
    Food – oh my me, I LOVE LOVE LOVE food and eating – all food, the good the bad and the ugly! And I have found only type of “diet” that works for me is intermittent fasting/circadian rhythm eating. I don’t have to cut ANY type of food out, just amend when I eat and amount of hours during each day I am ‘feeding’ for. I’m not super strict, sometimes I fast for 10 hours (which is basically a little of the evening and while i’m sleeping) sometimes 16hours+ it just depends what’s going on. I now actually find being hungry liberating (and i’m a prime suspect for hunger grumps)! I feel so liberated by actually listening to my body and want it wants and needs. Somedays I eat like a Queen and other a poor-per – but sometimes you just don’t need 3 square meals and snacks in between. And your body will tell you what it needs. Isn’t it blooming fabulous?!
    The long and short of if it is, rather than cutting out certain foods that you’ll miss and crave, just limit the amount I’d hours a day your are in ‘feeding mode’. If you want to know. Or I recommend listening to any podcast with Dr. Satchin Panda 🐼 and using an app called Zero to teach your fasting. (I am not sponsored by either ). Q
    Any whoo,
    I’ve rambled enough and just felt a need to share 🤗😘

  • SaraK says:

    Congratulations! I think it’s refreshing how honest you are being both with yourself and us. I am inspired to join in. I’ve been vegan for years and have recently let myself enjoy more of the vegan junk food and awesome vegan burgers but I’m noticing the weight isn’t coming off. I need to kick it up! I plan to follow your journey while setting some goals myself!

  • Karri says:

    Cassie you are always so uplifting when I found you on u-tube several years ago when I lost my father and a year later my beautiful dog finding you helped me to heal and feel motivated. I have struggled losing my 20 lbs. I work out regularly but struggle with being a great cook and I do really try but taking care of a husband who helps a lot and 2 teenagers it still is difficult. I am on board too. I want to reach my goal of 130. I truly admire your honestly your truth and your journey. Thank you for helping me as usual your honesty is helping more people than you know. Your a beautiful soul.

  • Erica says:

    Your weight is the exact same as mine. But I’m 4 inches shorter. So your current measurements and body fat percentage is actually my goal to achieve by December. I had a baby in November and I’m ready to reclaim my body. So I’m in this with you! I had already taken my measurements and started my routine Monday! Can’t wait to see our journey and progress at the same time! You’ve got this! Because I do too!

  • Rachel says:

    I suffer from PTSD after Route 91 almost 2 years ago now. In that time, I’ve gained close to 30lbs and I’ve had so much trouble getting the motivation to get back on track. I needed this. To know I’m not alone in the body struggle and there is always a way to get back on track is huge. I’m joining in and taking my life back. I want to feel better mentally, physically and emotionally and I know this will help. Thank you, Cassey for being brave enough to share. Let’s do this!

  • Farrah says:

    Hi! Cassey, I am a single mom with 3 wonderful boys raising on my own.
    (Their father chose not be involved in ANYTHING when it comes tothese kids life). During my first pregnancy I gained 50lbs (from 85lbs to 135lbs) because Filipino culture parents tell you to eat more because “You’re eating for two.” Hence the weight gain. I am petite, small boned Filipina (4’10”) previously weighed 85bs and now at 140lbs. Although I lost most baby weight gained from 3 pregnancies, I was at *MY* ideal weight at 110 lbs. Until 2014 when suddenly I have been putting on lbs. I do want to get back down to 110 lbs even 115lbs. But its just hard when I have to cook for 3 boys ages 13, 11, and 9. Help me get the motivation I need. I dont feel “comfortable” in my own body; self-esteem is really low as well as my self-confidence. #challengeme

  • Jan says:

    You go, Cassie! I’m joining you’re journey! I weigh as much now as I did giving birthday to my 4th child (I have 5) and postmenopausal and have gained 30 lbs in 20 years. My job is sedentary and although I want ME time and a better me, my deadlines don’t make time for ME. I’m 58 and want to be better. I do have an elliptical and look at it daily lol. I did good on the Beach Body challenge, 3 weeks and…yeah. I’m watching and walking with you! Here’s to us all! Thank you for your brave putting it out there and being such an inspiration!

  • Neha says:

    Hey Casey I’m so glad you wrote this one. Its so relatable cuz im literaly on the same track. Aanddddd not to mention I have followed you for being real and I love that you still are a real human being and honest about everything. Needless to say I felt a surge of motivation just reading it and I’m going to fix things the same. You go Girl 💕

  • Rebecca says:

    Hey Cassey, I just want to say we’re the same height and your current weight is my goal weight! I’ve put on a bit of weight over the last few years, but I used to consistently be between 120-125 lbs, and I still don’t think I ever looked as amazing as you do! This post really opened my eyes. Every body carries weight differently, and there’s no magic number that will give you someone else’s shape. I’ve learned to be happy with the body I have but I’m also going to be joining you in these 90 days trying to improve it! Thanks for the inspiration and don’t let anyone else’s negativity get to you. It’s just that crabs in a bucket mentality and nobody has time for that!

  • Verity says:

    I love this. Being healthy and loving your bidy is so important! My either…yes, she’s biased…tells me I’m thin and that I don’t need to lose weight every time I mention it, but I was more comfortable with my body when I was 10 pounds lighter and had more definition, so that’s what I’m working toward. Body positivity is great, but if a person likes themselves more because of what they want and not what social media tells them…that’s fine! They should be supported, too.

    Hood luck in your endeavor! After seeing your goal, I shortened mine. I’m goaled at losing 10 lbs. in 90 days.

    Thank you for the encouragement!

  • Caroline says:

    You are so glowy Cassie! LOVE your attitude of not giving a f**k what people think or comment about your “not positive that’s the attitude!! So brave and admirable! Regards cutie!

  • Diana says:

    Good luck. I think you look great and you already put in a lot of work and work hard, but I understand that it’s about how you feel. I think it’s great that you know what works and doesn’t work best for you. It sounded like you could just incorporate sriracha into the whole 30 plan. I think it might also be good to try a personal trainer that knows how to get the results you want. Whatever you do, I hope it all works out and you are in a better place mentally and physically. Wishing you all the best.

  • Tori says:

    I am in! This sounds like a take back/ wake up challenge I need right now.

  • Susan says:

    I am with you ALL THE WAY! I am really looking forward to your sharing your meals with us. That can give me meal ideas.

  • Pam says:

    I love your “body positive” stance. I agree that working out can make your feel so much more confident, feel happier, etc. and that’s what is important to me also.
    I needed this for myself also so I’M IN THERE WITH YOU!! I look forward to your blog!

  • Elena Penny says:

    Cassey, I totally agree with you about the body positivity thing. I feel the same way, like if I want to lose weight I feel like i’m not being body positive and it creates a mental block, but its okay to want to lose weight and better my health. I love how honest you are with your struggles. I hope you know how much you inspire me, even if you make mistakes. That’s why we love you, cause you’re not afraid to admit you are human.

  • Jodi says:

    You got this 💜

  • Maya says:

    What were you eating when you went vegan? There are many vegan diets (as there are omnivore diets, as you mentioned) and what you did may not have suited you best… Check out Dr. Gregor’s Daily Dozen to make sure you’re getting all the right nutriments. “Unsupersize Me” is also a great film about weight loss on a whole food plant based (WFPB) diet! Of course, you could add some siracha, YOU define what you want to eat and some siracha isn’t what’s going to make or break it…

    No matter what you choose, good luck!

  • Bianca says:

    Good for you Cassie!! You continue to inspire me! I’m going to take the journey as well!

  • Divania says:

    Yes!!! I gained 15 lbs after eating ice cream literally every day for like three months. I don’t feel good in my clothes. I don’t feel happy in my body. So I’ve also started a program to tone and lean down, and I’m trying to eat treats in moderation, not in excess. Go Cassey!!

  • Count me in. Although exercise and diet are a huge thing I have been putting off to change, I really just need to reconnect to myself. My goals, desires and self-love. Thank you for always inspiring me.

  • Marinafit44 says:

    Hi Cassey. Currently one quarter of the way through the glute challenge. Is it ok to alternate between legs before reaching the full 100 on each leg? (For instance I tend to do blocks of 20-50 on each leg before switching depending on the exercise).

  • Katheryn A Thompson says:

    You just got married this last year. In Spanish, this weight gain after the marraige is called “La curva de felicidad” the happiness curve. You have a good plan, but do not let anyone shame you for the relaxation that happiness brings you, and the bit of weight that that brings you. I’ve been working hard to keep up with you for some time. You must have muscles of spring steel! You are one tough cookie. You can do this!

  • Andrea says:

    Thank you Cassey! Even when my goal is to get to be at your “before pics” level, ha… I am with you. I had a stressfull couple of months starting in April and I gained 20 pounds. So, kuddos to you for inspiring me! I will be doing mostly recipes inspired on the South Beach plan, and your workouts. I love your honesty!

  • Riemke says:

    I love this. I have to disagree with other comments saying that losing weight is not always related to health. This post has really resonated with me as I’m trying to finish my PhD and have put my health second. Consequently, I too am the heaviest I have ever been and have a bad relationship with food. While I’ve only gained about 5kgs I can no longer walk downhills or run without my knees hurting. My weight has fluctuated enough in the past to know that this is directly related.
    So Casey, you have inspired me to similarly make changes to my diet for my health and I wish you GOOD LUCK! 😊❤️

  • Madonna Du Preez says:

    I think you are great! And you deserve to take care of yourself!! It is not body negativity AT ALL!!! It’s improving on yourself! Body positivity is praising and jot judging all shapes and sizes but if a woman chooses to change something about herself because she thinks its better for her and she’s completely happy with it then GO AHEAD and all of us here who love you, support you and respect you, will be here every step of the way!! You may not know this but you have always been there for me whenever i was in doubt of my journey! I started working out at home with your videos and now i couldn’t be happier with my progress, i don’t only follow your videos i do a few different things, but it was you who started my journey! Love you❤️x!
    You can do this girl😍!!

  • Sandy says:

    I look forward to following along. I’m on a weight loss journey to feel great in my clothes. I see nothing wrong with saying you want to lose a few pounds to feel your best. Why isn’t being comfortable in your body a body positive message? I’ve been at this for 8 weeks and I’m 5’5″ down from 133 to 126. Also at 24% body fat. The 20% athlete goal is another great goal for me as I strive to build muscle. I’m 64 and have lost a lot of upper body strength so focusing on free weights and getting that back. I am loving and feeling your 100 glute challenge! Thanks.

  • Laura says:

    I am so “triggered” that the first comment I can see is about how Cassey is *not* body positive. It’s not just because she respectfully said that she doesn’t want to hear it and backed up her opinion in the post, but because it’s so unreasonable to expect anyone to be 100% worry-free, positive, and confident *all* of the time. As a busy business woman, she acknowledged that she let go of some of herself in order to accomplish other goals. It happens to all of us. She acknowledged that her skin isn’t clear anymore and she gained a few pounds, so her body isn’t working optimally as it has in the past. She set a very reasonable goal for her naturally petite body type. Let this woman be vulnerable and share a story that MANY of us know. This post didn’t read negative or full of self-hate to me. It was about a woman my age who put herself last and is ready to prioritize her life and put herself first.

    Maybe my interpretation of body positivity is “wrong”, but I still see Cassey as a body positive person, despite her desire for weight loss. If you’ve ever gained any significant amount of weight (10+ lbs a year), you know how differently your body can behave. There is nothing wrong with wanted to lose weight because you know you aren’t feeling healthy anymore. It would only be a problem if Cassey started showing signs of true self-hate, body dysmorphia, and/or disordered eating. I didn’t get that from this post. I got that she is tired of putting her self-care last, and she is going to love herself by putting herself first and caring for her body more than she has been. Let the woman have a minute to be human and vent, feel her feelings, and be the body positive queen that she is.

    Cassey, you are beautiful inside and out. Thank you for sharing that you go through the same things that most of us go through. It’s nice to know that even someone who eats/lives/breathes fitness has imperfections, too.

  • Nora P says:

    You have been, and continue, to be an inspiration to me. Your candor is so refreshing and the optimism and spirit you bring to your work is wonderful. I hope the next 90 days will be what you deserve them to be.

  • Don’t forget to de-stress or your body will work against you no matter how on point everything else is. Good luck Cassey, I’ll be following your journey :)

  • Linh says:

    You helped me with my last fitness journey almost 5 years ago before my last baby. Now I’m ready to get “me” back and am thrilled that you are too. Thanks for sharing your vulnerability because I know I couldn’t.

  • Katelyn says:

    Yes Cassie!!! Because we are professionals (I’m an RDN, NASM-CPT, and 200-hr CYT), we are scrutinized, but I’m not here to judge anyone for what they choose to embark on, and I’m doing the same thing- embarking on a personal journey. I began today, choosing lower amounts of added sugars, while also choosing lots of fruits and vegetables while following the guidelines of The Fuck It Diet (Caroline Dooner). I also aim to move 5-6x a week. Power to everyone who is attempting and successfully living healthier.

  • J Mouse says:

    Cassey- Good luck in your journey. It totally sounds like a body positive journey because it’s self motivated. You have broad experience to attack this journey in the most effective and appropriate way for yourself! You’ve motivated me to embark on my own journey❤️ Cheers!

  • Ilse says:

    Good job Casey! Be sure to keep it up and don’t consider quiting just because someone does not like your opinion. It’s your opinion, not theirs. And it’s important for you to take care of yourself.
    I am also struggling with things that are closely related to yours, except I am afraid to act. I will follow your story and hopefully I will build up enough courage to change myself for the better.

  • Jen says:

    I’ve noticed when all I do is HIIT, yoga and Pilates type workouts my body plateaus. I’m not saying don’t do those things, they are super important for mobility, but doing just those types of small muscle moves like kickbacks for example don’t do a whole heck of a lot in the long run even though you feel that burning sensation. The only thing that changes most people’s health and physical looks is weight lifting. Try adding proper lifting sessions using large muscle group exercises into your workout routine and you’ll gain muscle, look and feel better. Please don’t worry about the scale, that’s not an accurate way to access yourself. Muscles are way denser than fat anyway and require more energy(calories) to keep. Up your calories otherwise your metabolism will start to slow, I know that seems counterintuitive, and will take longer to lose fat that way, but in the long run it’s less stressful for your lifestyle:-)

  • Tanitra Scorza says:

    I love this! Good for you and may you accomplish all of your goals. 💪🏾

  • Katie says:

    I’m nearing the end of a 90 day journey! Lost about 8 pounds so far and 2% body fat (started at 137, 25.5%). Mine is through my local fitness studio and they provide meal plans every week plus fitness goals. I didn’t want to have to count calories or macros either so they’re doing the work for me! Kudos for doing this for yourself. Others will always have their own opinions. When I started my program, the first comments I got were “but you don’t need to lose any weight!” First of all, none of their business. Second of all, I’m a ballroom dancer and I didn’t like the way my body felt after I gained an extra six or so pounds after knee injuries. I wasn’t looking to lose a ton of weight, but I wanted to feel good in my body when I danced, and shedding some weight has made a big difference.

    Looking forward to following your journey!

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  • Jo says:

    I know exactly how you feel as a year after being diagnosed with coeliac disease I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been. No one believes me when I say I’m fat but my clothes tell me otherwise. It’s how I feel about my body that is most important, not how anyone else views me. I’ve also been trying a scaled day version of Keto as it’s the only way of eating that keeps me full. Good luck on your journey!

  • Jayd says:

    Hi :) I just wanted to remember you that ”vegan” is not a diet but a lifestyle; the word that you must have used for describing a plant-based diet is exactly that one: Plant-based diet. :)

  • Amanda says:

    I applaud your bravery to be open and post something like this given your following. I know it’s not easy when you’re in the spotlight and I say there’s no shame in what you are doing. Every BODY is different. Some of us are small boned or large boned. Some of us are more prone to holding on to fat and some of us aren’t. Some of us have higher metabolisms and some of us don’t. At the end of the day, we all have to take different approaches to get ourselves to where we want to be. A healthy mind and body is not “one size fits all.” Keep on doing you and don’t let the nay-sayers get to you. You go girl!

  • Charlotte Roberts says:

    Good luck and something that I need to hold myself accountable.

  • Leah says:

    Cassey, I have always had so much respect for your as a woman, fitness instructor, and business person, and that respect for you as a human being continues to grow. I cannot imagine the challenge of balancing showing your authentic self and business image online, and I am inspired by your courage in taking the plunge in being honest about where you are. I wish you the best of luck on your journey, but know that no matter what happens you will be gaining information that is going to help you grow! Hear’s to grabbing life “by the balls”! <3

  • I will be looking g forward to your updates. Thank you for all of your inspiration over the years and you always encourage me to do better in a positive way,

  • Mariah says:

    Thank you for posting this! I have always been naturally thin but I haven’t been in shape for the longest. I am 5’4 and 145 and I hate how I feel. I look good and I receive a lot of compliments from friends and family members who always thought I was too thin, but I feel like crap. I am not exercising as much, I have no energy, and my clothes don’t fit the way I want them too. When I say I want to start training myself again, I get all these unneccessary comments about how I am already skinny/ a small size. I am “done”. I am causing others to feel bad about themselves. And I am so SICK of it. So cheers to you! I will start my 90 day journey too. All the support!!!!

  • Sharon says:

    Good for you, Casey! At the end of the day, you need to do what is right for you! I’m doing this with you. We are the same height, and have the same goals! I’m not starting until Tuesday, though.

  • Apolline says:

    Good luck on your journey ! Your post is incredibly powerful, and makes sense with what, I think a lot of us, had noticed. I’m glad that you feel more free to speak your own mind and that you’ll stop censoring yourself. Never neglect your own health and own journey ! You won’t help anyone by making yourself miserable. Doing this for yourself is really important and I’m so glad for you, and honoured that you chose to share it with us. Don’t listen to negative people, you’ve helped so many others ! You basically radiate body
    As a general comment, thank you for all your videos, your energy and positivity. I discovered your videos about 4 years ago now, but always did them off and on, committing for about 3 to 5 weeks and then stopping. At the end of last year, I started gaining weight again – a lot of it. I was at my heaviest and feeling awful. (I’m about 5´6 and at that point I weighed 159lbs, even though I used to weigh 124lbs)
    I still don’t really know how or why, but this year I stuck to my workouts. I think it’s thanks to the 100abs challenge. And it wasn’ such a struggle anymore. And my relationship with food followed this as well, without me having to force myself.
    I’ve lost 17,5 lbs so far, and it’s all thanks to you. Thank you. I really can’t say it enough.
    I know you have a very strong will, and I know you will get through this challenge, probably more easily than you realise. I’m joining you. I still need the help, and I’m glad it comes from you. Love from France, and from all of us. ❤️

  • KaylaD says:

    I love this! I went through an eating disorder 6 years ago, I’m 5’3 and the less I’ve ever weighed(during my time of getting deeper into my disorder) was 107lbs I believe. I still struggle at times and I’m back to the weight, that I was at before my disorder and have been at a couple of times(my body seems to keep going back to it) because of life and consuming to much. I’m 5’3, small boned, and 132lbs. My goal is 120lbs, even though my doctor said 125 is good a while back. I’m a vegetarian(almost 10 years now) to and a fan of Intermittent Fasting. I suffer with IBS and have fat malabsorption(my body doesn’t consume fat well) so I’m supposed to really be careful with what I eat but I don’t always. I was plant based on and off for 4-5 years to and when I was my body did well with it. I’d like to get back into it but it’s hard when working in a cheese department and a bakery department that has some vegan choices. This is what I have though, haven’t measured in forever! Thank you Cassey for inspiring! :-)

    Weight: 132
    Body fat %:
    Chest: 33.5
    Right arm: 10
    Left arm: 10
    Waist: 35.5 or 36
    Hips: 40
    Right thigh: 22.5
    Left thigh : 22.5

    Measure again in 30 days

    Goals:
    Low carb
    More vegetables
    Less processed food
    Intermittent fast
    Weigh weekly
    Do more cardio
    Sleep 7-8 hours a night
    Read more

  • Diana says:

    This is awesome! We all struggle and may want to make changes and these are all positive changes. Life happens and our weight or whatever it may be can fluctuate and so it’s up to ourselves to make changes to be back where we want to be. I don’t think that because you want to lose weight or that you gained weight makes you not body positive. It’s just dealing with everyday life and trying to make the most of it :) you are super inspirational!

  • Jaquelin says:

    IT breaks my heart to see all these hate comments. So many people telling you what to do, or how to do it. You are honestly one of my biggest role models. You are kind, caring, strong, independent, beautiful, loving, and I’m just gonna day it, one sick badass. This is coming from an almost eighteen year old girl who wants to she’d hurry five kinds of fit and turn it into muscle. You are the most motivating fitness expert I know, and you always encourage me to keep going. I can’t believe that despite all of your positivity and accomplishments, people are still telling you that you’re wrong. Please never stop doing what you’re doing. People like me NEED you, Cassey. We love you. And remember–you are stronger than your doubts!

  • J says:

    This is inspiring me to start my journey as well. I’ve been reading some of your “you’re not body positive blah blah” comments and I’m just -rolls eyes-. You’ll never not receive hate, Casey. So you do you. People love to criticize. But at the end of the day, you’ve helped so many people, including me. So thank you, and keep up the amazing work!

  • Amanda says:

    Yessssss girl. Do whatever it is that makes your body feel it’s best. No one else gets to tell you what that is. Only you and your doctor maybe will know a happy weight and diet for your body. I wish you lots of happiness ❤️

  • Angie says:

    Yay!!! Do what you need to do! I myself started counting maceos/ calories in December and it helps SO much! It’s tiring but I love seeing what I’m eating. You just need to do what works for you! You got this!

  • Karri says:

    Love that you don’t care whether your statements are ‘body positive’!! I really dislike ‘politically correct’ words! I will admit, I had gastric bypass surgery last year. I lost 100 pounds, but need to lose at least 60 more to be at my old weight, and then probably another 20 to be really happy, fit, and in shape. I’ll need skin surgery. But that is at least 2 years down the road, I have to get the weight off and maintain it for a while before they will do that. But, saying that to say it took me all that to get to the point where I’m back to actually working out and eating right to keep off what I’ve lost, and lose more. Yes, I was eating mostly right before, but not what my body needed. I’m like you with some of the diets you’ve tried and I’ve found that eating close to Paleo is best for me. I need veggies. But, because of the surgery, have to eat high protein. I can’t have much carbs, because that is a roller coaster that I don’t want to go down. My only ‘food’ I refuse to give up is coffee with non-dairy creamer (a no in Paleo) with a little sugar. But, everything in moderation, right? I wish you my best!! Oh, and a P.S. I’m finally getting my girls (a 13 and 11 yr old) into working out, and they are starting with your videos!! We’ll be doing cardio on my treadmill or walking to the local library and back. I’ll be starting on your 100 Ab Challenge, because I desperatly need core strength (plus some Bosu Ball work). Just have to say I think you look amazing, don’t listen to the haters!!

  • Alexandra says:

    I’m proud of you Cassey! Take some time for yourself. You love to help others, and get so focused on your career goals that you forget to love yourself too. I hope you and Sam take your honeymoon soon, you truly deserve to take a break and relax. Love you lots, good luck on your 90 day journey! I know if anyone that can do it it’s you. <3

  • Rachael says:

    Girl you’ve got this! I personally want to say that I think you look amazing! But I understand why you want to do this. I have had issues accepting my weight but I am 33 and had to remember by “pre”baby weight was when I was 22! My body was still changing into a “woman’s” figure so my 125 lbs. at 5’7” was not a normal weight for me!
    I’m cheering you on and hope you feel good in your skin! Thanks for all you do!

  • Mallorie says:

    I am going to say this now and I will continue to say it in the future, no matter if you want to hear it or not. . . you cannot be promoting intentional weightless and be body positive. Body positivity is not just loving your body but even if it were, trying to change your body by forcing it to lose weight to conform to the ideal you have for yourself is not very loving. This is nothing personal and it is not a negative comment about you, Cassie, or anyone else. Wanting to lose weight doesn’t make you a bad person. If you want to lose weight, okay (I will refrain from talking about it being a fruitless endeavor). No one is saying you cannot talk about it or do it. But losing weight is NOT the same thing as “getting healthier, increasing your confidence, feeling happier, and getting stronger” and it is NOT body positive. So please, STOP CALLING YOURSELF BODY POSITIVE. You aren’t. Period.

    • Caitlyn says:

      Thank you so much for writing this Cassey! It’s so nice to see a public figure stepping out and saying what you’re saying. Just because you have fitness goals and want to improve doesn’t mean you don’t love your body. I’m always challenging my body to reach new goals and I love it even more for carrying me through that journey. You are the most body positive person I know! Don’t let anyone tell you you aren’t. They don’t know your struggles and accomplishments. People think accepting everything the way it is is true positivity and that’s just not right. A goal weight is personal and thought out (not just a random number you picked to compare yourself) it’s for YOU, and people should understand that you as a PROFESSIONAL in the field know what is healthy for you. You’re beautiful and amazing! Love you so much!! And I can’t wait to go this this journey with you cuz all us popsters have goals we’re working on. How is wanting healthy progress not positive? Right?! :)

    • Jenny says:

      Being body positive is about doing the things which best help your body function and make you feel positive about your body. So I actually believe that she is. Body positivity is not just about accepting your body because you want to be positive, that mindset is impossible, loving your body comes from valuing it and seeing its value in return and also about knowing yourself.

    • A says:

      I agree with this. One cannot promote intentional weight loss and be body positive. I hope she realizes this one day. Pursuing weight loss will only backfire. Why else would people have to keep going from one diet to the next? If diets worked, we wouldn’t have to keep doing them.

    • Jillian says:

      Sounds pretty personal towards Cassey to me. And you spelled her name wrong. Why not be positive and encouraging to other people’s personal journeys to a healthier self.

  • jdepaul says:

    Casey, I could never tell you how much your blogs and videos help and inspire me. It is so much more important to enjoy life, including the joys of exercise and eating good food, than it is to be a size 2. You are lucky to have a fab career, Sam, and your sister. You always look better than great, and your honest. For someone like myself, who has been working out for so many years, struggling with my own eating and body image disorders, you are a lighthouse to safe shores. Thank you, and “keep on doing what you do.”

  • Lauren says:

    You’re awesome Cassey! And-just wanted you to know that I think you look fabulous just the way you are, but I totally get wanting to be your best physically. I’m right there with you. Like literally. Your height, weight and measurements are pretty much identical to mine. I’ve been 122lbs most of my adult like, but am 133 right now while I still look and feel good, I’d like to be my best! I wish you luck on your journey and will try to come along with you!

  • Kristen says:

    Cassey you still look beautiful now but I support this journey!! Have you ever read the book “Intuitive Eating?” I would love to hear your thoughts on it- my nutritionist friend says it’s a staple and I find it useful for mind and body! You’re inspiring me to make more specific goals for myself. You’re amazing and I hope you aren’t being too hard on yourself!! ♥️ #perfectionistlife

  • Hannah says:

    Honestly, reading this makes me feel humbled; that even fitness influencers go through weight gain, and it makes me feel less like I want to shame myself for being at my heaviest too. I think you’re totally right in that wanting to change yourself does *not* mean that you are body negative. I’ve always thought that mentality is extremist. You got this Cassie!

  • Jade says:

    I gave it some thought and were all going to do this together let’s all cheer you on and I will join in on everything to! I want to loose some pounds so what a perfect opportunity for thousands of us to cheer each other on let’s go girls !

  • Rache says:

    Out of everything you said I really liked that your choosing not to walk on eggshells for people who look for any reason to criticize you. You are where you are because you worked hard for it and because the people who follow you like your personality and what you have to say. We don’t want to hear what the unrealistic, overly sensitive, highly judgemental people who nitpick have to say. That’s why they’re not famous and you are. Keep doing what you’re doing and don’t let your critiques take you and your authenticity away from us. I learned this a while ago when I tried to please people who just didn’t want to be pleased or who wanted me to teach like some other instructor. I forgot about the people who came to my class specifically because they liked my way of teaching. Once I realized this I went back to myself which made work enjoyable again. Thanks for being you!

  • Elizabeth says:

    Cassie, it’s so great to hear you doing what you feel you need to do. It’s people like you that I look up to and enjoy following. I live that you look life straight in the eyes and take care of what you need to take care of. Your videos help me a lot and I appreciate all you do and I completely support you in all aspects.

  • Avy says:

    I am so proud of you, Cass. Things like this is the reason I love you & look up to you. You keep it real, and your on this journey WITH us. Always do things that make you the happiest you can be and your real supporters will be there for you every step of the way cheering you on like you’ve done for us for YEARS! Good luck!

  • Yasmin says:

    Hi Cassie! I totally understand you, I’m also on a almost keto diet right now (only difference, I’m vegetarian), I started last week.. not really to lose weight, but to help regulate my hormones.. working out has also helped me a lot. I’m already noticing positive changes and I feel better in general! You have all the rights to do this for yourself! I hope you’ll reach your goals, but I’m sure you will! There’s nothing more satisfying than seeing results :)) let’s do our best 💕

  • Ellena says:

    Hi, Casey! I’m ur subs from Indonesia. First of all, I am so glad that i found ur channel. Thankyou for helping me thru my healthy lifestyle. I was at my lowest point at Jan-Feb this year. I was going to gym 6/7 a week. At first, I was saying that i’m going to start a healthy life. But, when I stopped its like my world was falling upside down. Its affect to my mental health, because when I saw a mirror my mind said “if you not working out, u will gained a lot of weight”. Tbh, I was scared of everything. Can you imagine someone afraid of rice? Yep, that’s me. But, my friends remind me and thankyou to them I was recover. Thankyou for making 30 days challenge because it was challenging myself to do better everyday. And today I was happy, but still worried about many things but at least I am trying. Thankyou for sharing this, thankyou for speaking up about this, thankyou for your videos. And PIIT is harder that I think wow! Once again, Thankyou for inspiring lot of people:)

  • Jacqueline LeBlanc says:

    You go girl!!

  • You go girl! I have noticed when you talk you seem to tip toe on conversations that might be triggering. But being open and honest about your opinions does not make us hate you. You’re a good person and you’re doint what’s best for you and that is perfectly acceptable, Whether we tell you that or not. Good luck and I can’t wait to see how happy this makes you!

  • Erynn says:

    I know you can do it! I have been using many of your videos for years now! They are so great and give amazing results! After two kids and a crazy hectic schedule, I have started working hard toward self care and being healthy again! Thank you for the info and inspiration, Cassey!

  • Meredith says:

    I’ve heard amazing things about Nancy Anderson’s Treadthrill workouts if you’re looking to amp up your treadmill workouts!!

  • Lisa says:

    Cassey, I’ve been watching your videos since 2013/14 and I can’t wait to read your daily journals and IG Story! I really dislike when people criticize others for working out and then also flip the coin and then criticize for gaining weight. For me, due to health problems I lost a lot of weight. I’m 5’ tall and right now at 103lbs. But at one time I weighted 85lbs I had people tell me “oh I wish I could lose that much weight! Your so lucky!” And I was like :-) heck… NO I’m not healthy… and then some would tell me “you look anorexic, eat more!” All these mixed messages made me feel down when what I really needed was support. We all support you for whatever fitness journey you decide to venture on! You’re not alone and thanks for sharing your experiences <3

  • Gris says:

    You can do it!

  • Bekkah says:

    You go lady! You can do it! Just keep a positive mindset and remember that sustained wellbeing should be the ultimate goal. 😊👍

  • Sarah says:

    I was never a big fun of HIIT workouts but I seriously cannot recommend Sydney Cummings on YouTube enough. Her workouts are so much fun and she really works hard as well. I honestly believe you 2 would hit it off as you guys share the same core values which I absolutely respect.

  • Bonnie says:

    We are the same height. I’m 57 and weigh 140. My ideal weight is 136. That’s where I look and feel the best. I run 2 miles/day and do 10 minutes of Pilates or weights after the run. It’s all about adding discipline to my daily life. Being disciplined makes me a happier person. You go girl! I get it!

  • GRA says:

    this is disappointing. you shouldn’t be promoting weight loss to your followers—you should be promoting movement for movement’s sake.

    • A says:

      Exactly. Intentional weight loss is not sustainable long term and actually makes people gain more weight than before. That’s why she’s heavier than in the past. (Not that there’s anything wrong with weight gain.) Exercising and eating well for joy and health is not the same as exercising and eating for weight loss. I wish she could see this.

  • Laura E Ennis says:

    This is clearly a well thought out plan. And taking care of your body, eating in a way that makes you happy and healthy is completely body positive! I am also finally feeling ready-ish :) to lose weight again. I am also looking at low carb/high fat/moderate protein. I would love to see what you eat!! You can do it!!

  • Bayim says:

    I 100% support you. You wanting to improve yourself and reach a point in which you will feel accomplished is your right. There is always a room for one’s improvement. I hope you will succeed in your journey and feel empowered. I hope it for anyone who is in journey.

  • Rose says:

    Hey Cassey! I hope you smash your goals! I think it’s really hard to commit to a future goal when your lifestyle is generally healthful and active, so I admire your extra determination. I think the community will all support you like you always support us.

    Lots of luck and love in your journey.

  • Jenna says:

    Hi! I, too, struggled with what diet or food would be best for my body. Have you looked into companies or services (like habit.com) that run tests on how your body processes nutrients and the exact nutritional breakdown your body needs? They also do meal plans for you based on your results. This has been life changing, because I don’t have to try and fit myself into any diet, I know what is good for me. Just a recommendation. Good luck!! ♡

  • Marty says:

    Go cassey you can do it!😘😘❤️❤️

  • Laura says:

    I’m joining you Cassey! I am taking a slightly different approach with intermittent fasting and clean eating, yet I’ll be working out with you and follow your daily updates on the blog. We’ve got this 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼

  • Emelie says:

    I also have a vacation on the nov. 1 that I am trying g to feel good about. Thanks for the motivation and inspiration to do what I want to do as well!

  • Hannah says:

    I literally have spent all morning searching for how to get started working out and I’ve been on a “diet” (basically I already eat clean, I’m just controlling my portions now). I’m so excited to follow your journey and I think it will really help me figure mine out as well!

  • Adriana says:

    First of all, you are beautiful both inside and out…no matter what the scale says. I have recently started doing your workouts and I love them. You are an inspiration. I have struggled with my weight all of my life. I remeber being 5 years old and constantly hating on my body and even refusing to eat…which is scary to think about now. In the past two years, I have finally started to accept and love myself, but I want to strive to be a healthier version of me. Your personal journey is something that many people can relate to. So dont let negative people or comments get in the way ofnyour health and happiness. I cant wait to see how your journey goes..now go kick butt and stay beautiful and positive.

  • Heidi Roberts says:

    Girrrrlll you have Such a great idea going on, I’m happy you found something FOR YOU!
    However, at the beginning, about your weight-gainage and stuff; Your body could be going through new changes. I think, ever since you got Sir George, then you and Sam got married, your body has been shifting into “kid prep mode”! You’re “Wifey/Mommy Status” woman! I understand though, you wanna keep up and stay healthy :)
    But yeah, I really wanted to blurt that out when I read over that part, haha. You’re so awesome Cassey, you’re doing good things and I’m glad you take care of yourself. You’re not our entertainment pack mule! Lol. We love you and it makes us all sleep good at night knowing Cassey’s doin okay.

  • Christine Thompson says:

    When running gets boring ( and it does lol ) I would switch up where I go. Go to a park or on a light trail, new scenery helped me a lot. Running all the time on the same stretch made the whole thing feel like a chore. Once you learn every crack in the pavement and every new fallen leaf all that’s left to think about is how much farther you have left to run, all that’s left is the work. I could only focus on breathing and rhythm for so long before I was back to “yup, there’s that stick” or “Ive got about 5 seconds before the dog in the yard starts barking at me”

  • Jess says:

    I’m in the same boat right now! Trying to be the best version of me before vacation on november 2. I am also doing low carb/keto. I need to pick up running again as there is a trail right next to my house. You’re my motivation and I can’t wait to hear how things are going!

  • Camille says:

    Hey Cassey,
    I am joining you too. Not to loose weight as I am pregnant, but to avoid gaining too much this time around
    My first pregnancy i gained 50 lbs. So I am here with you to gained a healthy amount of weight!
    Camille

  • Prudence says:

    I couldn’t agree with you more. Wanting to lose weight or exercise more or eat better isn’t “body negative,” it doesn’t set up a harmful precedent for how people view their bodies, or how you view yours. Body positivity isn’t just viewing your body with love, it’s treating your body with love too. I think the conversation you open on this topic is very important, and I think that many people need to really get clear on what body positivity actually is. I’ll be joining you Cassey!!

  • Susanne says:

    You are such a role model Cassey and one of the most positive people I know. You can do this and don‘t let the petty souls get you down. Honestly, when I think about body positivity I always end up thinking about you. :)

  • Katie Shin says:

    You can do it!! I was lying on the floor watching a movie recently and rubbing my belly cuz I was feeling sick. Lifted my shirt to get some skinship and realized how much fat was there. I haven’t been paying attention lately. Last I checked I had lost a pound but that was a while ago and then i got distracted by life. So of course I got distracted from feeling sick by watching the movie and playing with my fat. Yeah, I’d grab handfuls and start jiggling it. 🤣 I wasn’t feeling negative or anything. Just playing with my fat and marveling at it. But it did bring the issue to the forefront of my mind that I need to pay more attention. I always want to lose weight but then I lose focus and end up gaining from stress eating etc. I’m not happy about it, but it doesn’t bum me out or anything. Gotta lose that fat! Like food, there’s healthy fat and then there’s just fat. I’m in the latter category. 😜

    You can do it! We can do it!

  • Leah Marie says:

    Hi Cassey! Thx 4 posting. I’ve been watching your YouTube videos for a couple years now. I really enjoy you! I recently joined IG and started following you. I’m glad you shared what you are going through. I was actually thinking about you a few weeks ago wondering if there is too much stress on you. I know of a woman who is a fitness instructor but was advised to take a break from working out because her adrenals were too stressed. I don’t know her whole story but I just wanted to say that I hope you get some good rest for yourself even if that means taking time off from working out or even social media and just focusing on the healthy eating and relaxing. Maybe your adrenals are fine. Anyway, I’m excited for you and hope you relax mentally, emotionally and physically! You are so awesome and I am no expert or trying to tell you what you need so I pray these next 3 months are really good for you!!!

  • Marissa says:

    Me too Cassey – I’m joining you! The timing of this post is perfect because I just started a very similar journey this week! You saying all this really resonates with me – I feel the same about this past year. I have also gained almost 15 pounds since last summer! Im not insecure about how I look with the new weight, but I feel weaker and more lethargic, and I’m getting older! Lol so I worry about heart health, blood pressure, and bone density. I’m a POP instructor and I teach 5-6x a week, and I work full time. I have difficuly making time for my own workouts and my own thoughts! So I also have started daily journaling. Time goes by so fast and unless I think about what I do or feel in a day, everything starts to feel repetitive and I lose sight of my goals. I wanted to commit to making time for myself to get physically and mentally healthier. 👍 Let’s do it! I look forward to your daily writing inspo because so far that has been the hardest for me! 💕

    IG: marissa_onthemat

  • Arielle says:

    I’ve gained weight after starting my fitness journey and I know it’s not all muscle too so I wanna bump up my cardio and eat a little better too. I’m very grateful to have discovered you cuz you brighten my life 6X a week working out with you. I hope you find a love for yourself again. I’m working on my self love too. You’re beautiful inside and out no matter what. Naysayers can F off. Do you as long as you’re safe and happy.

  • Abigail says:

    I’m so glad you are sharing this. It crazy because I’m going through the exact thing right now with my body and this has really given me that boost to do something about it! Thank you!

  • Allison says:

    The 131 Method by Chalene Johnson teaches you how to phase your diet so you don’t run into problems like plateaus. The first phase is keto-ish. Sounds like youwill be doing something similar. Good luck in your journey!

  • sandie says:

    I started following you on facebook years ago. Not because I was looking to lose weight or eat healthier but because I found everything you said and did Inspirational. The way you used yourself as an example to help other people change is noteworthy. I watched you grow from just a blogger to someone who started a business to help others. What is wrong with this world are those people who have to cast doubt on anything that is good. Probably because they are jealous and unhappy in their own existences. What you are doing is great. Don’t let anybody ever make you feel it’s not. I envy the fact that you can expose yourself good and bad to help other people. You are amazing!

  • Lacey says:

    Trim Healthy Mama sounds exactly like how you need/want to eat. It also is extremely uplifting and encouraging. I’d love to know your thoughts on it.

  • Daniela says:

    I think this is by far the most body positive thing I’ve read today. Not only you’ll be working for the life and body you want, but also, you’ll do it with so much respect it’s beautiful! Go get it girl! And we’ll be here every step of the way!

  • Vivian says:

    My prayers are with you.
    Glad You are doing it for 🌟You 🌟

  • J. Thao says:

    Thank you for this post! I, just like you am at my heaviest I’ve ever been. But it is time to take my health back. There is no shame in wanting to be fit or wanting to lose weight! So thank you again for the reminder:) You’re amazing and you will continue to do amazing things:) Keep at it girl!

  • Hollie Hitchcock says:

    What you say about others is 100% what you are ACTUALLY saying about yourself. That’s the TRUTH. That’s the Universal law. Naysayers just try to use others, as a platform to boost their own egos or rationalize their insecurities. For the majority of us, Caaey, you are an inspiration, no matter how much you weigh. Instead of magnifying the negative, we ALL need to recognize and amplify the positive. Ofcourse, I also want to lose 10lbs🤣🤣🤣

  • Haley says:

    I am so happy for you, Cassey! You’ve come up with a plan, and now you’re taking it into action! Good luck and know that I support and love you, even if I am a stranger whom you’ll probably never meet 😂

  • Leslie says:

    This is awesome. I am 5’5” and just hit 136 pounds. That is nearly what I weighed when I gave birth to my first son. I know that’s a healthy weight for some, but for a woman who spent most of her life hovering the 112-116 pound mark without much effort, it left me sobbing. Literally crying through my workout. Because I haven’t been lazy. I’m not a super clean eater but not the worst. I’m not a gym rat, but I’m never sedentary. How did this happen?! It’s a mixture of not paying enough attention to my health, running a business, and eating chips for lunch on the way to shuttle my kids around.
    As for the body positive… I have been watching you for something like 7 years. You’re never one to tear down a person. That’s positive. Positive is loving yourself enough to desire better things for yourself. No one whines at you for not being employment positive if you work extra hard for the next level. No one tells you you’re not parenting positive if you say you want to spend more time with your kids (or fur babies). It’s ridiculous. Loving yourself is knowing that you’re worthy of being your best self and accepting the stops along the journey.
    This turned out way longer than I expected. Ha. Go get ‘em girl. Maybe I’ll check in with you on November 15 and have hit that goal with you.

  • Lis says:

    Yo go Cassey!!! Your food choices are wonderful and in three months you should be able to reach your goal.
    P.S. Don’t forget fasting heals the body, and as a result of healing you also loose body fat which is a plus.😉😘

  • Tiffany says:

    You could also try incorporating intermittent fasting! I’m down 34 lbs since I started fasting, it really works! Also, if I looked like you do after gaining 14 lbs, I’d be ecstatic! Your lean and curvy which is basically everyone’s dream body! That said, I still hope you get to where you want to be! 💜

  • Mariss says:

    This is all so familiar to me. It started in my late 30s. It’s the hormonal changes in our bodies as we age. Harder to lose weight. Hormones like insulin and cortisol are the main culprit to address, and you’re on the right path by doing keto/almost keto. I’ve read that running raises cortisol though as it adds stress to our bodies especially if you don’t enjoy it. I would suggest for cardio to stick to activities you enjoy like dancing. I also love Barre Cardio. I am excited about your journey and will keep following especially since you are even more relatable now. Oh, and btw, for asian foods, iheartumami is a good one to follow on IG for paleo/keto delicious recipes.

  • Kara says:

    Our body is constantly changing, our thoughts are what need to brought up to speed on the journey. Good for you setting goals, you’re inspiring me! Be ready to meet the new you, who will look nothing like the old you but is still 100% you!!! Include time in your day for retraining your thoughts to find real results! Wisdom from a 50+ y/o former “run til you puke” workout type who now seeing the joy in balanced workouts (including walking!) and saying yes to food!!! You’ve been inspiring me for years, don’t see that changing anytime soon no matter your weight according to a scale!!

  • Monika Ziobro says:

    Im with you! Lets be happier, healthier in 90 days! Lets do this.

  • Alisa says:

    Hey Casey, you go girl! Wondering, are you thinking about completely cutting alcohol for 90 days?

  • Carrie Medeiros says:

    Thank you so much for incouraging other people to work out and always being positive love you

  • Love this! If you want to try my website I have super fun really intense cardio workouts you can do at home, and I’ll let you use it for free, just let me know and lll set you up a free account ♥️

  • Rita says:

    You have totally inspired me with this blog post. I will be following along with your journey and having one of my own!! Thank you for being so open with your followers!!

  • Ariannah says:

    You got it Cassey! You are not alone in seeing an increase in weight and needing a change. In a course of about 6 months I gained back about 10lbs. This is not going to work for me. I have been over indulging in food, the past two months I haven’t been working out. I have been too stressed and let that get in the way. But, that only made me feel worse. I hate whenever I can’t see muscle tone because seeing the lines of the muscles I have worked so hard for is so rewarding. Last night before bed I even wrote down my goal, my action steps, and my why to see the change.

    Mine won’t be a 90 day, it will be more of continuing to change my habits because I still struggle the keep healthy living and working out as a habit, but you will have someone working alongside you.

    You got this!

  • Maureen E Saxe says:

    I think you look great, but how YOU feel about YOU is all that matters!! Godspeed!

  • Devinne says:

    I know exactly where you’re coming from. After quitting my job to go freelance 2 years ago, I gained about 20 lbs. I fought back hard at first (dieting, working out, fasting, diet pills), but I would always end up bingeing and gaining even more weight. Eventually I learned about Intuitive Eating, and that’s kept me stable (and I’ve lost weight). I’m not knocking you for wanting to lose weight. I get it completely. But look into IE. I really think it would resonate with you.

  • Sabrina says:

    I started on the 16th to before I even saw this and I’m glad that I’ll have someone along for the ride with me. I am at my heaviest weight that i’ve ever been and I want to change that because I know I can be healthier and my body can feel better so I’m moving forward with as much positivity as possible. Good luck! Just know you are not alone

  • obc says:

    Heyo! Just wondering…..So I wanna lose my belly fat, and I am 13. My mum cooks and all and I wanna be better, I really do! But my mum has bread and cheese and brownies even though she told me it’s getting overboard. I’m underweight but I wanna build my weight in muscle and not just belly fat…which one of your workouts should I do? Eating I’ll probs take the goals to give up gukten because it makes my skin real wierd…Just wonder which workout of your is best for someone on the younger side. Thanks!

  • Roger says:

    Thanks you Cassey for your post.
    You should check in you didn’t do it yet , the study which had been done by USNEWS and a pool of nutritionists. They ranked all the possible diets on three criteria (healthiness, weight loss, bearable)
    https://health.usnews.com/best-diet/best-diets-overall

    If it’s can help you choose one who fit you.

    Good luck in your journey.

  • Ro says:

    Dear Cassey,
    You have been a role model for both of my daughters as you have shown them that it isn’t necessary to be skinny, or overly muscular to be beautiful. Your videos, focusing, as they do, on the joy of exercise and loving the body, have helped them to feel confident and love exercise. Your clothing range promotions have used women of all shapes and sizes conveying the message again that fitness and beauty is not about skinny or being all muscle. In particular, your own personal story about struggling with body image and diet (in conjunction with your positive body messages) helped my once anorexic daughter to overcome her own eating disorder. Now I fear the consequences of this new challenge on both my daughters and other young women. They are bombarded by negative body messages from magazines, newspapers, the internet and those around them: your website was a place they experienced only positive messages. When they read what you have written about being unhappy with your glorious strong, healthy, beautiful self, I know this will have nothing but a negative impact on their own self-worth. They will compare themselves to you and … well, we know where that will lead. A consequence of the positive effect you had on my younger daughter was that we recommended your blog to the service that helped her overcome her illness. Obviously, we will now have to let them know that the site is no longer safe for young women with eating disorders.
    I am so sorry that you feel unhappy with how you look and that this has caused you to commence this programme. Your videos and messages have always been so confident, happy and positive. You clearly are a very lovely person. I can’t express how saddened I am by how you feel at the moment. Nor, can I fully express how deeply worried I am by the potential impact your actions will have on my daughters and other young women.
    Sincere regards,
    Ro

    • A says:

      Completely agreed. With great power comes great responsibility. Diet culture is real and doesn’t go away. I just hope she can see the light one day. Dieting doesn’t work in the long term and actually causes more weight gain.

    • Kall says:

      This is such an ignorant and entitled comment (masked with sweet language… “You clearly are a lovely person” – gag). If your daughters are so fragile that they can’t handle another woman wanting to get leaner, then I think that says more about them, and your parenting, than it does about anybody else. Strong women can support other strong women without making it *all about themselves*. Strong women lift one another up, even if they have different goals, different values, different strengths and different challenges.

      You need to check yourself.

      Sincere regards,

      Kall

      • Isabella says:

        Hi Kall,
        I find your comment very rude. Eating disorders are an aspect of mental illness which should not be blamed on parenting. Ro is completely entitled to her opinion and it was framed in a polite, unaggressive manner, unlike your comment, which is quite frankly insulting.
        Sincere regards,
        Isabella

      • Isabella says:

        Dear Al,
        I find your comment rude and insensitive. Ro is entitled to voice her disagreement, and she did so in a polite manner. It is shocking that you can blame a girl (or the girl’s parents) for her eating disorder, when is now widely known that anorexia a serious mental health condition. Here is the link to the NHS website page on anorexia: https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/anorexia/. I strongly suggest that you read it.
        Sincere regards,
        Isabella

    • Q says:

      Yeah please don’t come to this site anymore since we will have one less negative person telling Cassey that she is being oh-so-harmful by taking care of herself. Your so-called body positive stance is just cultivating an unhealthy defeatist attitude by telling people that everything is impossible.

      • Isabella says:

        You have no right to tell someone whether or not they can access a public website, or vocalise polite disagreement. I suggest you re-read the comment, because at no point has she said that ‘everything is impossible’.

    • Wendy says:

      Agreeing with you RO. Concerns for young women coming to love their bodies. My daughter is just disapointed in her and hopefully won’t let it affect her. Gave us great conversation about her eating disorder (which never goes fully away). For sure let an eating disorder treatment center know that they should hold off on her videos for now. Scales and measurements are a no-no for sensitive people. Cassey is so lovely and funny and creative and has a flat-butt like me…she’s only human, like us.

  • Jess says:

    I really appreciate your transparency Cassey. I’ve been following your calendar and story when I started to work on becoming healthier 4 1/2 years ago. I lost over 70 pounds and have gained back 4 pounds of it this summer and am very aware of it and don’t want to allow it to be a downhill slide. I am sure you feel the same in that it may seem silly to others but it’s stressful for me. I look forward to cheering you on and following your journey. Thank you for always being you <3

  • Uyen V. says:

    I’m so happy for you that you want to start this journey, this life journey! You deserve as much support as well because you have always supported us on our journey! Heck you inspired me to take on my health journey about a few years ago. I’m just happy for you!

  • Isabella says:

    Hi Cassey,
    I would just like to say, you are incredible and beautiful and your Youtube videos and your body positivity have helped so many young women to feel proud of their bodies. In previous videos, you have said that we should try to love our bodies, and that our goals should be to feel stronger, more energised and more confident. We should not be exercising because we feel ashamed of our figures. As you have said, women naturally come in all shapes and sizes. We can have incredibly strong core muscles and not have defined abs. We can have powerful legs and be able to run for miles without having thigh gaps. We can be physically fit, and yet still be curvy.
    In the past, I have looked to you for inspiration. In this day and age, women are bombarded with images from Hollywood and magazines and Youtube which dictate that, in order to be beautiful, a woman must be as thin as possible or pure muscle. Either way, the less body fat the better. For the vast majority of the population, this body image is simply not attainable. Many young women end up feeling ashamed of their bodies, which can never seem to meet Western beauty standards, and, as a consequence, some end up developing eating disorders. Blogilates has provided an alternative to this toxic mindset. Thousands of women see you: we see someone who looks healthy and feminine and super strong, someone who eats a balanced diet and who trains hard and who has a woman’s figure that we can identify with. I understand that you want to train harder and get fitter, most of us do, but I really feel that positing pictures of your body and encouraging the millions of women who look up to you to see your figure in a negative light can have a really detrimental impact on the way we see ourselves. So many women, myself included, see you as a role model. You motivate women to keep working out because you show them that they can look and feel beautiful without calorie counting, or looking at the scales after every workout. You motivate us to work out every day because we enjoy it, because we go into it feeling proud of our bodies instead of hating ourselves, and because we have you to look up to.
    I am concerned that the self-critical nature of this post and your specific focus on losing body fat could have a particularly negative impact on teenage girls. I’m nineteen years old, and I know first hand that, no matter how much you work out, becoming a woman means that developing wider hips, larger thighs, a larger bust and often more lower belly fat. As women in the 21st century, it is all too easy to be disgusted by your own developing body, particularly as we all genetically become different shapes. I am very worried that your public focus on body measurements and weight loss could have very negative consequences for girls who look to you as their role model, particularly in an age where we are increasingly vulnerable to developing eating disorders, such as anorexia.
    If you have read all of this, I would like to say a big thank you. I’m not saying that you can’t have your own fitness goals, but I am asking you to remember how many women are looking to you, not only to motivate them to work out, but also to help them to feel comfortable in their own bodies. Thank you for being such an inspiration and I hope you’ve taken this email into consideration.
    Lots of love,
    Isabella

    • A says:

      Such a well written comment. Agreed with everything here. You took the words out of my mouth. I feel like Cassey wasn’t being completely truthful when she told us to love our bodies and that we should work out to get stronger and more confident. It’s like she’s eating her own words and I don’t know if I can still trust what she says because she doesn’t practice what she preaches. Even though she warned us to read this with caution, millions of young girls (and boys) and even adults can be triggered. With great power comes great responsibility. It’s posts like these that can contribute to people developing eating disorders and disordered eating, even with good intentions. I hope one day she can completely get herself out of diet culture.

  • Kristin says:

    First of all, I think you look perfect at this weight, but I also understand needing to feel “comfortable” in your weight. I know the numbers that make me happy, so I get it.

    Secondly, keto (even modified) rocks! I’ve been on board for over a year & a half & love it… cause you can EAT! I lost 11lbs in my first 3 months & now I just maintain but eating healthy, keto-friendly foods without tracking any calories or macros :)

    Third, IGNORE the negative comments, don’t think about them & simply share what you want… there shouldn’t be any judgements – this is YOUR journey!

    Check out my blog (tripsandtastes.com) for some Keto tips & watch my IG @tripsandtastes for lots of ketolicious food pics!

    You’ve got this!!!

    P.S. I also run… and I mostly hate it 🤣

  • Emma says:

    I’m proud of you for taking control of your body again. Working out makes us healthier, but it doesn’t necessarily mean we’re staying the same weight. If 136lbs and 24% body fat makes you unhappy, then of course you should work on yourself. There’s nothing wrong with that! Body positivity means loving your body all the time and not judging others. If you want to improve, that’s great! It doesn’t mean your body now is bad, what it means is you want to be healthier and happier.

    I’ll be waiting for your monthly updates and watching your posts on IG. Good luck!

  • H. Banana says:

    Yes girl! Get the life, claim the dream! We support YOU, no matter what the goals or outcomes might be, UNCONDITIONALLY. We want to see you succeed in your VISION and achieve your HAPPINESS, and we don’t care what that looks like on paper or in photos! This is some real genuine Pop Army love and it’s the kind we’ve got to be more vocal about here, in our daily lives, and within ourselves, until all the negative voices just leave the building! I see a woman claiming and proclaiming and I LOVE and SUPPORT it! 🙌🏼👏🏼🙌🏼

    • H. Banana says:

      I guess I should clarify that when I say “we don’t care what it looks like on paper” I mean the good kind of not caring, as in, we’d support 120, purple, or becoming a unicorn equally. Rah, rah, rah!

  • Cara says:

    Woot! Get it girl! Thanks for a little extra motivation. I’m in a similar boat, looking to lose my last 15. I believe in all of us as a community, we can do anything we set our minds on! Lots of love 💛

  • I’m so excited for you! How empowering to take charge and feel at home in your own body. It’s your body! You should do whatever the hell you want to with it. You’ve got this babe!

  • emmadilemma says:

    And I agree with what GEN said! You don’t have to apologize for going on a diet and you don’t have to apologize for gaining weight. Your body is your body and it belongs to you. You can’t be everyone’s perfect fitness icon all of the time. You’re a nuanced person!

  • Ka says:

    Good luck. I think you’re still beautiful regardless.

  • Michal fertig says:

    I really need a good diet to follow I’m very active like 4/5 hours a day as a dancer and a yogi so low carbs would not work any idea??

  • emmadilemma says:

    You are allowed to be an imperfect human.

    I can’t imagine how hard it is to be in the public eye like you are. You’re right, everything you do is on display and it’s impossible to please all of the people all of the time. I would CRACK under that kind of pressure. Plus, you live in a city where being thin and fit is a big part of the culture, right? I’m an actress/playwright living in Kansas City, and even though I feel the pressure to look a certain way to get roles, there is waaaay more flexibility in the Midwest as far as body type goes.

    I relate to a lot of what you post about. (All of your little comics!) And even though I feel like I’m not small enough/fit enough/wealthy enough to be someone in your target audience demographic, I relate to your struggle with your body image and the desire to want to lose weight to feel better about yourself. To feel special, even. Better than just average.

    And as much as I wish I didn’t want to, I DO want to lose weight. I know if my brain that it shouldn’t matter, I know that my friends don’t care, I want to believe that it doesn’t make a difference to my boyfriend, I want to be a role model for others, my students, to set an example that they don’t have to fit the mold to be beautiful and strong and fierce, but at the end of the day, I think there will always be that part of my brain that wants to be thinner. To go back to the weight I was when I was obsessively dieting and working out every day. When I was sick all the time but fit into smaller sizes.

    I like working out.  And I like working out with you! It’s challenging, it’s fun, it’s FREE (haha!)
    So I just wanted to say that I respect you as a human. I think you’re gorgeous just as you are. Being 14lb heavier doesn’t make you less healthy or valuable or less of an athlete. But I understand why you want to lose the weight.

    • A says:

      It is understandable why she wants to lose weight again especially being under the public eye and being a fitness instructor. There must be a lot of pressure to be thin and muscular. However, people work out with her videos because of her personality, not because of her looks. I’m sure I can make myself lose weight like I did in the past, but at the same time I’d be miserable and that is no way to live at all. Imagine being 80 years old and following yet another diet. Diets don’t work long term and only contribute to further weight gain, if that’s what she’s avoiding in the first place. Not that there’s anything wrong with weight gain. Health does not equal thin.

  • Ashley says:

    Hey Cassey!

    I’m a long time follower and have always loved you and your content! But this post concerned me for a couple of reasons that I would just like to raise below:
    1. Weighing every day – I am not sure how this is beneficial and is a slippery slope for anyone with a history of disordered eating
    2. Setting specific numerical goals – because this is such a public platform, I feel like this could drive you into unhealthy behaviors to make sure that you achieve these goals
    3. A 90 day “diet” with a restrictive food list – there is a ton of research regarding short term diets or diets that eliminate certain food groups. And the research says they don’t work. Sure, maybe for a little while but not long-term (usually this leads to rebound weight gain). I would encourage you to consider what would be a sustainable life change… not just what is sustainable for 90 days. Because if you can’t live like that long-term, what is the point? It will just lead to yo-yo dieting.

    Anyway, just my 2 cents. Not trying to be critical but I just wanted to point out a few areas of concern for thought. Obviously at the end of the day it is your choice how you manage it!

    • A says:

      Completely agreed! Dieting does not work in the long term. It actually contributes to weight gain. She should know this, but she still wants to do this so we can’t do anything about it, sadly. I hope she gets out of diet culture completely one day.

  • Gen says:

    Thank you for sharing this Cassey and I’m excited to follow your journey! It’s interesting that you say 136 is your heights weight because we’re just about the same height and my weight has always averaged 140. It even went up to 145 when I was weightlifting last year. Not that I’m doing more body weight weight workouts and eating healthy is unconscious, I’m at my lowest consistent weight of 132. Reading your post makes me kind of want to try going down to 125 just to see how it is, but I know that requires me to give up intuitive eating for something more restrictive, which is a scary for me to consider. I’m a perfectionist and very stubborn and I’m scared doing a “diet” approach might spiral me into an unhealthy mindset. Who knows?

    But that’s another issue. thank you for sharing your thoughts with us, girl and I’m 110% here for you! Never feel like you have to apologize for gaining weight or going on a diet or struggling. You’re human just like us, and you wouldn’t be apologizing to us if you didn’t have the image of “fitness guru”. It’s your bright personality, passion, and creativity in workouts, clothes, challenges and just… you that attracts people. You’re one of my greatest inspirations, Cassey! I have faith that you can succeed in anything you set your mind to if you just believe (; and we’re all here to catch you if you stumble along the way.

    Love ya 💕🙏

  • Sharon says:

    Good luck! Maybe I missed this in the post…. how are you measuring your bodyfat percentage?

  • Jen says:

    I feel your pain when we moved to a new place it really cold in the winter so I gain way to much weight. Before my pregnancy I was 95lb went up to 170lb, back down to 112lb then to 120lb now I’m 135lb. I use to work out 6 hours a day 4-5days a week. From cardio, weight lifting, boxing, jujitsu, mauy thai. I have extra skin trying to tone but nothing seems to help. I lift weight in the gym, teach a aqua aerobics for hour 3-4 times a week. My depression has gotten worse since my weight gain. I love reading this blog it makes me feel like someone else understand me. I hope your journey goes well.

  • Chris says:

    So… When is this going to end ? I feel like it is a eternal war between you and yourself. You’re strong, you have built something huge (community, YouTube, blog, fitness career…). When you get older (70-80ish), all that weight and body fat percentage just won’t matter anymore. What matters is what you are capable of.
    You will lose weight, you will gain weight. That’s life.
    Just live, Cassey

    • A says:

      Thank you for saying this! I completely agree! I feel like she’s just jumping from one diet to another, and it never ends, even though she doesn’t call it a diet, like she’ll call it “clean eating” or “28 day reset.” It’s all the same thing. I hope she sees the light one day and gets herself completely out of diet culture.

  • Molly says:

    I love this and you. And I totally feel everything you’re saying. I’ve gained about 35 pounds I’ve over last 3 years as my business grew and I fell off of working out. Just started kickboxing and I LOVE it!!! Kick ass girl. Kick ALL the ass!!

  • Amy Brouwer says:

    I love your plan! I follow pretty much the same lifestyle, l think you’ll do great! I’ll be praying you through your 90 day journey. You do you, girl!

  • Kelly says:

    Thank you so much for this post. I have been struggling with trying to remain body positive while trying to lose weight for my health and it’s a difficult balance! Although I would kill for your body, I also understand that you can want to improve yourself FOR YOU and no one else. Thank you again for all that you do. XOXO

  • You look amazing already! But yes, do whatever makes you happy! I wish I could commit at a 100%! I usually eat well, workout 4 days a week 20 – 30 minutes but I would like to go deeper! I am almost 56, feel very well but not perfect, yes, some of us want to feel/look perfect. (Because we are not feelings perfect!, lol)

  • Kerry says:

    So proud of you for standing up for yourself and your choices! It seems like today that “body positive” has morphed into accepting your body the way it is while not doing anything to take care of it or make it better. While this is your journey, you’re speaking up for those of us that love our bodies but still want to push ourselves athletically and eat food that are good for our bodies.

  • Sami says:

    Good luck Cassey. ♡ I do wanna say that if you get super board with running, stair masters and Jacob’s Ladders are fun too. :)

  • Venus says:

    I think you have a great body

  • Lu y says:

    I am so excited for you. Stared my fitness journey to better health this past July and I have been feeling great. I have never been fat but I wanted to feel strong. So you talking about your body always helps me to open up about mine. Very excited 😊

  • Annemarie says:

    Hey Cassey thanks for the inspiration! Your post came at just the right time for me. I’ve been battling with Rheumatoid Arthritis for a few years now and I am just recovering from my second round of Pleurisy. Every time I feel like I have things under control another obstacle pops up. I turn 49 in less than a month and really want to focus on being stronger physically, mentally, socially, academically and financially. Thank you for having the courage to share your struggles publicly. It helps more than you know.

  • Stephanie says:

    Cassey, I totally get what you are saying, I am 5’5 as well but I started a sedentary job last year. Since then, I have gained some weight and I didn’t feel happy anymore. I started a diet with a nutritionist and I was critised by my mom and some Friends saying I was thin so what was the problem? Still, my boyfriend supported me and l’ve given all of myself and today I feel more energetic, confident and overall happy. Go girl get what you want! By the way, I would recommend for you to try pole dance. I know you love dancing and you would use all of your muscles! I do it once a week and I love it!

  • Sarah says:

    Love this whole post. Love to keep up to date and join you in my own way! Your amazing regardless of any outcome. Thank you

  • Elissa Currie says:

    I love you Cassey! I’m proud of you for sharing this and I’m sorry you had to worry about backlash. I’m excited to see your daily posts – good luck!

    • Morgan V Underwood says:

      This is amazing! Good for you Casey!

      My only question is if you are concerned that you can’t get to 120lbs in that amount of time is that really a sustainable weight for you. I’m all for a healthy lifestyle but you have to have room for fun I’ve been loving your Instagram posts about your yolo foods. I know I know you can’t always indulge but it’s part of an overall healthy lifestyle.

      Also can’t wait for the daily posts. I would love to see your workouts. I currently work out 3-4 times a week and always looking for different workout ideas! Good luck!

  • Dayna Alemy says:

    I’m gonna try to join you! I also have some unwanted weight I’d like to get rid of, to better my health and state of mind. 5’1 and 115 lbs. Your new BMI will be 20. I don’t feel fully comfortable with doing that with my body, so I will try to go down to 107 (20.4/6 I think). LETS DO THIS ❤️❤️

  • Lilia says:

    This is definitely a great post! I am in a VERY similar place. I’ve consistently worked out 4 to 6 times a week for almost 3 years now. My 2 year Mark was my fittest, but going into year 3 has kinda plateaued. I’ve gained 4 to 5 # and not sure why. Nothing has changed in diet and exercise so I guess I need a change too. Thanks for the inspo!

  • Suzy says:

    This is great! It’s just the push I need to do better. I’m going to be following some of this to lose some weight. Our stats are similar. My goal is 130 lbs because I’ve noticed that as we age our body fat distribution changes and so 118 lbs at 25y and 118 lb at 32y look like 2 very different morphologies… But most importantly, like you, I want to get healthier.
    Thank you for this!!!

  • NessaNen says:

    Good luck Cassey!

  • Smita says:

    Cassey, I am sure you will win this battle and nothing can stop. This has motivated me too. I will try and give you company on this. Keep writing and keep posting videos, inspires millions like me who dont have access to your pop classes.

  • Nikki says:

    Love this so much Cassey! I’m in the same boat as you are really (wanting to improve my health and begin running again). I am going to do this along with you but I’m starting today, the 17th. I’m also going to follow a Whole Foods plant based diet (not necessarily vegan but close) to see if it will help with some health issues I have. I’m so proud of you for doing this-we Popsters have your back 💯 in this!

  • Verónica Madrigal Fernández says:

    Right now I am in the same journey and I chose almost keto diet (+vegan modifications) and I let myself to eat non-keto stuff that makes me feel happy but don’t hurt me inside: sugar-free cornflakes and handmade potato chips. Also, I let myself to eat apples (I love apples) even when they are not keto.
    I also do fasting, so I eat just dinner.
    It maybe sounds hard and restricted but I have never felt this free and light before. SERIOUSLY.
    Be in control is the best option to ourselves. CHOOSE consciously and stick to your choices is the best.
    Enjoy learning thru this journey. You will find the results you are looking for, outside and inside.

  • Kat says:

    I think this is great, Cassey! Your measurements show that you are already healthy, but there is nothing wrong with trying to make yourself better in a healthy way. I have been feeling less-than-my-best recently, and you have inspired me to make some small improvements so that I can get back to my best physical state. I look forward to reading your blogs!

  • Jeanette says:

    I hope you know that it is normal to gain weight the first year of marriage. One thing it means is that you feel safe with your husband, so yay for that, but impressive that you arent going to slip farther. Try to enjoy your journey to a more comfortable size. We are rooting for you, and alot of us are on the same path so hopefully we wont judge!

  • Sharper says:

    Have you considered working with a functional medicine dr? There are a ton in CA. You may have some hormone levels that are out of whack. With the way you’ve discussed your business stress and sleep loss I would guess cortisol could be high, which would raise insulin, which wouldn’t force your body t