January 20, 2021
I felt I needed a change. I just didn’t feel good, like the best version of myself. So I started my own 90 Day Journey a couple of weeks ago. I wrote down my why and my purpose. I was so excited. But now I don’t see the changes.
I want to find that joy. I want to feel good for me. But I felt like I got tired of it. And I feel like I let myself down. I’m so disappointed in me. I missed filling out my journal lately and I don’t eat in a way that make me feel good.
How do you deal with letting yourself down?
Searching For The Best Version of Myself
Ugh. I definitely know the feeling of letting myself down. This might sound weird, but I’m actually EXCITED for you. You’re on your journey! And here’s the thing – no one’s journey is linear. I didn’t just wake up one day, start my 90 Day Journey, and march straight into my goals.
Nope. Didn’t happen like that at all.
Actually, to be honest, it took me YEARS to finally commit and find a solid plan for my journey that worked for ME. And in the end, I learned that was the little detail I was missing all along. What I was doing had to be for me. I learned that the reason I kept letting myself down was because even though I thought I was setting goals for my own benefit, deep down I was really doing it for someone else. Or because of what other people thought. When I finally dug deep and got painfully honest with myself, something just clicked. I set out to do what I needed to do FOR ME, in the best way FOR ME.
So that’s where you can start. Circle back to your “why,” get comfy, and really think it through. You said you want to feel good for you, which is awesome! You deserve to feel amazing, and you will get there! But it might help to dig a little deeper and think about all of the things that aren’t making you feel your best right now. This is where journaling is super helpful. Just let your thoughts and feelings flow – you might be surprised what you learn about yourself!
Next, you have to commit to keeping promises to yourself. MAKE IT A PRIORITY. You are your own best friend, so treat yourself like you would your bestie! That means sticking to things you know will help you grow, but also giving yourself grace when you get off track. Like I said, the journey you’re on isn’t linear. It’s totally normal to get off track, learn from it, and jump back on when you’re making big life changes!
Finally, remember that although this is your journey, that doesn’t mean you have to do it alone. There is no shame in seeking support (psst…like you’re doing right now! I’m so happy you reached out!), so lean on people you love or the POP community. You might be surprised to find how many of us are struggling with the exact same things! Coming together for encouragement, advice or just to vent is super helpful.
I hope this inspires you to keep going! The hardest part of your journey is already over – STARTING! I’m so proud of you for doing this for yourself and I know you’re going to make some big changes. Just remember that change takes time and consistency. Take it one step at a time, and acknowledge every single accomplishment, no matter how small!
PS – If you have a burning question you want to ask me, leave a comment below! You may be featured in an upcoming Dear Cassey post!