September 3, 2019
Okay so I’ve been on the weight gain train ever since KBBQ this weekend! There’s still a food baby that hasn’t gone away since Saturday, AND since my period began, I’ve been snacking a lot. This week I’m going to need to focus hard if I want to progress at a rate that will allow me to hit my goals in the next 9 and a half weeks.
To be honest with you, I’m not 100% emotionally unaffected by the number I see on the scale. When I see progress, I feel super motivated! When I see a plateau or a regression, I feel like I need to do better. But it’s not a “you’re a worthless failure” kind of feeling. I don’t curl up in fetal position and cry like I used to. I’m proud to say that I’ve grown past that after years of self work. These days, it’s more like a “this is a tough puzzle, but you WILL figure it out” kind of feeling. It’s semi frustrating and semi motivational at the same time. So, that’s where my head is at. I need to FOCUS.
DAY 18 RECAP:
After I got home from Barry’s Bootcamp, I made myself this delish plate! Turkey burger with pepperjack cheese, tomatoes, and homemade guacamole with a side of mushrooms and butter lettuce. YUM!!!
I also bought this Keto ice cream from Gelson’s and OMG it is SO GOOD! It really tastes like regular ice cream, except a tad less creamy in texture.
The ice cream claims to have 3g of net carbs per serving, which is true if you subtract all the sugar alcohols. But if I’m being “safe”, the calculation would be 5.5 net carbs per serving.
Midday snack: pepperjack cheese with Thai chili almonds! YUM! I wonder if all the dairy is contributing to the weight staying on?
Pre-dinner snack: Homemade guac with seaweed crisps!
Dinner was zoodles with Alfredo sauce, tomatoes, mushrooms, and sausage. I am loving the fact that I am not counting my macros or my calories. But I am afraid that I may be overeating. No matter how “healthy” or how “strict” I am with my food, if I eat too much, I eat too much. And as you guys know, my stomach is a bottomless pit. So if the progress continues to stall, I may need to one of the following things:
- cut out the cheeses
- replace some meats with fish
- count macros
I REALLY don’t want to count macros, so I would much rather do number 1 or 2! Let’s see though if we need to get there…I guess I’ll make a decision with Friday’s weigh in…which is only 3 days away! AHHHH!
Oh, but on a positive side note…we wallpapered our home office! This is the first time in my entire life I have ever used wallpaper on ANYTHING!
OMG. I AM LOVING IT!!!!
The room feels so much more intimate! What do you think?
Now I need to decorate the desks with some gold to match the constellations on the wall! The wallpaper is from World Market and is a self adhesive peel and stick. I am obsessed!
OK see you back here tomorrow for hopefully some solutions and some progress!