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Wow, thank you so much celebrating the end of my 90 day journey with me on my last post! I really felt like you guys were my girl friends giving me a big hug at the finish line of a marathon. I truly appreciate you soooooo much! You bring me so much joy!

 

So, part 1 was all the technical stuff. My workouts, my food, my numbers, and my physical, external transformation. Now, it’s time for all the ooey gooey mushy gushy stuff – the feelings…the internal metamorphosis, which to me, is the more important and longer lasting aspect of my 90 day journey. Part 2 is going to be all about the feels.

Why I Needed To Go On A 90 Day Journey

At the end of this past summer, Sam and I had just finished a 3 day retreat, and on our way back to the airport, I broke down and started crying outta nowhere. (I don’t know what it is about retreats but they break you open and make you face things you don’t want to face.)

As Sam was driving, sadness overpowered my entire body and I became overwhelmed when I realized that I was not living the life I truly wanted. I felt lost, I felt stagnant, I felt fake, and I no longer knew who I was. I realized that I was no longer my true authentic self. I had stopped doing the things that REALLY made me happy.

Why?

Cuz I was afraid.

Being in the public eye for over 10 years, I began to say less and less because every time I said something, someone would be upset. When Blogilates started back in 2009, I was pretty much blogging 7 days a week! But as Blogilates got bigger and bigger, I became less and less vocal because I was afraid of making people unhappy. I went from blogging 7 days a week to blogging maybe 7 days a year.

Anytime I shared what I ate, someone would call me a murderer.

Anytime I talked about my body, someone would say I was too fat to be a trainer.

Anytime I talked about my heritage, someone would tell me to take the race out of it.

And the ONE TIME I talked about how happy I was that gay marriage was now legal, I lost 4,000 followers in just a few minutes.

So, overtime, I taught myself to hold back my real thoughts and opinions to keep people peaceful. Unfortunately this caused me to become a slave to other people’s opinions of me…and I ended up molding myself into this vanilla cupcake whose goal was to offend no one. Which is stupid…because it’s impossible.

In doing so, I lost my identity.

After the plane ride home, I took some time to ask myself what I really wanted. And on August 16th, I decided it was time to make a big change. I told Sam that I wanted to go on a 90 day journey to get in the best shape of my life physically and mentally. I told him that I wanted to document the entire journey on my blog in order to keep myself accountable. Blogilates.com would return to what it once was – my safe space and my personal fitness diary.

But, I was hesitant.

I knew a lot of people would be upset at how transparent I was about to get. I knew that for myself, I needed to announce my goal weight and my goal body fat percentage in order to keep myself hyper focused. I personally like using numbers because they keep me honest. Plus they give me something to objectively work towards. BUT I knew that for the people going through body insecurity issues, talk of scales and weight would be upsetting – which I totally understand! I mean, I didn’t step on a scale for a couple years because of the way I would let it control my emotions. But once I realized that I was allowing an inanimate object to have power over my self worth, I saw how ridiculous it was and stopping giving the scale so much control. Instead, I began viewing the scale as just a tool that was there to help me collect data points. That right there is what really helped switch my mindset.

Why I Needed to Announce My Goals

Announcing my goals publicly was important to me because it gave me the accountability I needed to stay on track. If I knew that people were watching, I’d be less likely to give up. So after reviewing my plan with Sam, I made the decision to announce my 90 day journey publicly on August 16th.

The Backlash

In my gut, I knew I was going get some backlash, but…I was not prepared for HOW much backlash I was going to get.

Some people were excited to follow along, some people were genuinely concerned about me relapsing into an eating disorder, but a surprising number of people were just straight up rude, mean spirited, and in some cases derogatory and hateful. The comments being made about my character and my intentions me cry and feel really terrible about myself.

Now that I’ve had 3 months to think about it, here’s my take on why my 90 day journey was received with so much negativity.

You see, it’s weird when you start out teaching Pilates on YouTube with the pure goal of JUST TEACHING PILATES and then people start making rude comments about how fat you are. Then when the media brands you as a “body positive influencer” because you’re “so brave” for teaching Pilates without a six pack, all of a sudden you become a leader of a movement you never intended to be a part of. It’s also important to note that body positivity back in 2013/14 is not what it is today. So then, when you, as a fitness instructor, decide to do something so “heinous” such as – oh you know, maybe like embark on a 90 day journey where you decide to eat cleaner and workout a little more, all of a sudden you’re branded as a “bad role model”, “irresponsible”, “mentally ill”, “too skinny” and “an embarrassment and disappointment to womankind.”

Logically, I can see why the 90 day journey would SEEM like something that would “go against” my perceived brand values. But at the same time, the Blogilates brand value first and foremost is to help people find the joy in exercise. And that mission has never changed.

My Internal Metamorphosis

Before I started my 90 day journey, I felt like a vanilla cupcake with no opinions. I was scared to offend people and I was scared of hurting people feelings, so I let mine get hurt instead. Over time, I felt muted by my own community and I started turning into someone I wasn’t.

At the same time, in my personal life, I was dealing lots of family drama and business mishaps that took a toll on my sleep, my stress levels, and overall quality of life. Things felt very stuck internally. I needed a whole life makeover. So I decided to put my focus back onto myself. And that meant getting fitter externally so that I could get fitter internally. I needed structure, discipline, and extreme focus. Before I go any further, I want to make it clear that I didn’t go on this journey because I hated my body. I went on this journey because I loved my body so much that I wanted to dedicate time towards improving myself mentally and physically.

When I embarked on my 90 Day Journey, I thought the hardest part was going to be the food. Workouts have never been a problem because I honestly enjoy exercising. But little did I know food was going to be the least of my worries.

The extra negativity I got externally put a lot of unnecessary stress on my well being. I found myself constantly trying to defend myself against the negativity, which honestly, exhausted me and just made me feel really bad. I don’t know why I put myself through the torture, but I read through all of the comments as they started pouring in. I let them make me cry. I let them hurt my self confidence. I let them deprive me of my happiness when I should have been celebrating small victories. It’s something I still need to work on. I’m not good at not letting people’s opinions of me affect my well being, so it’s a goal of mine to stop caring as much. As an overly empathetic, sensitive, and emotionally aware person who is also a natural people pleaser – I’ve got a lot of internal work to do before I can “stop caring.”

But I will say this. The comments tested me and made me stronger. Yeah, I was hurt and yeah it felt terrible. But here I am, past the 90 days, feeling SO ALIVE, feeling SO MUCH STRONGER, feeling SO MUCH MORE CONFIDENT, and feeling SO MUCH BETTER than when I started. I believe the negativity was a necessary part of my growth. Without it, I would not be as solid as I am right now. So for that, I am grateful.

On another note – people ask me why I read comments if they affect me so much. I’ll tell you why. I want to understand the truth and I want to always face reality. I never want to be delusional or ignorantly blissful. I’d rather have the truth hurt me than a lie make me feel good.

Plus, in between the negativity, there were some genuinely concerned POPsters who wanted to make sure I wasn’t relapsing, and for that I thank you. For those who cheered me on, I want you to know your comments brought a smile to my face. For those who started their own 90 day journeys, I’m sending you my strength and my motivation and I wish you so much success. And for those who left nasty comments, I hope you found the love you needed to heal yourself.

So there you have it guys. From the beginning, I said that this 90 Day Journey was going to be for me, and I kept true to that. Unexpected challenges arose during my journey, but I kept going back to my “why”. I wanted to get in the best shape of my life mentally and physically. And I almost can’t believe it, but I DID IT!!!!

I feel so proud not only because I reached my goals (well most of them), but because I reached them by practicing total self love and compassion.

Finally, I need to give a special shoutout to my Sam. He was the one who encouraged me to go on this 90 day journey and he was there to pick me up and dance silly with me whenever I broke down and ugly cried over the past 3 months – which happened kinda a lot. He sees me in my worst form and still loves me somehow, so for that, I feel so so sooooo lucky.

What’s next?

I’ve been thinking about this a lot. Food wise, I will keep eating like how I’ve been eating because I feel so energetic eating low carb, mod protein, mod fat. In fact, it doesn’t even feel like a diet. I am full and nourished! I will eat ice cream and treats when I feel like it, but I will be conscious of my portions. That is the biggest thing I have learned on the 90 day journey – I realize that I am a huge overachiever when it comes to eating :P

In terms workouts, I’ll strive to work out about 6x a week and I will DEFINITELY continue to take my heels classes! I hope to get better and start taking pole classes as well. It really helps with making me feel more confident!

In regards to next goals, I’ve already thought about what I want to accomplish for myself in the next 90. I love the length of 90 days because it’s long enough so you have time to make mistakes and learn from them, but also short enough so that you feel the pressure to not get lazy.

So, what’s my next goal?

I’m going to now shift my focus towards something I’ve wanted to accomplish for a long time. It has nothing to do with weight or body fat. It’s time to give that a break and focus instead on my flexibility :) Flexibility is soooooo important – in life, in business, in relationships, and in this case, your body. The more you know how to bend, the less likely you are to break.

So, beginning today I will make stretching a priority because 3 months from now, I want to get closer to doing…

#1. The middle splits! This is going to be so hard. My hips are super tight. I honestly don’t think 3 months is enough time, but hey, gotta start somewhere!

#2. A wheel with palms underneath my shoulders! This will also be hard. My shoulders and back are super tight too – a lot of that coming from stress and just the way I sit at the computer. Again, 3 months will probably not be enough time, but let’s see how far I get!

#3. And just cuz it’s so pretty, I want pointier feet! I have naturally flat-ish feet…soooooo this will be interesting!

Having more flexibility will also help me improve my Pilates practice, so I’m excited to see how my Pilates will enhance. Getting flexible is not just about stretching…it’s about strengthening too. So I’m excited to see how my muscles will change.

With all that said – I’m going to start stretching tonight. 90 days from today will be February 16th, 2020. I’ll need to devise a detailed plan to get towards my goals and I will update you guys with before pics in my next post!

YAY guys thanks for following along!! I can’t wait to embark on the next 90.

If you want to start your own 90 day journey, I’ll help you get started. Here’s a discount code to get 40% off the 12 week Fit Journal! Just use the code 90DAYJOURNEY at checkout on the POPFLEX website! The sale ends tomorrow Tuesday November 19th.

I actually just grabbed another copy for myself so I could track my plans for my 2nd 90 day journey towards flexibility. Excited to begin writing the next chapter of my life.

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  • Kate says:

    It’s too bad people imposed or read into what you were doing. I’ve learned in my journey sometimes people react based on their own fears/insecurities/experiences instead of approaching with openness and curiosity. Hang in there and I’m a new follower who Hope’s to get inspiration!

  • Tasmin says:

    I would love to follow some of your flexibility/stretching/strengthening sessions! Would you consider putting up videos of this or even doing a stretch-specific class?

  • Emily Kley says:

    So if you want to loose weight is it calories in, calories out?

  • Liliana says:

    Hey, I never wrote anything but I definitely was one of the people that at first had a pretty negative reaction. I have to admit that I was scared for you, but after seeing you go through this and seeing how happy you are. I really regret that, and on behalf of all the people who got upset through seeing things in a warped perception. I want to say I’m sorry. I also know that I have been struggling with fitness recently, and at first seeing someone I already thought was perfect in my eyes try and improve upset me. Now instead, I see you as an inspiration. I think it is wonderful and so cool that you have decided to open up and be yourself. I can’t wait to see what great things you do next. Thank you for everything you do!

  • Laura says:

    Hi Cassey,
    I just wanted to say that your flexibility goal rocks! One thing though, you may not be able to get your hands and arms under your shoulders in wheel – it’s mostly to do with range of motion and where your body hits compression (bone on bone) which is nothing to do with having tight muscles! A quick range of motion test is to see how far you can lift your arm, without moving your shoulder upwards. It’s usually compression in the glenoid humeral joint which restricts range!
    Xxx

  • Daisy says:

    Hi Cassey,

    I’ve been on my own journey for a few years, and thought that your goals were awesome for what you wanted. I’ve been spending a lot of down time reading about the diet industry and food and self care in general, because I wanted to learn as many perspectives as possible to begin to understand my own relationship with food. Ultimately, I came to the same conclusion as you, that we need to figure out what is best for our own bodies. Our relationship with food is a complicated one. A lot of times, we can be so easily swayed by fads or supposed health foods that we lose our own thoughts and beliefs. It’s very easy to let others opinions filter in, especially as women in this society, that we should look a certain way over how we actually feel, and that certain foods or diets will get us there, or certain forms of self care, when in fact the truest form of self care is to listen to our bodies to find what makes us happy.

    It sounds like for your journey, this is what you got to rediscover and I’m so happy that you’ve reached this goal! I’m still working on myself, but starting to pick apart the noise of what others want of me vs what I actually want. Similarly, also working on figuring out the issues behind wanting to binge or snack, because typically unhealthy relationships with food is just a symptom of other stresses or mental health struggles. If anything, I’ve learned that loving yourself truly and being in a good mental health space is the key to solving a lot of these problems! It sounds like this was what you got to discover too, which is really cool to read about!

    One of the most important quotes I heard from someone is this:

    “You can be happy with who you are and still want to be better. You can love your body and still want to improve it. You can appreciate your financial state and still want to improve it. Progress does not require self-loathing. You can feel successful along the way.”

    I think you’re a wonderful example of this quote. Always strive for your personal best! Congrats on the journey and best of luck moving forward too. :)

  • Jenny says:

    Dear Cassey.
    Here a hello from me to you from the most west part of Indonesia, West Papua.

    First of all, I would like to thank you for all your wonderful workout videos that cost me nothing, just need a wi-fi connection basically 🤗.

    I am sending you my hugs and courages. Letting you know that you are a beautiful woman, physically and mentally. Loving how cheerful you are in every session of your workout videos and blogs.

    I beg you that you don’t buy the haters comments and to let them eat up all ur happiness. Be thankful and grateful for what you are and what you have right now for they are your most precious “present/gifts”.

    -xoxoxo-
    Jenny

  • Mica says:

    Hey, Cassey! Thank you for this post and the video summary. Congratulations for finishing your 90-day journey! What I liked about your video summary is that you stayed so positive even when you encountered mean comments. :)

    Your 90-day challenge inspired me to do a similar one. Since there are 35 days left for this year, I’m doing a 35-day challenge instead. Like you, I’m determined to end the year stronger.

  • sonia says:

    Hey Cassey !
    I didn’t post any comment during your 90day challenge and now that I’m reading how it affected you I regret it. I wasn’t reading your blog daily and catching up a few days at a time and I didn’t take the time to tell you how inspired I was by what you did. You are so strong and determined, I wish I had those qualities. You showed us how difficult but also how rewarding it is to work consistantly towards a goal, and I really need that right now. I don’t know if I’ll be able to step up like you did, but I’ll stay in awe of you anyway, because despite all the negativity you kept going. You SHOULD be proud of yourself, and you deserve the good things you got out of this. We’ll keep cheering you on, challenge or not, because you are a good spirit in this tough world and we need it. Lots of love to you

  • Noon says:

    I love reading your facts and your opinions because i think it is SO REAL so relatable. A lot of fitness influencers will throw out the scale or literally destroy it because they think it’s irrelevant to the weight loss journey. Everyone is SO very different and have different perspectives. We have so many tools to out there, why not benefit from it all. Numbers don’t lie, instead of hating or obsessing over it, I love the fact that you explain how you use it to benefit you in your journey. Everyday can be a mood swing and I really admire you. You accomplished so much both physcially and mentally plus, you look great and it really shows, its beaming out of you from the inside.
    I really dont know what to say but if I had to follow anyone’s fitness and weight loss journey, I would follow yours because of the balance and that it doesn’t seem impossible to follow, no set rules but it’s the right way to accomplish a fitness goal. I am so happy for your success and love your contents.
    And finally, thank you for sharing! ♥️

  • Blakely says:

    I’m excited for this second one! This is something I would love to do but definitely don’t know where to start so…. could you post more about this one because I would like to do it also. :)

  • Lin says:

    I really love how much passion you put in your journey. It really inspired me and I think you really got way more approachable being back to your true self. I follow you for many years and I was very glad to see your character again in your content.
    Keep going!

  • Nina says:

    Hai Cassey,
    your community appreciates your honesty. it was your journey and no one should have had a say in it. It disgusts me that people write hurtful and nasty comments – better to write nothing than something negativ. But karma is a bitch and it will come back to them.
    you can be concerned thats fine and really appreciated but mean and nasty are totally not acceptable.
    As a fellow pole dancer and aerial hoop lover I honestly can tell you … you’ll get super confident. I did not feel pretty at all but with pole and hoop I found a confidence never thought I had. Also I started belly dance. Can honestly recommend it. does not matter how you look all are equal and all are nice to each other. love the spirit and feel absolutely gorgeous <3.
    I am happy for you that you reached your personal goals and I am definitely up for getting more flexible. will follow you on this.
    love you and thank you for everything. does not matter which youtube trainer I am watching I always come back to you bc you are motivating, funny, real and totally YOU. Love that you are not about selling but about inspiring.
    All the best from Vienna (Austria)
    Nina

  • nika says:

    Hi Cassey.

    I’ve been quietly following you throughout this whole journey and wanted to just wanted let you know that it was inspirational and made myself embark on one :-)

    Your resilience made me think that I can overcome my own not-the-best relationship with my body and food and build confidence and ease into how I perceive myself. Long story short, I’ve bought 2020 popilates calendar but as I don’t want to want the whole crazy month, tarted the journal already in my ol’good Moleskine ;-)

    And stretch goals – completely understand, but I’m a good ramp-up, doing your bad stretch video for quite a few days now ;-) (this is SOOO good, thanks!)

    Keep rockin’ (and keep fingers crossed for me :-))

  • Veronica says:

    Ah class Cassey, fair play to you for speaking out and being true to yourself. The world needs more authentic inspirational people. Best of luck with the stretching, how cool it will be to achieve those goals. Do you ever do reformer pilates? I found when I moved to the reformer from the mat my flexibility got better. It is alot of fun too. X

  • Fitnessbunny says:

    Hi Cassey
    I want to do the ninety day stretch journey with you since I can do my front splits I want to learn how to do a full rotation in middle split. My other two are going to be a head stand and a chest stand
    Love you☺

  • Brichbirdofspringtimeandsadness says:

    Thank you Cassey, This journey of yours have inspired and pushed me to go on my own. The last year a have felt like I was constantly loosing a part of my self. I feel like I am not able to listen to my own body’s signals and I am not doing the things that I love unconditionally. I wish to change this and YOU have inspired me to today begin my own journey, where I will tjek in every five days and se how I am feeling – both mentally and physically – and whether I am doing the things I love❤️ I thank you with all of my heart for being such an inspiration and sharing everything you do, because even though It may upset some it also helps so many others!! Love you and thanks from Victoria❤️

  • Viviane says:

    Although you did the journey for yourself and ONLY for yourself, I wanted to express how much you inspired and impressed me. It’s less about your physical results – you look amazing and it is a huge achievement! But about your mindset, focusing on yourself and your well-being and being your on motivation to continue and succeed.
    I truly hope you can maintain your inner strength and happiness :)

  • alex says:

    “Blogilates” is literally the BEST weight loss community anywhere, I read it everyday, and I’m also so grateful I found “http://bit.ly/TransformUrBody”, it helped me not only lose weight but keep it off hope it helps some others!

  • Laura says:

    “I want to make it clear that I didn’t go on this journey because I hated my body. I went on this journey because I loved my body so much that I wanted to dedicate time towards improving myself mentally and physically.”
    Yes! So many people don’t realize that being healthy is a way to show how much you love your body! And shouldn’t be looked at like a punishment, but a celebration!

  • SamanthaB293 says:

    I’m so proud of you, I think you’ve done a fantastic job and you look amazing. I totally understand how people can get under your skin with their comments, but we need to learn how to roll our eyes and move on. People these days literally get offended by asking them if they’re offended; it’s ridiculous!

    • SamanthaB293 says:

      I wish I could stick to something like this for 90 days. I simply do not have that motivation even though I’m unhappy with my body at the moment. I’ve tried so many times, but nothing sticks.

  • fitgirl73 says:

    I’m soooo happy for you! You had a good, healthy goal for both the mind and the body, and you really dedicated yourself to make it happen! I look forward to your flexibility journey as much I enjoyed your body/mind journey! Forget all those haters, and I’m sorry you were so hurt, but glad to see you are less impacted by them. Haters have their own issues – it’s not really, truly you. My Dad always said if you have nothing to say, don’t say a thing and I live by that rule! I was a little worried for you at first, but you really listened to your body and that’s what REALLY matters. Haters gonna hate, but you had a huge amount of us cheering you on and being inspired by your journey!!! Congrats on a job well done. You ALWAYS looked great to me, but I’m happy for you if your body transformation made you feel better about yourself. That’s all that really matters. xoxo

  • Laura says:

    You are amazing! Thank you because you share with us your journey! 👏😊♥️

  • Kaitlyn says:

    I am so inspired by your journey! I’ve decided to do my own 90 day journey as well! I’m curious – what did you do to measure your body fat and muscle mass?

  • BeckyB says:

    Great job on your 90 Day Journey to get even healthier and stronger! Your results are so impressive!! You have inspired me to go on my own 90 Day Journey. I’m 3 weeks in and down 4 pounds! I’m using your awesome 12 week planner and it is super motivating to write in it and circle the smiley faces! I am 53 years old and your 90 day blog has totally resonated with me! Keep up the great work!

  • Almu says:

    It made me feel bad to imagine you crying while reading some comments (and angry to know that you lost followers when you said you are happy because of gay marriage…). It is crazy how we got so used to judge people quickly, without giving it a second thought. I really really hope that you feel happier and I hope that you can start your journey of not giving a f*** about what others say about your decisions.

  • Aisha says:

    Today I discovered your blog. What you did is amazing. How did you keep the motivation for 90 days? Wow… That gives me courage to start my own journey :).

  • Marie says:

    Hello Cassey, it’s the first time I comment, but I wanted to congratulate you for your journey, and keeping the objectif to be true to yourself. I’ve been following you on youtube for some years, not very consistantly but sometime your joyful sport session in my living room are exactly wah I need. Also, I have a project to build a business around food and micronutrition with unprocessed ingredients (in France). For this, I need to build a good communication strategy and I have been really shy about it until now. I know social media are the place to be but I am afraid to expose myself, to be told also that I am not fit enough to sale healthy food, or to reveal that I, like you, have struggle with hidden eating disorders. And often, I think that a good programm to put me physically in shape would help me to progress in my other projects (but the most often I quit more or less because I’m ashamed to spend so much energy in myself, selfishly, instead of “truly working”).
    So when I learned about your project in last august I was really curious about the way you would manage this, because I kind of understood that you major issue would be the fact that a lot of people wouldn’t understand your point and be aggressive (I’ve also done meditation retreat and I think I understand this kind of revelation you had).
    Your recap is not a big surprise for me : you had to digest the hard part of people reacting to the fact that you wanted to stand your true self, wich was exactly the part you were afraid of, but in the end you feel stronger. I had no doubt that you would succeed on the technical part, because you developped so many tools and knowledge, but how exactly would you go through this emotionnaly?
    So thank you for sharing all of this, you are now more than ever for me a inspiration, helping me (and I hope many more people) to design a path allowing to be congruent in all dimensions.
    Keep going and good luck with the next projects !

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  • Elisa says:

    Hey Cassey! I stopped following you for awhile because I’m a lazy mofo hahaha but recently your post about the 90 Days Journey came up on r/xxfitness, and honestly, the negative reactions of others made me so mad. You know yourself best, and how could others, as viewers who only receive a certain % of you on the internet, know you? You weren’t happy with how you were, so you decided to go through a change, and honestly, I think that’s GREAT. Most importantly, YOU DID IT, and you look FANTASTIC. You also inspired me to try again with better and more disciplined approach that you shared in your Part 1 post, so thank you! Reading Part 2 broke my heart to hear that you felt lost and couldn’t be yourself because you were too afraid to offend anyone, but I’m glad you stuck through your journey and came out stronger and more beautiful. THANK YOU, CASSEY. You’re truly an amazing person.

  • Andy says:

    Thank for sharing all of this!!!!!! This all makes me even more motivated to start my own 90 day journey!!! Thank you for staying strong and firm regardless of the negativity thrown at you! You just proved that you can do ANYTHING!!!!! Keep going Cassey, and keep doing what really makes you happy!! :)

  • Natalia says:

    Yeaaaaaaa at laaast pole dancing is the best!! I came here to encourage you to keep on dancing but this is even better news! :) I’ve been doing it for 2 years and I recommend it to everyone. There’s a lot of pain but there’s a huge reward too. And of course flexibility is a must (that’s where the pain comes). Anyway, I’m so happy for you and for your accomplished journey, Cassey. I’m so happy that you decided to be genuinely you and I hope I’ll still be reading you and feeling close to you in 5, 10, 20 years…!

  • S. says:

    Cassey, you are inspiring and lovely, and I’m glad you got so much from your 90-day journey! I’m sorry to hear about all the negativity thrown your way. I’m glad the positive comments helped to counteract some of it.

    I’ve been doing your workouts for years, and I credit them with keeping me motivated and fit. I can’t thank you enough for all you share. You are a wonderful teacher and person.

    Good luck on your next journey! I’m looking forward to following along!

  • Valerie says:

    Hey! I’ve never commented before, but a book that might be helpful for you to go through is Codependent No More. I recommend it to a lot of my therapy clients, and I just think it’s so helpful to recognize challenges we may face in terms of boundaries and not taking on other people’s negativity when it’s directed at us and they want to make their issue about us when we have a right to be healthier than others around us! Anyway, I really enjoyed following along with your special 90 day journey to fitness! Remember, even though the negative comments sound like they’re about you, they’re really about the people putting the negativity out there in the first place wanting to make you responsible for their issues! I look forward to your next journey!

  • Tricia says:

    Great job Cassey! I’m proud of you for achieving your goals but even prouder of the fact that you fought through the bullying and kept honesty with yourself and us. It’s not easy! I’m also a very sensitive person and am hurt easily. It took me a long time to realize that about myself but now I look at it as a strength. I think you are a mature and strong person and you continue to inspire me! Much love from Missouri!

  • Cassey, thank you for sharing your feelings and thoughts for your 90 day journey. You’re brave for sharing and a great role model for all the young women out there. Honestly, don’t pay any mind to others’ opinions. You need to do what feels right to you and what makes you happy. We’re happy you came out stronger at the end of your 90 day journey! #staypeachy

  • Goku says:

    Thank u for sharing cassey and congrats for achieving
    Would u think about meditation ?
    U could like ..
    U are beautiful strong flexível and fit
    By the way …yamyy I want to eat a vanilla cupcake nów u vê Said ..
    Those one from América must be great ..
    I WANT ONE

  • Fitnessbunny says:

    Hi Cassey,
    I started watching your videos when you started the summer sculpt program I did that program and my goal was by the end to do a split and I accomplished my goal, thanks to you. I still do your workout calander , watch cheap clean eats (I am a vegan) after the summer sculpt program I kept stretching I just today got my middle splits. I am 12 years old and I will keep doing Blogilates workouts and I am going to do the 28 day reset this January.
    Thanks for inspiring me
    May☺

    • Gayatri says:

      Hi Cassey… Thanks for sharing this experience with us, especially the psychological aspects. I totally agree about the ‘body positivity’ part. I had similar issues when I was trying to lose weight – not just for the external appearance, but just because I wanted to feel better about myself and become more healthy. Each time I would make a resolution, people around me would say stuff… And then my journey would come to a halt. I gave way too much importance to what others said than what I felt… And that whole – ‘she’s on a diet’ talk… But once you started your journey – and that too in front of so many people… I was like – wow she’s brave. And reading about your emotions during this made me feel like I wasnt alone… So thanks a lot… I have embarked on my journey too. And this time, I will make sure that only my emotions count 😊 Thanks for your constant inspiration 😍

  • KT says:

    Congrats on all the internal growth and good luck on the new goals! I’m reading a book called Atomic Habits that had a great quote about the difference between a goal and a system, and I think you have a great system in place to reach your goals.

  • lauravlsims says:

    Cassey! I just wanted to say i’ve been following your whole 90 day journey and have really been inspired! I’m really happy that you’re feeling more like yourself and I hope that you can continue to find true and deeper joy as you embark on learning more about yourself! You look great, thanks for all the honesty and motivation! I’m going to miss reading your posts everyday! Also, i’m asking for a fit journal for christmas and i’m so excited!

  • J says:

    Would you share what you’re doing to increase flexibility? I have been working on my flexibility for about 2 months based off of an old one pager I found of your different stretching poses. However, I’d love to follow along on your stretching routine too!

  • I think it’s amazing how far you’ve come since day one! I’ve followed you for awhile for the videos, but up until the 90 day journey I hadn’t paid a lot of attention to the blogging. I’ve followed along every day of this journey and started my own journey because of it. I truly think that you’re inspiring and I love that you focused on what was best for you no matter the backlash you got for it.

    Unfortunately I waited a day too long for the Fit Planner :(…Would you consider doing some short videos throughout your stretching journey? I know you have some videos already to help with flexibility, but it would be neat to follow along and have some additional resources to use.

  • Clare Woodroff says:

    I did a little dance of happiness for you Cassey! and inspired me to order the fit planner too :) I am totally interested in what stretching you have planned because I would love to follow along! :)

  • snater says:

    Cassey I just wanna say you look INSANELY good!! Congratulations, I find this so motivating, and I love the idea of a hyper-focused 90 day challenge to accomplish (or get started on) big goals. Thank you for always being so honest, even when sad people try to knock you down. You’re amazing!!

  • Selman says:

    So proud of you! Congrats on achieving so many wonderful things! ❤

  • Hannah Brown says:

    👏👏👏 so happy for you. I remember the feeling of smashing goals and how good it feels. I bought a planner and want to start my own journey. I can just feel how happy you are through words and I’m excited to feel that too!

  • Brenna says:

    Good luck Cassey! And congrats on finishing your first 90 days!

  • Melissa says:

    To loosen your hips, the frog pose is very powerful! It’s soo painful but will definitely help untighten your hips! Goodluck and have fun ❤️

  • Heidi says:

    Yay for you! I’m looking forward to following the next 90 days and I’m considering my own journey! Thank you for your authenticity. I feel the tone and energy from the early blogilates days!

  • adelroseumi says:

    Dear Cassey, this is why I’ve stuck by you since the first day I discovered your YouTube channel when I was 16. You are genuine and a really rare gem in today’s society, where people still tend to judge based on outer appearance, regardless of any “body positive” movements.

    It takes a lot of courage to be raw, vulnerable and yourself, especially when you’re a public figure and would easily be painted in a negative light by others. I also understand how you are a natural people pleaser; it’s not wrong and completely human. I also relate to how you’re overly empathetic, sensitive and emotionally aware, because I’m exactly like you too, and people like us often end up hurting ourselves. It’s good and there really isn’t anything wrong to take the time and space to let us be ourselves, in our true nature. Sometimes, we need to stop caring and just let ourselves be. I’m sure you were able to learn how to do that better through this 90 day journey. Keep going and keep discovering parts of yourself that are worth keeping, Cassey! (“:

    Although it’s easier said than done, I hope that with more time, you will get stronger and less affected by those negative comments that are thrown at you. I feel that as long as you are your authentic self, people who love you FOR you will stick by, and those who don’t can take the backstage door and leave — they’re not welcome in your life. (-:

    Thank you so much for being such a huge inspiration, and showing the “human” sides of you. No one is perfect, but it takes us more effort to realise that due to social media, as we often only see one side of someone else’s life, and usually the good/perfect side.

    Currently, I’m battling depression with binge eating disorder and have been finding it really hard to find my footing in life… But reading your posts and seeing your ups and downs throughout this 90 day journey has given me the motivation to fight on. It’s going to be tough, but I will find a way. Thank you so much Cassey ♥

  • Anne says:

    Cassey, I’ve been watching you since 2011 when I was at one of the lowest points in my life and it’s weird to verbalise but you really did help. I’ve always loved my body and the size I am, but your exercise routines made me feel… something…after being numb to everything. I’ve always been decently active but, doing your routines injected something I didn’t know I needed. I don’t know you, but I feel like I actually care about you. I wish I could tell you in person how your company just from a YouTube video gave a sad girl in a university flat some laughter and reinvigorated the notion that exercise not only helps you be physically healthy but mentally too. If I didn’t have Blogilates 8 yrs ago…. I think the sadness would have swallowed me up. I realised with so many things that are uncontrollable in life, the one thing I definitely do have control over is my body and how I care for it. So thank you. And well done on your first 90 day challenge <B I bet you'll smash the next!

  • Sadhana N Rao says:

    Cassey, so much love and so proud of your internal transformation. Congratulations!!

  • Bri says:

    “As an overly empathetic, sensitive, and emotionally aware person who is also a natural people pleaser – I’ve got a lot of internal work to do before I can “stop caring.”” This is me to a T. We’re practically identical, personality-wise, and it’s something I’ve been trying to work on too. We’ve got this. <3

    Again: I'm so proud of you. You are a rare gem; you are a wonderful soul; you are enough.

    I can't wait to see where this 90 day journey takes you next! <3

  • carmensmith7955 says:

    Congrats on making your goals!! I’ve really enjoyed reading your daily blogs! Keep being your authentic self Cassey! You’re amazing!!

  • Chiigii says:

    I followed your 90 day journey from day 1 and I’m super proud of you Cassey. You inspired me to create & follow my own 90 day journey and I’m super thankful that you are so honest and open about your progress. Good luck with you next journey. Much love <3

  • Stella says:

    Congrats, Cassey! You inspire me every day.

  • Maryam says:

    You did it Cassey! Congratulations! Thank you so much for inspiring us. And also a big thank you to them haters, for making us stronger :)

  • CFecteau says:

    Hi Cassey,
    I just wanted to tell you on your blog how much I’ve enjoyed reading all of your posts documenting your 90 day journey. I loved how honest and raw you’ve been, sharing your ups and downs with figuring out the foods that worked for you, the workouts that made you happy and how the positive & negative comments have made you feel. You have inspired me so much over the last couple years. You helped me to view my body with love and appreciation instead of hate. You helped me to rediscover the joy in working out that I had lost after years of running and forcing myself to “be in shape.” Pop pilates and PIIT have helped me to tone up in ways that I never thought I could! I plan on getting certified this year because I fell in love with you and your programs so much that I want to spread that joy to others.
    I am so freaking proud of you for achieving the goals you set in the 90 Days! It’s motivated me personally to go out there and attach my goals the way you did in this journey, with a strong why and laser-like focus. My husband and I have followed along with every…single…post, cheering you on! Don’t ever stop being you because you don’t know just how much inspire people like myself and my husband to fight to be the best version of ourselves. I can’t wait to see where your next 90 day journey takes you! And please know that we will continue to cheer you on. You’re amazing!

  • Xochisol says:

    I’m so glad that you feel empowered through this 90 day journey! I’ve been back on track since May and I’ve forgotten how happier I feel seeing how my body changes and I could only imagine that’s how you feel as well!

    I think the hatred directed towards was based on the time that you’ve been a public figure. We’ve seen how the fitness industry and the body positively movement changed in that time. You’ve even mentioned at one of your videos that butts became the new boobs at some point! It was all ranged from different workout regimes to diets to even wearing corsets during workout(?!?) You’ve just happened to be a big figure in all of this madness that many did not know how to react to someone who doesn’t look like a Jillian Michaels (no hate on her- love her).

    Also, Youtube is a very big platform with various types of people clicking on YouTube videos. Your blog is where popstars want to see you as is and not just some cookie cutter YouTuber, maybe your real support is in here rather than other social media platforms.

  • Greta Li says:

    Great job Cassey!! I read all your blog posts when you wrote them and enjoyed reading your updates :) Thank you for being an encouragement and showing yourself :D

  • Carolina says:

    Hey Cassey,

    I Iove your content and products, and admire your creativity and determination. I think you’re intelligent, hardworking, and very creative. I’m going to give my opinion on some of the comments others have been making about you below. So sometimes you say (on instagram) that you love eating unhealthy junk food (pizza, tacos, ice cream, etc) and not caring about it. But you also love eating clean and discipline. I guess you just had different views at different times. And since you are a public figure and constantly posting your beliefs, what you felt before doesn’t equate to what you feel now. I think if people’s negative comments are affecting you that much, then maybe she should just disclose your goals to your close friends so they can help you be accountable? But I love reading everything you share and I know a ton of others do too. A lot of people who are not public figures have other ways of keeping themselves accountable. Additionally, you said that according to genetic tests, you’re more likely to gain weight (compared to your sister, for example). According to this journey, it seems like you were able to lose weight quickly. In the beginning when you were eating a high fat diet including a lot of nuts and dairy, it made sense that you struggled to lose weight. But once you decreased your caloric intake and fat intake, you were able to shed the weight fast. So compared to some people who really struggle to lose weight due to genetic issues, I think you don’t have to worry about this! Furthermore, I think that the scale does contribute to your happiness (which is fine!) Your goal included seeing the # drop on the scale significantly, and you felt happy surpassing that goal. You have always talked about how the scale should not affect a person’s worth, but I feel like the scale still affects your happiness to a certain degree, which is true for a lot of people. It really shows that you are more confident at her new weight in your pictures! Good luck on your next 90 day journey and I will continue to support you and read your content!

  • Kathleen says:

    Just got my Journal! I have been following you for many years and am so happy for you! I need to work on flexibility too so I will join you for the next 90 day journey! ;)

  • This is truly amazing. I’ve stayed off social media for the past year as well as stopped working for myself because everyone seemed so fake I felt so lost in the world. I thought no one wants my thoughts anyway, they’re different than what’s popular right now, so I might as well work for other people instead. Your 90-day journey was so inspiring for me. I felt like I could have written it myself, like those were my words bc I so resonated with your struggles. I used to think you were one of those fake-perfect fitness/health accounts and I never took you seriously. Now I know why. you were holding back and now that you’re not, you’ve inspired me to do the same! Thanks for being true even in the face of social adversity. It’s appreciated more than you can know!

  • erica.popster says:

    Hi Cassey. Your journey has been incredibly inspiring and interesting to follow. And your body changes are amazing after your 90-day journey. You looked great before, but now you look even better. And it’s inspired me to finally get a grip on my own eating and exercising issues, because seeing what you’ve achieved in 90 days has made me realise that I just need to give my body a little time to adjust too, and not expect immediate improvements after one day’s clean eating and exercising :-) Regarding all the negativity that’s been directed at you – I feel sad that the side-effect of being on social media and ‘putting yourself out there’ is that so much pressure is put on you by people who expect you to fulfil their needs. But you must focus on yourself and your health and happiness first, and not become a ‘vanilla cupcake’ with no opinion. The most offensive comments come from people who should sort out their own issues instead of criticising you from the safety of social media. If I were you, I would have someone else monitor comments, and ‘aggregate’ them for you so you can still keep your finger on the pulse of what works and what doesn’t for your followers. It’s just not worth it taking on all that negativity – the world is full of it. Finally – love your work! You inspire me and many others daily, so you just keep doing you x PS would love to see you in South Africa!

  • Esther says:

    From the first time came across your YouTube videos I was so impressed with you. Your passion, your authenticity, your down to earth real ness in all you do, sharing parts of your story with us… I loved that you were so willing to be real and love what you do so much. Thank you. Watching you journey through the last 90 days, you have challenged me again by your willingness to truly run hard after what you’re passionate about and what you love, no matter how hard. You’ve challenged me to be more bold in my self love and passions. Thank you Cassey, so very much 💕

  • Miranda says:

    I’m gonna join you! In 90 day I wanna be able too do the splits and the crow. (with both feet in the air) P.S. I love following your 90 days journey(s)

  • Marcelia says:

    Cassey, YOU are amazing. I applaud you for your dedication and perseverance. I am sooo proud of you.

  • Rach says:

    The way you felt after your 90 day journey is exactly the way I felt after a did your 90 day challenge almost five years ago. I have not looked back since so go you!!

  • Taryn says:

    I cant even describe how much I have been loving these posts! I think that it is so refreshing that you are making this statement. Its honest and real. The world needs way more of that. We have enough vanilla cupcakes!

    Also…I saw ABS in the mirror this morning because your 90 day challenge motivated me to start doing your videos again. Ok, like the faintest hint of abs but still… WHAAAT. I am so excited for your part 2 because I’m sure that will mean some awesome new stretching and flexibility videos are coming up!

    You are a kick ass woman. This message is the one that will be your legacy: Do what you know is right for you-dont let others opinion control you. THAT is the message I would want my little sister to learn. THAT is the message the world needs.
    I have never been a bigger fan. <3

  • T_Ray892 says:

    I’ve actually been following you almost since the beginning. I found you on youtube and knew instantly I liked the energy you brought to your videos and I wanted to follow along. I signed up for Blogilates and really got into fitness for the first time. I fell off that wagon a number of times (more than I can count at this point), but every time I’ve been inspired to get back to it and refocus, it has been with you! About 9 months ago I left a long time job for a new opportunity and realized how stuck I had been. I was fed-up with how I felt every day, how I looked, and how little my life reflected what I actually wanted. I decided to make a lot of changes, one of which was getting refocused on my body and health. Where did I go? I “wasted” a bunch of time following along with a program that wasn’t bringing me any joy. I don’t think it was all a loss because obviously I learned something from the program, even if it was mostly that it wasn’t at all my style. Once again, I turned to your energy and positivity, and I am thrilled! your 90 journey started right about when I realized what I was doing wasn’t working for me. I love that I got to follow along your journey as I was embarking on a similar change. I ordered my 2020 fit planner and I’m so excited to continue working on my goals and tracking my progress with you! I’m so glad you’re pushing past the negative comments and being more authentic to yourself! This community has been pivotal to my journey and I am so thankful! Keep doing you please!

  • amoeba97 says:

    Yay!
    I started a 45 day journey with your motivation and my desire to stretch more. The first week went great but then I went away to check my dad’s grave sight and I came home sick. I’m still sick and haven’t worked out or even stretched for 2 weeks. I’m so excited you want to be more stretchy too. Please share share share!

  • celestinetrt says:

    So proud of you once again, and may be even more for this aspect because feeling good about ourselves and our bodies is sometimes the hardest part of any journey !! Also, I’m glad you have this new goal because they’re mine too, i’m doing the 30 days to split you created and try to found my lost flexibility (I took dancing lessons during 10 years in my youth but i lost a lot !!). So excited to see that so I can be inspired to join you in the middle split, etc ! Kisses from France :*

  • F says:

    I’ve hesitated making this comment till now because I haven’t wanted to share my own issues around body image and food so publicly. In a lot of ways I get where you’re coming from about posting online being terrifying because of how people may interpret it (I’ve been following you 6 years and I’ve n e v e r commented on anything) so having empathy for what made you that vanilla cupcake I felt it was important to share my own view on the whole relationship between you sharing numbers and eating disorders.

    I was able to overcome disordered eating, but the thing is I basically did it on my own because I had a lot worse things going on at the time to deal with, so while on paper my eating looked normal again, I still was getting a horrible feeling of disgust whenever I looked at my body. I also have weight that fluctuates wildly (like 30lbs up or down for No Reason) combine this with the fact that any attempts at getting healthier had to be dropped almost immediately because they made me veer back into unsafe territory I felt completely out of control of my body and that made the shame about how I looked so much worse.

    Your blog, and how you approach numbers as data points and nothing else has helped me reframe diet and fitness so I can look at the numbers on the scale again (the scale often kept me from going to the doctor because I knew they’d weigh me which no one can argue is healthy) Your blog has helped me find joy in movement as an act of self care instead of a way to punish my body for the food I ate. I’m able now to focus on making healthy balanced meals without suddenly snowballing into eating nothing at all, I’m able to go to the gym to strengthen my body and heart without feeling guilty when I’d rather take a day to rest. I can make a couple healthy swaps a day without feeling compelled to be perfect. I know my limitations and know some things still aren’t safe for me, but your blog makes me feel empowered to continue the work I’ve started in a healthy way.

    In short your blog and a huge dose of self compassion has made me so much more able to appreciate my softness when my weight is up because I know I have the tools to control my health.

    The whole reason people get eating disorders is giving too much meaning to numbers and the image in the mirror, by avoiding them like the plague we only reinforce those ideas. So thank you for giving me a healthy model of a relationship with those numbers and for teaching me I can love my body completely, while still working towards a different figure <3

  • Jeannine Lee says:

    Bravo! So happy for you and your personal growth. Flexibility is huge for me. I am SOOOO stiff in my joints. (I blame my mom ;) ) At 59, I started stretching 4-5 days a week to help reoccurring back issues. Almost 2 years later, I’m still at it and the progress is there, yet still not where I’d like it. But, my back issues are minimal. So will enjoy watching this next journey and see if I can pick up some pointers on the way (BTW…I do your Saturday Stretch video regularly…love it). Take care.

  • Anisha says:

    Hi Casey!

    Thank you for being so honest about your journey. I definitely could relate to the way you felt about people’s opinions- I am also an empath. I don’t think I would be able to cope if I was in the public eye, the way you are. I think you are amazing and well done on accomplishing your goals. It is certainly more than just the goals, which a lot of people did not understand. You explained it so eloquently.
    Also, remember that the real ones will stay. I’ve been following you on social media since the beginning. I’ve seen you develop from that first video, beginners Pilates, I think it’s called, which, to be honest, had a bit of an echo 😋, to developing your own app and then launching your own brand: Popflex.
    I’ll be cheering you on as you embark on your next challenge.

    Die- hard Popster
    Anisha

  • phvermilion says:

    I’m so proud of you! I think the most encouraging part about this (aside from you accomplishing your goals and getting past all that negativity! Go you!) Is that you’re not taking a break. And that just proves that you were on a journey to improve long term, not just for minor gains. I love that now that you’ve finished these goals, you’re on to your next. I had set a 4 month goal, and it is almost down to 3 months away now, so I got a fitness planner to help me drive this home!

  • Faith C says:

    I love that you call yourself an “overachiever at eating”! That is such a better way to talk to yourself about that, opposed to the other negative descriptive terms you could use. I would also categorize myself as an “overachiever at eating” and I think I’ll adopt that phrase! I’ve learned that paying attention to macros helps my portion control because it actually kills my hunger. If I’ve had just carbs all day, I will keep eating until I eat the protein or fat my body needs and wants. But I do find it difficult to track macros, maybe you could give us some tips in a blog post.

    • Clair Couper says:

      Yes to the overachiever at eating part! I am an overachiever at eating and an undereachiever at moving :P Just ordered my 90 day journal so I can try to reduce the negative impact of both combined.

  • Cassey! I’ve been on a 90-day journey through flexibility myself, only I hadn’t really tracked and I was doing it from a place where I wasn’t blocking every single day. Over the summer, I lost my job and I felt incredibly lonely, incredibly lost, and just not good. With all the spare time, I dedicated 60-90 minutes of evening stretching a day and I’ve never been so yogically fit and flexible in my LIFE!

    That summer was incredible.

    May I suggest Yogaglo for devising a yoga plan to get you to all your goals?

  • Gina says:

    Cassey, I’ve been following you for a few years now and it’s been so awesome to see you grow these past few months, it’s like watching a friend blossom and focus on her own happiness and it’s obvious that you’re happier! I’m sure the majority of us as your followers are tremendously proud of you and ecstatic that you’ve reached what you’ve set out to do! Thanks for always being so open with us all despite the negative criticism you get from others. We really appreciate you. Keep going, we’ll always be here to support you :)

  • Deanna Lisovich says:

    I ordered my journal and have already got a shipping notice. This will be my second 12 week journal. I have the very first one that I am using now. I am so happy for you and can’t wait to see what the next 90 days brings you. I hope you’ll keep us updated on this journey as well. This is your page and your thoughts and opinions. I value your thoughts and opinions. I am grateful to my sister for introducing me to blogilates and you.

  • Katia says:

    Hey Cassey,
    You should be so proud of yourself, not only for going through this 90days fitness journey but even more so for the beautiful transformation you created inside of yourself. You’re tough and resilient and you looked at the not-so-pretty truth of today’s virtual world and came out stronger.
    Haters are gonna hate, but it won’t stop you kicking asses. Hope one day I’ll be as strong as you, inside and out.
    All the best for your next endeavour :)

  • Nancy Mng says:

    It is so important to understand how much of your power you hand over to other people, when you consider their opinions so much! We are such a diverse lot that it’s impossible to have everyone pleased. I am proud of you for coming thus far as to realise this simple truth: You are who you are and along with you will come those who share your views or, at least, can tolerate them. The important thing is for you to be at peace with who you are and realise that those who hate are troubled souls, facing their own demons. You brought a smile on my face when you wrote:” I hope you found the love you needed to heal yourself”! That’s so true! Way to go!

  • Annie says:

    Love you, Cassey! Thank you for sharing these raw, open thoughts…I have loved following along with your 90 Day Journey and look forward to the next! You’re so inspiring and uplifting!

  • blakeleepaige says:

    My opinion on losing followers…. if they’re unfollowing you and being hateful, those aren’t the followers you wanted anyways, right? The blogilates community is all about building h women up and supporting one another! That’s the people you want following you!

    And the flexibility journey, this was going to be my New Years resolution! So I may just start now with you! I would love if you would keep us posted on what stretches you do daily!

  • Rebecca Jo says:

    This is what blogging should be about.. sharing your thoughts & opinions on YOUR blog! We do live in a world where people love to be offended & think their opinion is the only one… so good for you taking this next step in the challenge. You are inspiring me!

  • Pao says:

    Thanks Cassey! I loved following your journey! And I’m really really proud of you! You’ve inspired me to start my own journey! <3

  • Ashley says:

    Hey Cassey,
    Though I was not in love with the idea of the 90 day journey at first (out of concern, given your history with disordered eating), I have hung around and supported you from afar despite my doubts. :)

    However, I would really like to know what you plan to do with regards to your food intake because I think that is also important for your health. Now that you have reached your goal, will you slowly increase your food intake again to something more sustainable where you won’t continue to lose? Will you allow yourself to eat intuitively now that you have this base knowledge, or are you going to continue tracking everything you eat? I would be a little concerned if you continued to eat low calorie and track.

    Best wishes and glad you have experienced positive transformations! Pole classes are sooo fun and such a great confidence booster too :) I have never tried a heels class but it looks fantastic also.

    • Evelyn says:

      Hi Ashley :),
      My fitness pal gives you a calculated caloric intake per day and it depends on the person. I think for Cassey’s body, her calorie intake is just right if she feels fine. For example, my caloric intake on the app is 1,240 and most days I can barely reach 1,100 calories but I feel completely fine and don’t feel the need to overeat just to reach my calorie goal.

      It’s nice that you’re concerned about her, but she is ultimately an adult and doesn’t need the internet to advise her how her lifestyle should be :)

      • Ashley says:

        Hi Evelyn,
        Well aware of how myfitnesspal works and how caloric intake works. If she is losing at her current intake (which she showed on her charts) my question was how she plans to move forward with that – in order to not lose more weight, she would need to increase her intake.

        I am not advising, just asking a legitimate question and expressing valid concern. I definitely did not feel like my comment was in any way rude or out of line.

  • Susanna says:

    Congrats Cassey on making it through! I will admit to being a little worried when I saw your starting posts, for many of the reasons you mention here, but your honesty throughout has been very refreshing and inspiring. I started a kind of 90 day journey of my own on the 3rd of November, with just one aim: To get through three Blogilates workout calendars! I’m in week three of the beginner’s calendar, and then the Dec and Jan calendars will take me to 90 days. I’m already feeling much more energetic and healthy than before and looking forward to a much healthier 2020! Thanks so much for everything you do. X

  • Jaz says:

    Omg Cassey I’m so proud of your accomplishments and how happy you are with yourself now :) I’m actually a quiet follower, like I never comment on anything lol. But, I felt compelled to tell you that I have followed your entire 90 day journey and it has also inspired me to check myself as well. As of now I’ve lost over 12lbs healthily, and even though it’s taken longer than 90 days, it’s still an accomplishment. I’ve also learned to stop letting numbers and scales effect me and you’ve been so influential in my decision to track myself as well. I feel so much lighter and energetic, and not like I’m starving either! I can’t wait to see this next journey of yours cuz it has ALWAYS been a dream of mine to be flexible as well!! We’re actually the same age and like you, I’ve worked out basically my whole life and so my body is super tight. I’m a bit flexible now thanks to you but I would LOVE IT if you provided daily stretch guides so I can track my progress as well. Love you girl, and always stay your authentic self :)

  • Great job! I need to learn to cut back I no my calories but have not found the right foods to satisfy me. I personally love your always positive attitude.

  • Faye says:

    I find it staggering to hear how rude and mean-spirited people can be. Like it or don’t like it – whatever. But no-one needs to be rude. I keep following you because you are real and inspirational. I can pick and choose what I want to take from your website. I don’t have to agree with everything you do – and that’s ok. And for the record, I like vanilla cupcakes! So be vanilla or chocolate or whatever. Everyone just needs to get over it!!! Thanks for hanging in there! I wish I was more like you!

  • Lorena Carrillo says:

    Congratulations Cassey you are truly an inspiration to me . I decided to start my 90 day journey as well. I will do it for me for my body because I want to be in my best version internally and physically and love the process.

  • Torie says:

    First off, Congratulations!!! The way you can deal with all the negative and skepticism coming you way has really motivated me. 💕Secondly, can you share with us your stretching journey to help us out too! prettyy pleasse🧁🍒

  • hlmitchell says:

    “If you are willing to look at another person’s behavior toward you as a reflection of the state of their relationship with themselves rather than a statement about your value as a person, then you will, over a period of time cease to react at all.” – Yogi Bhajan

    I’m proud of you for not letting the hate stop you from being your true self. Their nastiness is only a reflection of themselves and not a reflection of you. Congratulations! <3

  • Sarah Douglas says:

    I’m so proud of you!!!!

  • Ro says:

    Dear Cassie,

    Firstly, I think it’s very brave, honest and, actually, *responsible* of you to have explicitly taken charge of improving your own mental and physical health in the way that seems right to *you*, as your are now. As someone who has always been relatively lean – compared to the current average, anyway – and has been fit-shamed since I was a teenager, sooo many of the things you said have hit home, and I decided to stop lurking and say something, because honesty and integrity deserves to be supported. I completely understand and sympathise with the fear that saying anything at all about any kind of body or fitness goal will immediately cause uproar. I’ve been there, done that (on the tiny friendship-group scale) and watched the carnage unfold. It never seems to matter if you preface whatever you’re going to say with a disclaimer that what you’re doing is for you, and about you, and *only applies to you, yourself, personally*. It’s human negative bias at its finest.

    Stay strong, and stay true to yourself. Remember that negative comments come from a vocal minority. Most people, if they don’t like what you’re putting out, are able to simply click away, or even hit *dislike* without feeling the need to voice their personal feelings on the matter. And the vast majority of people simply watch the content if they enjoy it, or find it useful, and don’t watch it if they don’t.

    I wish you the best of luck on your journey :)

    • Ro says:

      Apologies. *Cassey*. My autocorrect got me at the last moment :/

  • Tara says:

    The middle splits is my goal too!! Please share how you’re going to achieve that goal so we can try to do it with you!!

  • Grace says:

    I’m a little sad that the 90 Day Journey is over because I’ve looked forward to reading these posts everyday! These blog posts have been so inspiring and motivating for me and I can’t even begin to describe how much respect I have for you for continuing to blog your honest thoughts the entire way through. People love to preach about how you should always be trying to be a better person than you were yesterday but then get mad when you actually accomplish it 🤷🏼‍♀️ You should be so proud of yourself, sending only love ❤️❤️❤️

  • Harsha says:

    You’ve inspired me to start my own 90 day journey to a fit and healthy self with lots of self love.
    Instead of losing weight, my objective is to actually stick to a plan and get disciplined. I am not unfit but I have a serious problem with sticking to schedules and plans and I feel I am always stuck at the beginning and hence don’t grow enough. I’ve been doing blogilates for over 3 years but very irregularly and erratically so I’ve not advanced to any particular level. Hence, my aim is to continuously exercise and grow in my practice!!! Thank you for inspiring this! Please do post updates about your next 90 day journey to keep the motivation going!

  • Katie S says:

    I don’t know how you find the willpower to keep going and overcome all the negativity. You are amazingly strong inside and out and I hope you keep going on this path you’ve cut for yourself. Staying true to yourself is so important for people. <3 Excellent job!!! <3 <3

  • Alzbeta says:

    Sooo proud of you! Well done and good luck with flexibility, I love that idea! You are one of my best friends even though we never met – that is not sad, it is just that people like you are super difficult to find :) I loved getting to know you through your journey and over those last three months, you helped me become a better version of myself, ’cause if you can, I damn can, too!!! Xoxo ;)

  • Ivana says:

    yay congratulations!!! So proud of how you kept going, even though it must have been one of the hardest things you’ve ever had to do with that kind of backlash. Also my compliments for your grace in dealing with this. You’re a true rolemodel by staying true to yourself. All the love and hug for you! Looking forward to reading more about the 2nd 90. You got this girl❤️

  • Dre says:

    You should try aerial arts, since you’re so flexy! It’s dance, but to really get good at all the pretty shapes and moves you need strength AND flexibility.
    Excited to follow your new 90 day journey, my own goals are a split, king dancer, and a scorpion.
    I thought the 12 week journal was the same as the2020 planner, but shorter. can anyone who has used both confirm?

  • Michelle says:

    Love you Cassie! I find you to be one of the most real trainers on the internet! I appreciate your honestly and willingness to share. Keep being you!

  • Joo says:

    Sometimes I long for the years when internet was just getting out there. The times were at home you are safe because haters and negativity couldn’t reach you. Now it can reach you 24/7 and it has made the world change so much!! I’m also empathic and emtional but I build me an armor. It doesn’t allways work, but being rational helps a lot. That and becoming 30. My brain maturing was a safe for me!!
    Glad for you that found your safe on your own and altough everything kept going. It’s strength and it gives all those supernegatives a big BOEYA in the face which they deserve!!

  • Susanne says:

    I am so proud of you!!! I have always been in awe of you, thinking uou’re This confident person that can deal with everything without breaking a sweat. Then I read every single post of your journey and I am so moved! Sharing insecurities takes so much strength! Wow! And by the way, you look hot right now (I hope this diesn’t Sound creepy or as if you hadn’t been pretty before…)
    Love

  • Ivy says:

    Can we get 30 days of arm challenge next?!

  • LisaZ19 says:

    You look amazing! Flexibility is something I need to work on too! I’d love to hear what exercises you will be doing! Thank you for being so real and authentic! I’m so glad I listen to the interview you did with Rebecca Louise and started following you! Good luck on your next 90!

    • Momof3 says:

      I’d love to follow your stretching journey. I have tried so hard to be more flexible but it is so hard to dedicate the time as a mom of 3. If you could keep up updated on your stretching routine, that would be amazing. Congratulations on your 90 day journey. I’m sorry so many people tore you down. There is so much hate in this world, it makes me so sad. We should be happy for one another always. Thank you for your openness and being so raw and real in your journey. I’d like to think that most people were genuinely happy for you. Stay strong in who you know you are. The people on the internet have no idea how you are as a person, friend, and spouse. ❤️

  • Eni says:

    So emotional! ^_^ Thank you Cassey for sharing your thoughts and feelings so honestly. I was following your blog on the 90 days journey, and it has been always very exicting and inspirational. Keep up being you and having this driving force towards improvement. Sending you a big hug <3

  • Renda says:

    Cassey, you are truely a trooper. I am so happy for you that you’ve reached your goals in spite of all the negativity. I found your channel about 8 years ago and I want to thank you for being my fitness trainer for all these years and for still being here making fitness videos today. I can’t even imagine how hard it must have been at times, being in the public eye like that.
    I’m so sorry that troughout this 90 day journey, you had to face such harsh and hateful words from people who don’t even know you. But you made it through. I admire your strength.

    P.S. That purple top is SO cute, I need it in my life x

  • Olivia says:

    Cassey, this post really inspired me in a way that I don’t feel anyone has done for me in a while! Thank you for having the courage to be so authentically yourself in the last 90 days (and for continuing to do so into the future!). You have been a massive inspiration for me physically over the last 7 years. You’ve inspired me in the past to ditch my absolute self-loathing of my physical appearance, and now I feel so inspired to try to be a little more authentic to myself each day. Much love ❤️

  • Diane says:

    YAY Cassey ! So happy you feel happy and healthy, and you found yourself back :) you look amazing too ! I am very happy you will keep blogging and you chose flexibiliy ! I want to improve mine too, especially the middle split. Also love that you want to do take pole classes ! I started in February and I love it ! I hope to see some Popflex outfits for pole dancing in the future hehe ;) like more crop tops and some high waisted shorts maybe ?

  • Hanna says:

    Dear Cassey,

    I’m really happy that you’re happy. I want you to know, even as a person who haven’t agreed with you on a lot during this journey, I’m still happy for you. Even though I see problematic parts of this journey I understand your reasons. I hope you will be able to keep this happy version of yourself.

    It’s hard being a person who have high demands on herself/himself. I think you are that kind of person. I can’t say I know of course. I’m not going to tell you who you are. But that’s my perception of you. You want to be able to do everything and you have high demands on how you want your life to be. Maybe that works for some people, but I think it’s a big reason why a lot of people are unhappy. That’s one reason why this journey made me worried. I’m scared that you will be unhappy if you can’t keep it up. I hope you will find that perfect middle-way. Where you have goals and demands, but don’t take it to hard when you can’t keep up with all of them.

    Another problem I’ve had with you is that there is no consistency in your videos/blogposts. What I mean is that you seem to sometimes contradict yourself. Being a follower off and on from the start I’ve noticed this. I understand that people change. And that’s probably the case with you. You change your mind about things. I’ve just felt like I needed you to address it. Because it makes me confused. It feels like during the parts when you’ve “eaten more freely” you’ve made posts about not feeling guilty eating unhealthy food and how that makes you happy. And then two months later you tell your followers that you’re not happy with the way you live and that you need a change. It makes me think that sometimes you’re not completely honest with yourself or your followers. But maybe that’s a part of the “not being my true self-reason”?

    I get really sad thinking about you reading my criticisms and crying. I really do hope that you see that I’m not trying to make you sad. I’ve just felt like I had to express what I’ve felt in all of this. My biggest problem have been the influencing of young girls. I’m just so fed up with how society makes young girls hate their bodies. The fitness industry is a part of it. I think it’s so important, as a fitness instructor and influencer, to think about how you’re affecting young girls. Sometimes you’re awesome at it and sometimes you’re not. This 90 day journey was good in the way of it being a healthy way of loosing weight and eating better. But it was also problematic in a lot of ways. The focus on weight (I know why you use numbers, but is it really good for our society?), the pictures, calorie counting and some of the ways you’ve expressed yourself…

    And you can’t say that because it only affects people with eating disorders or body issues it’s okey because these people don’t have to watch. Almost every young girl have some kind of body issue. All of my friends had bad relationships with food when they were younger. And not all people with body issues will choose to not watch. I would say that it’s probably the people fixated with weight and measurements that WILL watch those numbers.

    I’m really happy to hear that you read your comments to face reality and that you don’t want to be ignorant. I think you’re an awesome person even though I see some problematic parts of you. Who is not problematic these days? All we can do is try to be better.

    • Renda says:

      I think you are absolutely entitled to have an opinion about this, but some of the things you are mentioning are really beyond Cassey’s responsibility, in my opinion. I feel for those who struggle with body issues. But if sensitive matters like numbers work for Cassey and she wants to post about it (because as she mentioned het blog is like a fitness diary to her) she is entitled to do so. I get the issue of sensitive (young) followers, but she’s not their parent. I think it’s up to these followers (or their parents) to review whether or not folllwing Cassey is healthy for them, rather than it being Cassey’s responsibility to change her content.

      • Hanna says:

        I see your point, but as an influencer I think it is your responsibility. I know Cassey doesn’t like being an influencer, but she can’t escape it. The issue I’m talking about though is bigger than Cassey. She is just one small part of it. I’m not saying she has to listen to me, but I really do want to express my concerns.

        • Mel says:

          It’s people like you who don’t get it — you cannot pin down all the problems of an industry on ONE person. In fact, that is why Cassey did this entire challenge. To prove a point: you are not responsible for other people’s lives and decisions. You can only do what is best for YOU.

          • Hanna says:

            I do not blame Cassey for the problem. Did you read my comment? But she is part of the industry. If no one takes responsibility nothing will change.

    • lg says:

      “I get really sad thinking about you reading my criticisms and crying” – hear’s a thought – don’t comment, don’t criticise, unfollow.

      • Hanna says:

        I comment because I care. I don’t unfollow because I still like her. I don’t have to agree with everything she does to follow her and I should express my opinions if I find something problematic. She says she doesn’t want to be ignorant or blissful. If everyone following her only tells her the good that’s what she will become.

    • Cecile says:

      I don’t get what is so hard about recognising that different times in your life call for different approaches. Some months I focus really hard on my career, and others I want to make more space to prioritise leisure and relaxation. Some months I’m more frivolous in my spending and treat myself to meals out and new clothes, others I focus on savings and being frugal. It’s the same with food. I don’t feel BAD about eating unhealthy things or indulging in large quantities of cheese, but I recognise that I need balance. After some “free eating” weeks, I naturally move back to lots of veggies, healthy eating and exercise. Also, I can not feel guilt eating unhealthy food… and STILL recognise I want to change things in the future.

      • Renda says:

        I see. Well, although we disagree on this matter, I do like that you at least try to express your concerns in a respectful manner. I feel like some of the response you’re getting is a bit harsh.

  • Rebeca says:

    Incredible! This motivated to start my own 90 days journey! Not only for improved flexibility and becoming stronger, but also because I would like to be more mindful of what food I eat, what is nourishing, what works for me and my lifestyle, how to eat in moderation (I have such a sweet tooth and I found myself eating things out of habit or when bored).

  • manacchi says:

    I wouldn’t be doing my 90day journey now if you wouldn’t have started it yet. So thank you!
    I encountered one of your youtube videos a few years ago and back then I did zero exercises a week and had drinks a lot when I got stressed. Things turned around completely since then. Now I’m a POP army :) You literally changed a course of my life! Couldn’t thank more.

  • Jody says:

    This is incredible, Casey. The road to authenticity is not easy. But you have achieved it and you have found a sense of bravery and grace toward others, despite all the comments. I’m so proud of you and so honored to have followed you all these years. Continue striving for that personal growth. Continue to be YOU. Always cheering you on!

  • sharontototo says:

    Following your journey has been SO inspirational and heartwarming!! Thank you for putting yourself out there and staying true to yourself throughout this whole ordeal to show everyone what it’s like to do something for yourself and not for anyone else. It still makes my blood boil that people could be so terrible to you for just doing what makes you happy, but I’m very happy for you that you were able to work through their negativity and that you had an amazing support system by your side. Even just reading your blogs has got me starting to make small changes in my lifestyle so that I could be happier and healthier by incorporating the way you consider your food, portions, workouts, and just your whole self into my own daily life. I’m not quite ready to start a 90 day journey like you did, but I think I will incrementally work my way there. Thank you soso much, Cassey! Wishing you all the luck on your next 90 days!!

  • Floraski says:

    I’m so happy to read about how good this has been for you! Also, does this mean you’ll keep blogging daily? I love your blogs, they are always not just inspirational and motivating but also just a genuine good read. Can’t wait to see what the next 90 days will bring you. <3

  • Monisha says:

    Hey Cassey,

    I really loved reading about your journey. I will try setting goals for myself on paper and sticking to them. I always have big plans but the day to day life gets in the way. But I will give it a go.

  • Laura says:

    Love that you’re going on another 90 days journey. And it’s for flexibility! Please provide guides and videos for this journey, because I am also working on the middle split. It’d be awesome to go on this journey together!

  • lizzygc says:

    So excited about your next 90 day journey and SO proud of you for sticking with this one! You should be proud of yourself. Really excited to hear how you increase your flexibility! I’d love to join in on this one!

  • Noor says:

    Congrats on your 90 day journey! I can understand why you’ll be continuing your high heel dance classes; they look like so much fun!
    I’m super curious to your flexibility 90 days, and what I can learn from you this time!
    Good luck!
    Xo Noor

  • Diana says:

    This has been an amazing journey. I have gotten a lot of inspiration from you. A lot of it stemming from your experience with other’s opinions and how you respond to it. I also struggle with caring what people think and not wanting to offend people. And I admire the people that are able to live their lives authentically, not caring what others think regardless of whether they receive backlash or not. I would really like to get to that place some day and I will definitely work towards it. I still think you should get a moderator to prescreen your comments because there are some really negative ones that have no value whatsoever and just spread negativity, which is really bad for your psyche. I’m not talking about the constructive criticism comments that actually have something valuable to say but the ones that are just plain rude and mean for no reason other than for the person commenting to get some type of validation. These comments say more about them than about you. I won’t try to make this too much longer but I look forward to following the next phase in your journey.

  • Silvia says:

    Yay, flexibility journey!! I’m so into it! And I’m not flexible at all lol, I’m still on my way to front splits but I promise to be more consistent in my workout routine :)

  • Melissa Tremblay says:

    Hi Cassey! I followed your 90 day journey, reading your blog posts, and I am amazed by your dedication! Some things were so hard for you, but you kept working toward your goal, and there you are :) Congratulations and big kisses xxx

  • angmerritt says:

    Cassey, I have been reading your blogs and am so glad you are going to continue! Since I have been reading, I have also been exploring your website and seeing all the things you do, from the PIIT 28 program to POP Pilates, to Popflex active, you tube, blogging, etc. How do you do it all? You don’t talk about your work much…I’d love to know more about how you manage all these different businesses. Like which takes up most of your time? Do you still choreograph for POP Pilates? How do you design new workout wear?
    On another note, we don’t have any heels classes or POP Pilates here in Spokane (POP Pilates seems sort of dancy, too?). You mentioned maybe going from heels to pole? Is Pole super hard? We have two Pole places. I’d love to try try something that involves dance.
    I’m so glad you are continuing your journey! Just ordered my Fit Planner 😀

  • Melissa says:

    I love your next 90day challenge. I have always wanted to get more flexible in my stretching. The splits are my ultimate goal. I want to get there by the summer for the retreat. Wish me luck💖

  • Honey says:

    I was hesitant at first about your journey because I thought you might be doing it because you were caving in to pressure. But after seeing you complete the journey with such dedication and love for yourself, I understand your purpose. You inspired me to get into exercise for myself (and find joy in it!) and now you’ve done it a second time (been sluggish with 0 exercise here in med school). Thanks for carrying on and inspiring us all Cassey! Going to get the planner and start my own journey!

  • Sarah says:

    I hope your stretch journey will inspire you to create a similar 90 day stretch journey for POPsters. I’d love to follow a flexibility plan!

  • Thank you for sharing your journey with us and congratulations on the transformation! ♥️ Random suggestion: have you tried Kaisa’s Mobility One?? It opens up your hips so much and it’s like seriously awesome!! Anyway. I am someone who is sensitive to the opinions and judgement of others as well so I can totally relate. I still struggle with it sometimes and I try to make peace with the fact that me being sensitive also brought me a lot of “big little joys” that people who are perhaps “not as sensitive” aren’t able to experience. And I want to start my own YouTube channel soon and start posting a lot of personal development stuff, and I know that whenever I struggle with difficult conversations online or via social media, I will always remember your courage and remain motivated to keep going. Thank you again for baring your heart and soul with us, Cassey ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

  • Macy says:

    I’m so happy for you and that you finished your 90 day journey. I love how real and raw you have been through your blogging. I haven’t gone on a 90 day journey, but life has been rough since May. My husband and I split, I moved out, I’ve had job changes, I’ve lost other friends and relationships because of the split, and I’ve just gone down some dark paths. I’m actually a pop instructor and I cancelled classes for 3 months in the summer because I couldn’t stand the thought of trying to be a happy, bubbly instructor when I was not feeling those things inside. So when you started blogging about how you overcome things and that’s people still affect you and that you’re a people pleaser, I felt that. I’ve tried to not feel guilty through all of my situations, but it’s hard. I had to do this for me. Some people understand and support me, and others don’t. That’s just how it’s going to be. But to the people that don’t understand and want to throw mean words, “I hope you find the love to heal yourself.” I love that. Thank you for being raw, real, and going back to your true self. It’s always hard to not let other people get in the way. I plan on starting my own type of journey soon. I’ve been stress/depressed eating. I stopped exercising as much. Life got messy. But thank you for being the inspiration you always have been and I know that you will continue to be. I hope you keep blogging because I love reading what you have to say and seeing how you deal with situations. Much love. 💕

  • dogzilla says:

    I really enjoyed reading your blog posts everyday, and I’m very glad you’ll be going on another journey again. No pressure, but it’d be lovely to read your posts regularly from here on – you give such positive vibe, but not in a “in your face” kind of way and stay very real, and I love that. I can only imagine all the difficult times you went through during this journey but I’m extremely happy for you!

  • Anthia Joseph says:

    Thank you. :)

  • Ellie says:

    I’m so happy that you’ve been able to find yourself again. I can imagine it would be incredibly hard to deal with people’s opinions and comments about you. I’m so glad you’re doing another 90 day journey! These posts really give me something to look forward to each day! I’m starting my own journey preparing for a half marathon, and I think your posts will help to keep me motivated! Keep being your awesome self no matter what others say.

  • Maranda says:

    I just wanted to say that you are amazing! I am excited to start my own 90 Day Journey. I’ve probably been following you since close to the beginning and you’re such an inspiration!

  • Yay!! I love this new challenge, and congratulations for achieving all your goals in these last 90 days. It’s been a true joy following along, and I am so happy to have Cassey back <3

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