September 18, 2019
It’s interesting that as a woman, we allow our weight to have so much power over us. Whereas most men don’t even make any sort of emotional connection with the scale. How did we even get that way???
I think it has everything to do with generations of our mothers, grandmothers, great grandmothers, and their mothers before them being told that the skinnier, the tinier, and the smaller they were, the better. The more delicate and the more beautiful you were, the more likely you were to attract a man and eventually get a husband to care for you. So, women’s ideal body types were really men’s ideal body types FOR women. Then the media solidified the idea that thinner was better by featuring women of only a certain body type on the covers of their magazines, therefore perpetuating the idea that thinner women were the most desirable women.
The fact that us women today are still so obsessed with slender frames and small waists shows us just how hard it is to shake off centuries worth of irrational thinking towards our self worth – based on our size!
Today, in the age of body positivity, so much work is already being done to reverse that way of thinking! Women have thrown out scales in protest! And you know what? I think that’s a great thing.
But what if you want to get fitter, get healthier, and embark on a journey that may require you to use some sort of measurement tool? Well first of all, if a scale really gives you PTSD, then try using your clothes or a measuring tape as a way seeing change! However, know this: IT IS POSSIBLE to have a non-toxic relationship with the scale – as impossible as that may sound right now. Trust me. I did it.
How to get over the fear of stepping on a scale!
#1. First, if you currently are in a place where stepping on the scale is CONTROLLING YOU (you’re happy when the number is lower and you’re depressed when the number is higher), I suggest you not step on the scale for a while in order to make your weight something that isn’t a big deal. Learn to be ok with not knowing how much you weigh! Instead focus on how you feel. This will train you to understand that how much you weigh has nothing to do with your awesomeness. I didn’t step on the scale for a few years. I def needed the space.
#2. When you feel like you are ready to step on the scale, ask yourself how this information will help you. If you don’t have a good reason, then you’re not ready. Your why for stepping on the scale should be because seeing this information – whether higher or lower than you want – is going to positively benefit you in some way.
#3. Realize that when you see this number, it is JUST a number. Just a data point. It doesn’t tell you how beautiful you are, how talented you are, how smart you are, what a good person you are, and it says NOTHING about your self worth. The scale is only a tool that tells you a number. That is all. The number is meaningless unless you choose to give it a meaning. So DO NOT let the scale have power over you! It’s just an object!
#4. Stepping on a scale, plunging into a cold pool, getting a shot at the doctor’s office…sometimes you just gotta close your eyes and just do it. Because usually, you end up realizing that it wasn’t that bad! So when you are ready, step on the scale, view the number, and try not to get emotional about it. If it’s lower than you thought and your goal is weight loss, then good – whatever you’re doing is working! If it’s higher than you thought – first, don’t panic! All it is is a temporary number that YOU have the power to change.
So yeah, that’s how I got over my fear of stepping on the scale. I decided not to view the scale as some scary thing that judged me. I made the decision to view it as a tool – that’s it. Seeing it as just that stripped it of it’s power. Power that it never had, but that I gave it.
Fit Journal entry. This week my weight has gone up because of the bloat, but like I said above, weight is just a temporary number, so it doesn’t bother me. My journey is 90 days long so I have time to make adjustments. That’s the whole thing with this. You can’t do it quick. You need to give yourself time in order for your transformation to really hold strong.
In the morning, I took Drew’s advice and mixed some BHB’s (exogenous ketones) with MCT oil powder (helps to increase my fat intake) in water for a mini breakfast drink. He said that the taking the exogenous ketones would increase the ketone levels in my body, therefore magnifying whatever I am already doing while being on the keto diet.
FYI on ketones: Being on a keto diet means you’re restricting carbs and eating moderate amounts of protein. The goal is to get your liver to begin converting fat into ketones which are molecules that can be used as fuel when blood sugar is in short supply. When you use ketones for fuel instead of glucose for fuel, the benefits include appetite control, improved mental clarity, constant energy, and increased physical performance.
I don’t know if I really felt a difference in my workout, but it did taste pretty good! The strawberry lemonade BHB goes a long way. I originally had 1 scoop of the BHB with 1/2 a scoop of the MCT oil in a 20 oz water bottle but it was sooooo sweet! I had to mix it with like 60-70+ oz of water for my taste preference. I’m more of a “hint water” type of drinker, so maybe it’s just me! But in any case, it got me to drink more a ton of water pretty fast!
For lunch I ordered the keto bowl from Tocaya Organica. This is cauli rice with avo, chicken, bell peppers, brussel sprouts, and some cheese on top. I poured a ton of hot sauce on top!
As a late afternoon mini meal, I had 2 bacon slices with 2 eggs (sprinkled with Trader Joe’s Everything But the Bagel Seasoning), and butter lettuce.
For dinner, I made cauli rice and ate it with 2 bacon, some shishito peppers, and a mixture of shredded chicken with avo and tomatoes.
Then after dinner, I had a probiotic stick to help with my gut health.
This has been a tough week for my body, but hopefully with these supplements, something will help!