Today I went to my friend’s dogs’ birthday party (yes that is a very common thing in LA) and saw a bunch of people I hadn’t seen in a while. It was great to catch up with everyone, you know beyond what you see on Instagram, but one question kept coming up.
“So what are you working on?”
OMG. I don’t know why. But literally every time someone asks me this, I blank, my brain turns black, and I search for one worthy thing that I am currently doing, and I CANNOT for the life of me, find one thing that I am currently working on. None. Nada. Apparently, I do nothing all day long and have accomplished zero.
I go, “Oh, me?” to buy me 2 seconds more of thinking time. “Ya!” they say, buying me one more second. Eventually I stutter out something, but by this time, I feel that my shoulders have slumped and my eyes have started looking down as I answer the question with no confidence.
Like why. WHY DO I DO THIS.
OBVIOUSLY I AM WORKING ON SO MUCH. SO MUCH THAT I CAN’T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT MY LIFE IS ANYMORE.
It’s like this question too:
Anyone else get all flustered by super casual questions like these? If so, here’s a tip I have that I’ve used for press interviews that you can use for any situations like the above. Before interviews, I typically recite to myself my latest accomplishments first to build confidence. Then I recite to myself some things that I am currently working on so I can remind myself that I am actually doing something with my life :P
I know it sounds silly that I have to do this, but when someone asks me what I am working on, I guess it’s sort of childhood-traumatic. It reminds me of when my parents would barge into my room as a kid and ask me what homework I am working on to make sure I am still on task. This question still makes my heart jump and I still turn to stone for a moment as if I have done something wrong. So weird how our adult bodies can still react to childhood situations, huh!
Do you have any weird childhood linked traumas that you still deal with as an adult?
Yesterday’s (Day 6) Food Log:
Started out the morning with 2 hard boiled eggs! Cept…I didn’t even boil them! I used my rapid egg cooker timer thing that I bought on Amazon for under $20! Best ever.
Lunch was leftovers from last night’s dinner. Cauli rice, mushrooms, tofu, avocado, and sriracha!
Okay before I get into the food, I wanna say YES I WILL FIX MY NAIL POLISH SOON. It’s been busy and it’s gel so I haven’t had time to go to the salon! Anyway – I’m eating Siete’s cassava tortilla chips (LITERALLY THE BEST OMG, way better than real tortilla chips) and some homemade quac.
Got sent some Body Armor Lyte drinks (only 20 cals) and after trying it, I’m surprised at how “real” it tastes! None of that weird fake sugar stuff. I liked it!
Dinner was cauli rice with tofu and left over Thai eggplant & soy chicken from the restaurant the other day. I also had a side of butter lettuce. Delish!
There ya have it! Love that I get to eat tofu. Need to start preparing it in more exciting ways.