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Today I was forced into a situation I didn’t want to be in. Please watch below.

I’ve always been ashamed of my belly. Only a couple times in my life has it ever had any resemblance of a “fitness trainer’s body.” The rest of the time, my soft belly gets people either:

  1. Praising me for looking “normal”
  2. Shaming me for not looking fit enough to be a instructor
  3. Doubting that my programs even work

*sigh*

As you can see, it makes it hard to love yourself when people insist that your body isn’t a good reflection of your profession or your willpower.

But today, I took off my shirt and began to shatter the resent I held for my belly. I realized that there was no need to disrespect my body just because others didn’t appreciate it. Like, who cares what people think!!! Like actually – WHO CARES. And if they do, at least you’re important enough for them to be talking about right!?

I KNOW that my physical shell does not define how strong I am! Sure, life would be easier if I had a body that actually reflected my hard work, but you know what, you can’t have everything. And I am beginning to be okay with that.

I will tell you straight out that this is the BEGINNING of a self love journey for me and my belly. If I am being realistic, I can tell you that I will still be self conscious and I will still feel weird about wearing a sports bra in public by choice, but I know that the more I do it, the less scary it will be. Today was day 1 for me, my belly and our ever-evolving self love journey.

What part of your body are you insecure about? How do you plan on beginning your self love journey for it?

Yesterday’s Recap:

Fit Journal entry. Yesterday was the shoot. I was running on 3 hrs of sleep. There was no workout. Just standing all day. My lower back really hurts! Got a massage today though and I feel better.

BREAKFAST:

10% carbs, 65% fat, 25% protein

230 calories

Spinach and bell pepper egg white egg bites from Costco! Tastes just like the ones from Starbucks but cheaper! Yay! Had this at 7:30AM because I knew the shoot would get crazy as soon as I got there.

LUNCH:

17% carbs, 62% fat, 21% protein

779 calories

For lunch, we catered from Chipotle! SO FUN. I made myself 2 bowls. One was a chicken salad with guac, pico de gallo and chipotle honey vinaigrette dressing, and the other was sofritas over salad and corn.

DINNER:

33% carbs, 49% fat, 19% protein

689 calories

As soon as we got home from the shoot, I pulled out whatever leftovers I had in the fridge for a quick meal. I found cauliflower rice, ground turkey, lox, and then had it with a side of romaine lettuce and chipotle honey vinaigrette.

I ended dinner with a kombucha.

The day came in at 1,698 calories and 22% carbs (96g), 57% fat (111g), and 21% protein (89g).

Once again, meal timing is just FAILING right now. My dinners are so late. I need to figure this out. But now that the shoot is done, I am hoping I will have more time for myself. But I still need to make the Halloween costumes…prep some intense scripts for cool videos I have coming up…and we’re planning our first ever POWERGIRLS Retreat in less than a month…oh dear…this never ends!!! But who’s the blame? ME. So I’m not complaining.

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  • Saraahx says:

    Congrats on your victory, girl, that is awesome!!! I’m insecure about my butt, I would say, since it’s the body part that takes the longest time for me to see results. I don’t have a flat belly because of “health” issues and I’ll never be able to change that, even though I did try but I learned to accept it with time and it definitely is much, much, MUUUUCH easier when you stop hating your body and wasting your energy.
    Also, that Chipotle meal looks good.

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  • Laura says:

    I wear shorts because I don’t love that much my tights. With time I get more comfortable with this and wear very very short one 🙂 I was so ashemed by my stretch marks…🙈 Now I am ok. I have 29 years and start to get use with my kind of body. I learn slowly that my body is 1,68 cm and goes around 60 kg. This is my and if I don’t want to be very sick again I have to do moderate sport everyday and eat and sleep. I have a chronic disease and I have to stoped put my body in terror and shut down my immune system. So I found in the last 2 years that I love Pilates and it is a friendly sport with my body. Thank you for being here in my life and my house. 😊♥️

  • marina says:

    Cassey, I’ve been training pole dance for over a year now and I had the exact same story! It also helped that on my classes there are ladies in all shapes and ages, I’m not embarassed anymore of my soft, soft belly! I even have the guts to upload a pole dance photo (showing belly) to my instagram!
    I have to admit, I was a person who doubted your workouts because you don’t have a sixpack. But it was me, at 16, with eating disorder and with disrupted vision. I was really thin, but I hated myself, because I thought it’s just so easy to get a sixpack and I don’t have it because I’m not working out enough or that something’s wrong with me. Now, i’m 23 and so so much has changed, I’ve learnt so much and I know it’s really TOUGH to have a body like yours and it’s even more tough to have your strength, not to mention how you can be flawless in anything (heels dance!?). You are just super amazing and a role model at the same time.
    I hope you notice my comment, I’m just trying to explain having such opinion from my point of view, I wish such opinions didn’t affect you, but I imagine it must be really hard to ignore these voices.
    Sending love <3

  • Kori says:

    Congratulations on your victory! If anyone says you don’t have the body of a fitness instructor, they are clearly self-blind. I mean, have they SEEN your legs?! You should say, “if you think I’m not a ‘real’ instructor, why don’t you come to a class?” I doubt they could do what you do, let alone talk and look fab while doing it! Lol!

    P.S. I really love seeing all of these updates, as well as the dance videos! Seeing you try new things is super inspiring for me. Can I be you when I grow up? Haha

  • I don’t see anything neutral or negative about anybody’s body. Either say something positive, or I say nothing at all. Also, that comment about your body looking like a normal person’s… That’s supposed to be a compliment?! Oh, I don’t know. I don’t feel very good about that comment. I think you’re beautiful, and I absolutely love you, Cassie! You definitely should be proud of those abs :-)

  • Lady-J says:

    Didn’t ware shorts for almost a decade because a boyfriend at 18 told me I had “horrible” legs. Now I ware what I want!

    • Laura says:

      Omg I have a similar story with my arms. He said I have a lot of fat on my arms that it’s not nice. From then I don’t like to wear anything that it’s not having sleeves up to the elbow. But slowly I start with shorts, I will get on my arms one day 😄

  • rasheedawilson says:

    Tbh I don’t understand how can anyone look at you and NOT see how toned your body is. I actually think most people don’t understand how a fit and toned body looks like when you do it healthy. A lot of fitness models lead really restrictive life styles and have to do a lot of unhealthy things to get that ‘fitness model’ look. It’s normal to have a layer of fat over your muscles when you are eating a balanced diet. Don’t let anyone make you feel bad about that Cassey. I actually like that you promote fitness in a way that is healthy instead of selling us a restrictive lifestyle. I am sure some people may have a body type that is naturally more lean-looking but I don’t think it’s at all true that the leaner you look, the more stronger you are. I think people just have a very narrow idea of what a toned body looks like.

    • mrf82 says:

      I agree with this whole-heartedly. Also, those of us who are following Blogilates are probably doing it to look lean, not to look muscular. I’ve never thought of pilates as a way to get a six pack, it’s a way to be healthy.

  • Katie S says:

    You’re not alone not feeling comfortable wearing only a sports bra in public. Many of us do if only for the reason that we’re not wearing a shirt. I don’t like showing so much skin. Even at home I get ansy and just feel more comfortable putting that shirt on. Same goes with a bathing suit. I just feel too bare and don’t like that feeling most of the time.

  • LisaZ19 says:

    First, you look amazing! Second, I totally get you! I’m not ashamed of my abs/belly, but it is the one area I constantly work on. I feel weird wearing a sports bra in public, but that’s because I am Not wearing a shirt in public! I also feel self conscious wearing a bikini in public. Mostly because I don’t like being the “center of attention” . I like being seen, but in a blending in kind of way – if that makes sense

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