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Yesterday ended up being a rest day for me because I went into the office early to decorate one of our team member’s desks for her bday! Funny thing was – even though none of us talked about it – pretty much the rest of the team came in early too to do the same thing! It made my heart so happy. The office has been a lovely place lately with good vibes flowing.

I did however sign up for my favorite stretching class at SM Stretching in Beverly Hills. I literally tell everyone about this class. I am always searching for an intense flexibility class (not yoga) but every single one that I try is so inconsistent. Sometimes the pole dance studios get it right but those classes aren’t as important to them so the instructors are always changing so you never know what you’re gonna get.

Anyway, I’ve been going to SM Stretching for a little over a month and a half I think? Love it. The gym is developed by a former Russian medalist in rhythmic gymnastics and y’all IT IS INTENSE. The teachers will push on you to go deeper, make you put blocks under your heels, and make you hold splits for 3 minutes…each side. It’s for sure painful. I mean, I can barely move my legs after I hold splits for that long, especially middle splits, but I see small improvements every time I go! Nothing motivates me more than progress…so I KEEP COMING BACK!

First time I went a a couple months ago with my friend Laura who is a professional ballerina. She is flexy goals. Here I am in front splits with 1 block under my heel.

A month or so in, 2 blocks under my heel.

Yesterday, 3 blocks under my heel! Gotta still get my front hip down lower.

Middle splits are a different story entirely. This is a couple months ago:

This is yesterday:

Not bad! But the middles are SOOOO painful for me!!!

My goal in life is one day to be able to do the middle splits. I swear I will do everything it takes. One day it is going to happen. But seriously, MY HIPS ARE SO TIGHT. This might take me a while!!!

Anyway, because yesterday became a rest day (I don’t schedule rest days because I let them take place naturally when I’m traveling or too busy) I knew my progress was going to stall a bit. For me movement does more than burn calories, it helps with my digestive system too. So when I don’t work out, I just kinda feel slower…with everything!

As I’ve gotten older and as I’ve experienced several fitness journeys, I’ve begun to understand my body much more. For my body type, weight loss and fat loss are a constant uphill battle. I’ve always kinda known this growing up as the chubby one in my family and in the classroom. My sister could always eat what she wanted and she’s always been slim. My friends in school were always thinner than me.

My 23andme report says:

Some of you may be thinking – 5%? That’s not even anything! But just to give you some context, the 5% is actually the highest I’ve seen from all my friends & fam who have taken the test. Even for those whose weight actually qualifies them as overweight or obese, they had 3% on their report. Everyone else was either predisposed to weigh average or predisposed to weight 3 or 5% less than average.

So what am I “supposed” to weigh?

Ok, so a couple things I find problematic with this “average” weight for a 32 year old 5’5″ woman.

  1. They are getting averages from a pool of European people. Asians tend to be smaller in frame and therefore weigh less. So it’s not truly accurate to compare me against an average of people that don’t reflect me.
  2. Also, what is the demographic of people who actually have purchased and taken 23andme? The average only reflects the demographic of the 23andme customer. I don’t know what that demo actually is but I presume it is someone who has a little bit of disposable income, probably middle class or upper middle class, is educated, and is probably Caucasian.

I don’t think I am too far off. Out of all my family, only my sister and I have taken 23andme. We recently forced our parents to do it too. My dad really didn’t want to. He said all knowingly “NO TEST CAN TELL ME WHO I AM!” I don’t know whether to be mad or to laugh.

Anyway my sister and I have not found any relatives on the app. In contrast, pretty much everyone in Sam’s family (big fam) has taken the test and they continue to find new relatives like almost every month! So that explains why 23andme only has data for people of European descent. I think Asians just don’t wanna pay for it. Hahaha.

OK BACK TO THE WEIGHT THO

When I first found out that I could pretty much blame my genes for my lack of a six pack even with my active lifestyle, I didn’t know whether to be happy or to be sad. Should I celebrate that I weighed less than my average? Or should I be resentful for not having genes that would have been really useful for my career in the fitness industry?

You know, when you’re given the gift of life and a body that is so precious, you take it, you take care of it and you appreciate it.

I was dealt a hand of cards that made it a bit harder for me to lose weight. And you know what? That’s amazing. I could have been dealt sooooooo much worse!!! I love that my genes gave me my dark hair, brown eyes, long fingers, great legs (if I may say so myself), and a mind that never stops thinking and creating. I love myself and I love that I don’t have to ever feel “stuck” with what I have because I have the power to keep learning and improving.

So, for the camps of people who believe that body positivity and weight loss cannot go hand in hand, I ask you to take a moment to think about the WHY behind the weight loss. If someone wants to do it to get healthier, be happier, and gain more confidence, we should cheer them on! If someone is doing it because they feel pressure from somewhere that isn’t from within, that is a whole ‘nother thing. Be understanding that everyone’s fitness journey is their own. So unless you can get inside someone’s brain, don’t tell them they’re doing is wrong.

DAY 4 RECAP:

This is what I ate yesterday. I was actually kinda hungry in the morning which is not normal for me, so I ate some brie cheese and these Thai chili almonds – both from Trader Joes! Pretty good combo I must say! I like rolling the cheese around in the Thai chili seasoning.

Also, in case you guys were wondering how I stay hydrated, I carry 2 water bottles around with me. The blue one is 32 oz and the pink one is 24 oz. Why do I carry 2? In case I’m not in a place where there’s a water fountain. Also, I love my water ice cold (and these bottles keep it ice cold all day). I mean I cannot depend on an unknown water source to give me the temperature of water I desire! :P

For lunch I had meal-prep turkey chili and cauliflower rice with chicken marsala – both items I bought at Costco! The chicken marsala has some sauce and mushrooms. Very good flavor!

Now, the cauli rice. We need to talk about the cauli rice!!! You guys, it’s cauli rice in a bag and it takes 90 sec to heat up in the microwave!!! AHHHHH!!!

The first time I bought it, I was so skeptical. Like how does a vegetable live outside of the fridge or freezer?? Honestly, no idea, but after 90 sec in the microwave, I tasted it, and it was legit!

For dinner, I couldn’t choose whether I wanted a “Mexican bowl” or tacos. So, I did both! Haha. That’s why my plate has a side of cauli rice plus chicken, mushrooms, hatch chile peppers, onions, and then 4 mini keto flatbreads that I used as my “taco” outsides.

You guys. IT WAS SOOOOO GOOD!!!!

The tacos ended up being more like tostadas and they were DELICIOUS!!!! I added some guac and pico de gallo on top.

Again, I did not measure my ingredients for the keto flatbread, but I can tell you that I mixed about 1 TBSP  of mozzarella cheese with 1 egg and like 2 TBSP of almond flour. Put it on the pan, flipped, and boom, done. Total process from mixing to getting on my plate is like 5 minutes.

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  • Saraahx says:

    OUHHH these stretches look and sound terrifying & torturous!!!
    I would say the same thing your dad said, haha he’s hilarious! I totally agree with him while still disagreeing a bit. It’s too bad that 23andMe does not seem legit. I wouldn’t trust them either if they were mostly based on European/Caucasian ancestry. YESSSS!!!! We might not have (all) the genes we want but we do compensate with others. It’s important to be grateful for what we have,we were created in a such beautiful, unique way.

    (kinda like your meals)

  • Sarah923 says:

    I had to check my 23andMe report when I read this and guess what? I’m predisposed to weigh 7% more than average! 😝 I’m white, not Asian, but I thought it might make you feel a tiny bit better anyway lol. Keep up the great work, Cassey! I’m loving your new attitude and your 90-day journey!

  • Emily says:

    The issue I have is the constant promotion that being thin will make you happy, healthy and confident. Anyone who has had an ED knows you don’t feel good once you’ve lost the weight.
    Weighing 10lbs or whatever less when you aren’t overweight isn’t going to do ANYTHING for your health. This is a huge misconception perpetuated by the diet culture. If anyone is interested I recommend reading ‘Health at Every Size’

  • Emily says:

    I have been following you for years and never commented before (just like so many others here..) but I feel this 90 day challenge is so close to me it feels almost personal. I have been struggling hugely with my environment; my best friends and family can’t seem to understand that wanting to lose weight or just taking care of myself for my health, is not the same as telling everyone else that they are overweight. My boyfriend even tells me to shut up whenever we are in public and I want to order a salad ‘because it is healthy’. He worries that other people who might be fatter than me, could hear me. So I can’t discuss working out or healthy food habits in public in case this ‘triggers’ anyone who is heavier than me. This has been hurting me quite a lot actually. I love what you are showing here and I really believe people are getting too sensitive towards others. Thanks for being such a positive and inspiring presence!

    • Kate says:

      Hi Emily, I know exactly what you mean! I come from a family where everyone is overweight, with all of my relatives over 55 having Type 2 diabetes and other medical complications. Because I am not as overweight as most of my relatives, any inclination on my part to lose weight is always put down as “not necessary” or “silly”, even though every doctor I’ve had since I was 18 has told me I need to lose 20 pounds. I just moved to a new city where I don’t know anyone, so I’m trying to take this as an opportunity to set up new healthy habits (ie. taking trapeze and ballet classes instead of going to happy hour). My family is very supportive of trying new things, as long as I don’t tell them that it’s part of building a more active lifestyle. Maybe this could work for you?

  • There are different gadgets available today to calculate your body fat percentage, but that doesn’t mean that all of them have good accuracy. I would suggest you go for a manual gauge except for an electronic one.

  • While holding stretches for that long, did the instructor talk? Or was it more like a yin class with ambietn music in the background in which you’re supposed to zone out to? “So, for the camps of people who believe that body positivity and weight loss cannot go hand in hand, I ask you to take a moment to think about the WHY behind the weight loss. If someone wants to do it to get healthier, be happier, and gain more confidence, we should cheer them on! If someone is doing it because they feel pressure from somewhere that isn’t from within, that is a whole ‘nother thing. Be understanding that everyone’s fitness journey is their own. So unless you can get inside someone’s brain, don’t tell them they’re doing is wrong.” THIS. THIS THIS!!!! OH. MY. GAWD. Thank you to the LORD. I couldn’t have said it better myself. All this “body – positivity” movement is turning basically into a diet-and weight loss-hatred movement…

  • Janna says:

    I tried to look through the comments to see if this has been asked already but what if you think losing weight will make you happy but actually it’s just to fit in to what you think other people want about you? But you don’t know that until after you start on this “weight loss journey”…which you hate and isn’t easy or fast like for many other people….and then keep thinking maybe it’s just that you aren’t trying hard enough…?

  • Victoria says:

    You probably have mentioned this many times before but how do you measure your body fat? Do you have a specific scale that you use? Thanks.

  • Aida says:

    I love it, the food looks amaziiiiiing

  • yili says:

    I don’t like to comment on internet things EVER but I just have to say, Cassey, you inspire me, you make me laugh when I’m in pain and about to give up – you make it fun the feel the burn! I am half Chinese, and according to my own family, have never reached my “True Asian Size” (whatever the hell that means). I am not overweight, btw. But I’m also not willowy-slender. I LOVE seeing a fitness figure who kinda looks like me, who I can relate to, and who I happen to think is radiantly beautiful inside and out. It helps keep me motivated and it helps me on my own journey toward accepting myself. So. THANK YOU. And also thank you for your courageous honesty, because I relate to the struggle – especially when it concerns other’s opinions about what is body positive and what isn’t. Loving your body and also wanting to improve and feel more confident in it aren’t mutually exclusive. Keep doing you (for all of us).

  • carolinebaja says:

    You say maybe your genes aren’t helping you in your fitness career, but did you ever think that maybe your lack of muscle definition is exactly why YOU are so successful? I love to see your body type represented. I love to see a badass that kicks my ass on the mat looking like she has more than the 15% body fat that a typical fitspo model would have.

    • msebass says:

      I just really love that you, Cassey, have a “real” body. Lots of trainers have bodies that are unattainable, genetically thin, or anorexic.. You’re real, and it makes me feel like I can reach my goal and have a body that looks like yours- a real one!—healthy, fit and vibrant! :-) Love the meal ideas too!

  • Shelbyy says:

    I like your challenge and your new blogs! I am on my own fitness journey/weight loss journey right now and am going to be following yours. I will say this, it may be different for you because you are taller than me (I am 5 3) but after loosing some initial lbs from cleaning up my diet my weight got stuck at 125 until I started calorie counting and logging my food into my fitness pal. I am now 118 thanks to sticking to 1200 calories a day. Some days I go over and I do not freak about it or anything I just make sure to log it. Do you not want to calorie count because it is triggering? Another thing myself and some other females have noticed is that weight loss often occurs right after your period comes. I just lost 2lbs after mine! So if your weight is stuck just watch for those changes after your cycle. Anyways I wish you good things on your transformation journey and I hope that you achieve your goals in what ever way makes you the happiest.

  • emmadilemma says:

    Cassey, even though I will admit that I was concerned when you originally announced that you wanted to lose weight, I want you to know that I’m still going to follow along on your journey, because for better or worse I don’t think it’s anyone else’s right to police another person’s body. It’s your body, you get to choose what you want to do with it, and I totally understand wanting to lose weight…I want to lose weight too! So I’ll be trying to do the same along with you.

  • Sarah says:

    Cassey! Reading your blog posts has been so refreshing! I think I just might to something similar to help me kickstart my own fitness journey! I have a lot of mental and physical work to do :)

  • Ericka says:

    I’ve been really loving these blogs! I know it must take a ton of time, work, and effort to post every day, but I gotta say, I’m really loving them! It’s become my afternoon ritual to read your blog, see your food, and reflect on your words. It came at a perfect time for me personally, as I just this week also started to change my habits and decided to “go all in”. We have a ton of family get togethers with my husbands family this coming year, including a wedding, and I’m ready to feel like my best self and be happy and content with who I am. I think I might give those little keto flatbreads a try tonight. I have a huge bread addiction, and I have been looking for something to supplement my cravings. Thanks for being so raw and honest. I look forward to tomorrows post already!

    Side Note – the honesty is super nice and refreshing. I always watched your videos with a twinge of jealousy. Like who is this perfect girl that never has to struggle with body issues, is always so positive, and how can I get to this place mentally. It’s nice to know even someone who looks like you do has some moments where they need to put in some effort, and change some habits! Thank you for being real. It’s crazy to watch your journey, I still utilize your book “Hot Body Year Round” I bought back in 2011! I flip through it from time to time and appreciate all the information and knowledge I have acquired from you over the years! Thank you!

  • Caroline says:

    Love these blogs Cassey! It’s like hearing from a friend. You sound so happy. You’re a legend. I don’t want these blogs to end. Love you and have a good day xx

  • Jessica says:

    My genes predispose me to weigh 3% less than average.
    I’m 5’2″ and 135lbs. The average for my height and ethnicity (African American) is the same as yours for a woman standing at 5’5″!! Craziness!!!

  • Talia says:

    How to get middle splits: stretch your external rotators! Cassey, I’m an ex-circus performer and have been following you since 2012 without ever once commenting. But middle splits are something that I CAN help you with. I can see the problem in your pics, you have limited external rotation so your hip flexors are resisting and it is SO agonizingly painful. Things like butterfly and double pigeon will help. I’m a 500 hr yoga instructor and have taught contortion for years. Please email me for personalized stretches for middle splits to get past this issue! You’ve helped me so much with your content over the years, I would love the chance to help you :)

  • Ember Hammond says:

    Girl you are inspiring. You may not have “abs popping” but your core is strong. Your workouts always kill me. Keep being awesome and thank you for your vulnerability by posting each day, I 👏AM👏LOVING👏IT

  • Raven says:

    You are starting to make me want to focus more on my diet and body since I too have always been the chubby one in school, friends and with family. Your workout videos have definitely helped me the last 2 years and I feel stronger but still like a marshmallow in a lot of places but I know my bad eating habits stem from my poor stress handling and depression. A lot of why I don’t take care of myself is fear and laziness I guess. Things I should start to focus on more now that I’m in control of my own life.

    Also, I’m jealous of your work environment. I would love to be surrounded by good vibes and something I love to do instead of the toxic nightmare I find myself in while doing something I don’t fully enjoy.

  • kj says:

    Also, I don’t think it’s good for us to be all grumbling/regretful/sad with our bodies especially if it is almost perfect and working well like eg. we have a complete set of arms and legs, functioning mind, etc, including if our genes that may not give us the look we want😅 (but of course, if for diseases like being myopic, diabetes etc, those aren’t something to be proud of and glad about so those we have to learn to manage and control our intakes etc.), i think for you Cas, some people (including myself!) don’t take inspo from your non-existent abs, but from your passion and always smiling😊even when I don’t exercise as intense/regularly at times and be following your vids, the fact i still stay on subbing to your channel and reading your blogs is because of your energy and passion, that motivates me in my own work and life too😉🌸🌈going back to being thankful with what we have, we can also think about others who may not have the same privileges and as fortunate as us eg. Poverty-striken people, disabled persons etc. We have to be thankful as much as we can as long as we still have our good health and loved ones😊

  • kj says:

    Wow, 2 bottles! Very committed and hardworking person you are, Cas! Sheesh… I need to keep hydrated myself😅✌and the chicken marsala sounds and looks good😊some spice to spice up a meal is good at times huh? Keep up the daily 90 days entries! May you reach your goals!💪📖✏

  • Elena Penny says:

    I am on day 3 of my own 90 days, and I get so excited to read your posts because they give me that boost of confidence telling me I can do this. This blog is beyond inspiring me!

  • Kate says:

    My 23 and Me says I’m predisposed to weigh17% more than average, but I’m 5’10” – I wonder if that accounts for my height? Either way, it’s interesting – people think it’s just “calories in, calories out” but clearly genetics affects that too!

  • Megan says:

    Cassey!! I love these daily posts, I started following you many years ago on this blog! My 23andme says I’m predisposed to be 6% overweight, but I’m EXACTLY the average weight for my height. I wouldn’t let that stuff define me and what I’m capable of as long as I’m feeling healthy :)

  • Annie says:

    Hi! I can relate to when you mentioned having reached a weight that you never reached in your life and that you want to make changes about it. I have your same height and similar weight. I moved to CA around 4 years ago, and when I got here, amount of food, more fast food, being lazy about cooking for myself made me gain around 10 pounds. I was initially at 125 (many years with that weight, between 120-125). So I reached 135 lbs many months ago and I was like “Ok I would like to keep the weight I always had, I don’t want to wake up one day in my 40s-50s and thinking that I didn’t pay attention to this stuff, and then being unhealhty”. I noticed it when my pants were starting to feel tight around the waist and the muffin top was making a big presence haha. Most of my weight gain reflected in my belly.

    Anyways, I made changes (I am a picky eater, so baby steps), trying to thoroughly chew food (I am also in this journey of taking care of my gut bugs and I used to bloat a lot because of eating too fast, too much and not chewing it really well, and also bloat-inducing foods) and I am actually feeling better after being more mindful as I eat. I can feel my stomach is soft now and not bloated to the point of not sleeping very well (no abs here yet haha). I also follow your youtube videos with a friend of mine and I also encourage other friends to hop on the train too haha. Squats don’t make me suffer as much anymore haha.

    Anyways, I am now at 120, my goal is to be stronger and I am ok with gaining some weight for muscles. Since I am skinny fat, gaining weight for me at this moment is gaining plain fat. So for sure I need to make these muscles healthy and strong.

    Thank you for embarking on this journey. It motivates me to not be skipping workouts all the time and stick to the plan! I fell behind on the glute challenge, I got so sore the other day because I am doing the Bridal bootcamp and then I took a couple of rest days, my things were super super sore, and BAM! a bunch of missed days for the glute challenge went by. I will finish it though! hahahha

    Hugs!

    hugs!

  • Kaishah says:

    Honestly, I LOVE the way you look. You’re one of my biggest inspirations because even though you’re not the typical six-pack athlete, you’re the most driven of them all. I love your exclamations whenever I do your videos and for some reason, only you make me want to continue my fitness journey. I love you so much and I wish you all the happiness in the world!

  • Sara says:

    I’m 5’ 5”, 148 lb and I would agree that is average for my demographic. But my Fitbit scale says I have 36% body fat which is obese! I know body fat is difficult to measure with any accuracy, but still… So that’s my driver for wanting to lose weight. Get the body fat down, get stronger, and have more energy. I think the number on the scale doesn’t reveal the total picture. I really appreciate your daily blog posts, they motivate me every morning!

  • Yani says:

    It’s funny that people get upset because a FITNESS TRAINER decided to get (even more) IN SHAPE! And they don’t even see the paradox.. Society has become way too complicated and sensitive. I for one am really enjoying these posts, I relate a lot, and I must admit that you sound much more “real” than you have been for a while now (and I’ve been following your workouts and blog for years). Crush your goals, girl, I believe in you!

  • Mari says:

    Hi cassey this looks good the splits but do you know from being maybe intolerant to maybe almonds brie cheese and also bloating from cauliflower you inform us your genes maybe the culprit but have you had a allergy test done and then you know if your stiffness in your lower legs is due to toxic intolerance and puffiness all over as soon as i stopped and then reduced the in take of these for quiet along time i noticed my jiont stiffness became less

  • Camille says:

    Really interesting to read 😊😊 love these posts!!

  • Kelly says:

    Yasss thank you! People tell me I’m fat shaming when I try explain that you can love yourself AND want to lose weight! Because when you are overweight and you implement a healthy lifestyle, you lose the weight. What’s so wrong with wanting to be healthy? It has taken me 2’years to lose 20kg. I should have lost it faster but I didn’t and I’m ok with that. I just wish people knew that when they tell me to lose weight or when they tell me I am fat shaming.

  • Ania says:

    I have to try this keto bread, it looks so easy to make and tasty :)

  • Lizzy says:

    I’m looking forward to your posts everyday! Keep it up girl!

  • Aishwarya says:

    I wanna know what weight is called fit for my body ?

  • Julia says:

    What gives you a right to claim that phrase and define its meaning?
    Anyway, she doesn’t want to be in a smaller body, she wants her body to be smaller (and stronger and healthier). This language is disturbing. You are your body, it’s not some kind of vehicle that you can exchange for another one, so you have to take good care of it. And if it isn’t body positive to take care of yourself, I don’t know what is.

  • Laura says:

    I like to cook and also have time for a slow cooking meal. In my culture it’s a common thing to cook because women stayed home for generations, but days are change and they work more instead of raising kids.
    Also your dad set my goal for today: “NO TEST CAN TELL ME WHO I AM!” That was too funny. 😂

  • killmotion says:

    I would love to be able to do that splits, I have got to follow your 30 day challenge for it. I remember seeing it back when you initially posted it and liked the idea but never did it! I think I’d be one of those European people that find a lot of relatives. Cauliflower is such a great way of getting bulk into meals. I recently saw you could add it frozen into a smoothie to make it thick and help keep it lower in sugar! I definitely want to try that.

  • Connie says:

    I’ve never had the 23andme test but I’m so curious to see where I’d land in that weight category. I feel like certain people (asians especially, like me) are genetically predispositioned to be skinner. It feels a little unfair but your body still looks amazing.

  • Dani says:

    I think what’s problematic about “wanting to lose weight is ok if the pressure comes from within” is: you have to question why you have pressure within you to lose weight. And when you truly analyze it, it’s because we live in a society that values thinness over many other things and well we all wanna fit in! I think that’s why you can’t be BoPo and want to lose weight (I too want to lose weight, so not judging)

  • Amisha says:

    Ahhh love to see you blogging like this Cassey!! I love reading them because they feel so genuine and I can hear your voice so well!

  • Linda says:

    Now I’m thinking 23 and me would say I’m meant to be 10% above average. It is definitely tougher for some of us to lose weight. As for body positivity, there’s something about wanting to “fit into a mold” just to “fit in” that harkens back to the 1950s view of women. I hate to see any of us, women or men feel the need to put that much effort or worry into how much they weigh or their fat percentage. At the same time, I realize you’re in the fitness industry, and probably feel like you can’t be 5% above average in weight. But what if that’s what healthy looks like for you? Now I’m considering starting an “overweight by society’s standard’s” fitness trainers’ group. My daughter’s and I are revisiting your superhero PIIT for quick back to school workouts. We’d love some more themed workouts from you! We should become PIIT instructors. ..can kids do that? Oh, and if you want to see active, strong women of all sizes, watch GLOW on Netflix. Those girls are fit enough to wrestle in all sorts of sizes and shapes. Gotta love that!

  • Penny Yean says:

    People ask isit I dont like to exercise (I look round and chubby) BUT the fact is I do exercise regularly, ballet classes and cardio at gym every week! I see my cousin who is a runner and also likes hiking, she is fit but looks “fat” as well! Probably is the gene problem! I think we have the gene of “round” and “fat” body shape like my grandma XP

  • Zarrin says:

    I can definitely relate to this post. I have always been the chubby one in my family. No matter how hard I worked out, ate right, dieted, if I took a break form that tight schedule for just a week long vacation (where I still monitored what I ate) it would look like I hadn’t worked out in years, all my definition would fade away. This has been a constant struggle all my life. I realized after having two kids though, that my view of my body changed. I felt stronger than ever because of what my body had accomplished. It was no longer really about how I looked, it was more about how much energy I had to be there for my little ones. And in their eyes, I’m the most beautiful person in the world (even currently at one of my heaviest after baby number 2 🤦🏽‍♀️) but that’s okay. Like you said, the motivation and desire to be the healthiest version of you (not just physically healthy but emotionally and spiritually as well) can take on as many different forms as there are different people and that’s okay. As long as what you are reaching for is more self love and acceptance of who you intrinsically are (which isn’t defined by weight, but by the qualities you find inside yourself throughout your journey) I say, do what makes you feel alive and fulfilled. Thanks for the thoughtful and honest post Cassey💕 Also, I know what you mean about data being off, I had an off brand of Fitbit for awhile (my brother in law sent it from China) and when it calculated all my data it said I was in the highest percentage of weight and classified me as morbidly obese (I was 155 lbs at the time and am only 5”4) it was so discouraging and mortifying, but then my husband pointed out that the percentages were probably off because it was basing it off of most of the users, who are in China. Technology can be super helpful sometimes, and at other times, not so much.

  • erikazaam says:

    LOL at Asians don’t wanna pay for it 😂 ok that and privacy concerns!!! Bahaha

  • Michal says:

    Cassey, intentional weight loss can never be body positive. It just can’t be. Body positivity isn’t ‘feeling positive about’ your body or ‘loving’ your body. It is a stance against diet culture created to protect marginalised bodies. It is about radical self acceptance. So, people are going to say something when you use this term to describe your desire and action to shrink your body and weigh less. Maybe read up on body positivity, you might decide to drop that terminology, or you might decide to practice radical self acceptance. I think a lot of people would be less ruffled if you just called this what it actually is rather than trying to claim body positivity. You want to be in a smaller body – you believe you will feel better, there are loads of reasons people might think this and they are understandable (in the context of diet culture). But please call it what it is, it isn’t body positive.

    • A says:

      Exactly my thoughts! That’s why so many people have a problem with this 90 day journey of hers. I get that she’s always wanted to be thinner. She can say just that.

  • Alexis says:

    Following your journey has been fun so far, and I appreciate your transparency. The meals look and sound so yummy. I also really love Earthly Choice products!

  • Laura Bose says:

    LOL wow I can not even picture myself tasting any of that…too much flavor for me. I find it interesting the extreme difference between my likes than probably 90% of the population….I eat dry toast and plain oatmeal for example of a breakfast I totally enjoy and sometimes have for dinner too….

  • Olivia says:

    “No test can tell me who I am” your dad is my idol!

  • Alicia says:

    Keep writing Cassey! We will all keep reading! ♥️♥️♥️.

  • Amie says:

    Oh man I identify so much with this post. I always felt like the chubby one growing up (though I look back on pics of me as a teen and I was so skinny! Just maybe not as skinny as my peers). I thought I was meant to be fat since both my parents were and my little brother could seemingly eat whatever he wanted and stay thin (forgetting the fact that he passed me in height when he was 11). But over the past 3 years I’ve worked really hard to change how I eat and how I workout to lose 90 pounds! It’s definitely been hard at some points but man do I feel so much better! We actually have really similar measurements and my next goal is to get down to 125, build muscle and get down from 27% body fat to a healthier number. Your 90 day challenge has really inspired me in that regard!

  • Linda Robbins says:

    We’re did you find me to flatbread ??

  • Laura says:

    I just made the keto flatbread and OMG, it is SO good!! I can’t get over how easy they were to make. I did add a dash of salt and probably would add a bit more next time. You could totally flavor these up so many different ways dependent on what herbs and spices you used, but wow, I am impressed! Thanks so much for the recipe!!

  • Ashley says:

    Really empathize with this post and this 90 day journey. I recently received my results from 23andme and learned that I am predisposed to weigh 6 percent more than average. As I’ve gotten older, I have been struggling to maintain my weight, despite the fact that I appear “skinny” by societal standards. I find that when you look skinny or fit, people perceive you as someone who is naturally slim and skinny and immediately dismiss the possibility that it takes a lot of fitness and dietary work to maintain a certain look or health. I think that perception makes people believe that they are somehow entitled or have the right to judge your fitness journey. This post is giving me all the feels. I empathize with you and your struggle to justify your health to others (which you should NOT have to do). I wish there was an easy way to impress upon others that your perception is not my reality.

  • Jenn says:

    Hi Cassey, I understand how you feel. I’ve always been on the heavier side. Even when i was younger. I started my fitness journey at 13 and lost a lot of weight 175 to 150 and I was 5’3 and gradually I lost and gained as I got older. My lowest was 143 and I could never get back to that again. Now I’m 19, 5’4 1/2 and back to 170. I was disappointed because I have worked so hard on my body and the way I look. I go to the gym and train and even do workout videos at home. I’m not gonna give up though, I’m just gonna keep trying💕💕

  • Florence says:

    We were talking about size and weight with some friends the other day and we realized that we pretty much have the same proportions now than the ones we had as 8 year old kids! (We are in our forties now) It’s like body memory!

  • Jennifer l says:

    I was told by my doctor that I need to lose about 30lbs. Even though I have a longer torso than average and so I carry my weight different (I can weigh the same as another person but look thinner alot) my doctor said at this point, the heaviest weight I have been recently is affecting my liver and making it harder for it to function. Being healthier and loosing some weight will help my liver function.

    I am so mad at myself for letting it get to this point, where it is affecting my health. I made this mess and it is up to me to fix it

  • J says:

    I’ve always been heavier in weight than everyone my age. I’ve always been at least 20lbs heavier than the average. I probably should weigh like 150. (Once upon a time I was 210lbs and lost 50, gained and lost a few times and here I am at 180). I’m actually in good shape. I exercise twice a day, eat fairly well, and take care of myself. I’m also a fitness instructor – the heaviest one at my studio among the very slim and fit beauties. I have a soft body, no six pack, and my stomach swells every time I eat or drink anything (even water), but I come from a family of heavier people.

    We tend to be larger with thick legs, big booties, thick calves, wide set hips…. which I believe are beautiful. However, we hang onto weight, have a hard time losing it and a hard time toning up. Nobody would ever know the amount of work I’ve put into my body. At least I know that my insides are happy. 🦷🧠🦴❤️

    I’ve been taking Cassey’s 90 day journey and using it as accountability. After knee surgery this year, I couldn’t exercise, and I lost a lot of strength and tone and OF COURSE – gained weight. Let’s do this!

  • Sounds like you had a good day.

  • Emma says:

    I am loving your posts i look forward to reading them every evening. (Evening here in northern ireland). You are dropping weight so fast doing so well your so motivating. I am roughly same height and same weight to your starting with a goal to lose 8lbs however im a mummy of 3 young kids and find it so hard to find time. I cant seem to get past a certain weight it just sticks and i give up. Im exercising 5 days a week having taken up running and loving it. Keep up the good work!!! 😍

  • JJ says:

    I love these updates Cassey💜💜 Well, because I saw your decision a little bit late(also because of time difference), it was 3rd day of my 90-day-journey, not 5th like yours.. So.. I want to say that keep going even if loosing weight is harder for you than others, I’m a bit similar to you. So, let’s keep going, keep going together💪🏻 If needed, I will be around the comments below your updates 😉😉

    P.S. Also I wish you make another exercise programme or challenge for the journey

  • sarah says:

    i love these daily posts. keep going cassey!!

    • MadelineHou says:

      Me too, it’s awesome to see her blogging on a daily basis, I feel like I can get to know her more. :) The food looks so good too.

      • Julia says:

        Same here, I look forward to this every day!

  • Laurina says:

    I’d love to take the 23andme test, but I don’t want some sketchy company to have such sensitive data about me….

  • Leagh says:

    Chili is such a handy meal prep because I feel like it goes with so many things!

  • Laura Liu says:

    OMG! Can totally relate with your Dad’s reaction to 23andMe. My Dad thought it was a paternity test! LOL. Thank you for sharing your journey. Weight loss and body positivity are not exclusive, so no shame in wanting to change your body. Keeping going, Casy! Rooting for you!

  • Brie says:

    I have always been the least flexible person I know. In high school and middle school I took a bunch of dance classes, it was my thing, but I was always embarrassed at how I wasn’t flexible like everyone. I even pulled my hamstring trying to push myself into the splits. I do yoga now and it helps but I think I just must be predisposed to inflexibility and I just have to deal with it haha.

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