I’m sitting on my bed, it’s 2:53am and I’ve been trying to figure out what in the world I am supposed to write. I took a long nap this afternoon (not normal for me) and then woke up at 11:30pm.
Don’t you hate when that happens? Now my sleep sched is all messed up – wait, it’s always been messed up, maybe this will reset it. But you know what, you have to learn how to listen to your body. If you’re tired and you just need rest, rest. I didn’t work out today. Sleep is good. This is something I am continually trying to teach myself. I really like to work and keep doing things and I always try to dig into my sleep hours to get more and more done. But I’m starting to feel and see the drawbacks.
I’ve been in LA for about 4 months now and I thought that after being down here I’d have more time and space to be creative. But I just find myself wrapped up in so many meetings and extra projects that take time away from my YouTube channel. This makes me sad because creating videos for you guys helps me connect to you. I love sharing recipe videos, new workouts, and vlogs from time to time but I find myself to tired lately. Worn out from social abrasion.
Do you know why I love writing in the wee hours? Because all I can hear are my fingernails tapping the buttons of my keyboard. It’s peaceful. There’s space for my mind to relax and think and be creative. No one is calling. Emailing. Texting. Talking. It’s just me. And you.
It’s so quiet right now. I just took a few minutes to take in the silence. It’s beautiful.
Do you ever get stuck, wondering what you’re supposed to do, how to find happiness, what’s your purpose in life? Sometimes our day to day activities muddle us up and keep us so busy that it’s hard to lift our heads and see the horizon.
When this happens, seek space. It doesn’t even matter if you have a plan or not, but when you give yourself space to just be – this is when you can truly breathe and get to know yourself again. I think it’s really important to know you and what you stand for, so that when you feel lost in a crowd, you can stand strong, unwavering.
I like solitude sometimes. I really do enjoy it. And you know what? I find that I am not alone. I read some articles that mentioned how YouTubers actually are very introverted people. Some of your most highly subscribed vloggers were even high school outcasts! I have an introverted and extroverted side to me and both need to be tended to! For example, I need to be teaching classes every week or else I start to feel lost! I love instructing and I love talking to people. Meet ups are the best and leave me so energized! But of course there are days when I really need to just be by myself. Cook alone. Shop alone. Clean alone. You know, embrace the serenity of solitude. If one or the other are neglected, I can start to get agitated and it’s no good :-/
So anyway, after I find my balance again it’s time to ignite the flame and find the motivation to power on! How do I do that? I surround myself with inspirational people because you know what? Energy, especially good energy, is infectious!!! I can find motivation by taking a new class at the gym, by training with a new workout partner, or even just talking to a friend on the phone. If no one is around, I find Instagram and Facebook to be pretty motivational! I look at you guys and what you’re doing to make a change. YOU rev me up. YOU inspire me!
It’s hard sometimes though when you reeeeaaallllly just can’t get out of bed. You realllllllllyyyyy can’t put on your shoes. That feeling comes from stagnation. You’ve got to just get up and make the first move. Once you’re rolling, you won’t regret it. I promise. Unless you’re sick, exhausted, or hungry – GO. JUST GO. It will make you feel better.
So just to recap, here’s how I find inspiration and motivation to keep going:
1. Allow space. Solitude. Get away from the chaos.
2. Take a new class or train with someone new! Even seek motivation in social media!
3. Just get up and do it. Get the ball rolling.
The past couple weeks have been sooooooo bad for me in terms of working out and eating right. I will admit it! I am not perfect all the time. I’ve told you before, travel really messes me up and it gets frustrating. You know? If I’m at home, my meals are prepped, I’m buying the right food, and I have a set time to go to the gym. On trips? It’s meetings back to back, lunch meeting, more meetings back to back, and the of course, you guessed it, dinner meetings. By the time I get back to the hotel, I’m tired. So I choose sleep.
Yeah, I felt “guilty” about it because goodness, what I do is based on eating right and working out and who am I if I can’t even do that!?
I am a human being. I must remember. A mistake isn’t really a mistake if you can learn from it and use it to be resilient.
So where am I now? I am in the beginning stages of resilience-mode. I’m prepping myself to get back on track! Its been too long and I miss the high I used to get from intense HIIT and lifting routines followed by crazy cardio. I miss cooking and baking. I miss vlogging and filming. I miss drawing and designing. I miss writing. I miss these things that I used to do all the time before everything else started to ask so much of me. Things that took me away from my core and what makes me happy.
So today, I begin anew. I will seek time for myself and what I love. I will focus on my goals and make them happen. Forget the ruckus going on around me. I must listen to my heart, listen to my soul, and feed it.
For you, I ask you to look into your heart and find what you truly believe in. What makes you smile. Do more of it. If there are any negative people around you, take them out of your life. If you can’t, then surround yourself with more positive people, then the negative Nancy’s will get smaller and smaller. You’ve got to create a nurturing environment for yourself to grow. It’s gotta be a place where you feel safe to open up your mind and you heart.
Okay. This blog post is for you and me. Let’s get on track. Let’s move on. Forget those things you did that you shouldn’t have done and step forward. Start now. Success here on out.
PS – here are links to the Meet Up albums: