OK now time to get emotional.
This is a feeling post.
I think all of us have that drive in us…it’s just that sometimes we lose it and have a little trouble locating it. And you know what? It’s really hard to do anything without motivation. Your energy and excitement emanate from the inside, and that is something you can’t mask or fake. It has to be real and it has to come from the main source of enthusiasm. YOU.
To tell you the truth, the past several months since I’ve moved back to CA, I’ve been feeling kind of off my game physically. Before I left, I was in the best shape of my life. Here’s a picture. I had basically just finished an 8 week bikini body diet and workout plan with a trainer friend of mine then had to do some traveling and shortly after that, I made my big move cross country. Traveling really pulls me out of my focus. Anyway, the workouts and the meals were grueling but seeing the results were AMAZING. It’s the feeling of seeing hard work PAY OFF.
I cut myself some slack when I moved and boy, did that backfire. I’ve been very frustrated at myself for gaining weight and increasing my body fat percentages. Between developing the second line of oGorgeous gym bags and juggling the growth of the blog and my youtube channels…I forgot about myself and wasn’t paying attention to details. And before I knew it, these jeans that used to be loose on me in July were tight.
Do you know this feeling?
I HATE this feeling.
Now, listen, I am not saying I hate my body because I don’t. In fact, I love it and everything it has allowed me to do. Travel the world, teach classes, run, jump, cook, draw, eat, hug, smile…my body allows me live out my dreams. But I cannot tell you how different it feels to do all of the above AND have your energy levels at its best WHILE looking in the mirror and being proud of your hard work.
It takes time to sculpt and achieve dreams whether they are physical, mental, or spiritual. It takes time and consistent dedication. Since I am done with my big travels for a while now, I can focus on this body of mine. And yesterday, I finally found that shred of hardcore determination to achieve achieve ACHIEVE in the face of tiredness, lack of motivation, and distraction.
I went to the gym and did one of the hardest workouts of my life. My muscles failed under me. I actually collapsed a couple times. (No I didn’t fall to the floor, but I could feel my arms buckling underneath me as I finished my last rep.) I was even making excruciating faces. And I never really make faces.
I also cleaned up my diet FOR REAL. I eat healthily most of the time, but the past several months I’ve had slipups with chips laying around. This time no more. No more things that can tempt me. I just gotta keep it out of sight. Out of mind. Also, to be honest, my biggest temptations are nuts. Although healthy, it’s not THAT great when you snack on them constantly! 1-2 oz a day is recommended. Not sure if you know this about me, but I can eat A LOT.
Like I always tell you, your diet is responsible for about 70-80% of your physique. How I wish I had just kept eating super clean after I moved to CA. Yes, I wish for it, but hey it’s life, and you gotta do what you gotta do. I also believe that everything happens for a reason. That 8 week plan made me comfortable with weights and it was my first introduction to eating like a fitness competitor. 6 small meals a day. Tons of water. I felt so energetic and vibrant!
Having something, then losing it, makes you want to work SO MUCH HARDER for it. It’s just the way life works.
So beginning yesterday, I am on my game. 110%. It’s exactly 1 year since I started that 8 week plan and now it’s time to relive the good times :)
I hope this post made you realize that even fitness professionals can lose it. You focus on others so much that you forget about yourself, so I want to thank you for being here for me. You are my community of support. So remember what I always say about falling down? You gotta get back up. It’s called RESILIENCE people and it is what shows your strength and character.
So over the next 3-4 months, I will be very particular with my diet and extra crazy with my workouts. I hope you decide to join me on this journey. Are you ready? Here we go!!!!!!
Thank you so much for letting me be honest with you. I love you so much.